Ok. Here Goes. My husband came home repentant and asking for forgiveness and I readily accepted and he moved home on Easter. Everything has been great, but these itty bitty niggling doubts are still creeping in my head. Please God, help me to overcome these doubts. I want more than anything to be happy and secure in my H's love for me. He has been trying very hard. We've spent lots of time playing with our son and he has surprised me with taking me to dinner and holding my hand and trying very hard to show me affection which is my #1 emotional need. Sexual fulfillment is also an important need to me. This is hard to say but we have not had sex since he has returned. He has genital warts that he had when we met, were treated and went away only to come back due to the stress he has went thru recently due to his job and our maital separation. I know he did not get these from any OW since he had them before. I don't know if this is what is affecting me. We plan to get them removed as soon as insurance kicks in. He doesn't want me to get them too. Please pray for me to have strength to get past all this. I have received what everyone here prays and hopes for. I do not want to blow this. I have really controlled myself and not done any LB. He was really tired last night and didn't snuggle up to me in his sleep and I start thinking little thoughts like has the new wore off already. I know I am being unreasonable. Please help me. This is my chance to rebuild my marriage and start over. I do not not not want to be like I was before he left. Please Please Please God, Help Me. Please pray for me, I don't want to take this wonderful blessing that God has given me and mess it up. Thank you!<P>Cindy<P>PS: His most important needs are recreational companionship, which I can do well. Domestic support, which I am trying to do and feel ok about. Also an attractive spouse which I feel he is proud of me and pleased with my appearance. His need for admiration and affirmation is very strong and that is where I fall short. I'm trying but I don't really seem to know how. Please pray that God will give me the ability to fill this powerful need. Thanks everyone.

Holding On<BR> I have a question for you it might sound stupid...but I was just wondering...have you asked God to forgive you for your short comings?<BR> One of the things that I find is it's always easier to forgive after we have been forgiven from God for the things that we need for giveness from...the other is instead of letting yourself thing about what has happened and proventing yourself from moving forward...when you start to think these things...it's time to take a deep breath and start praising the Lord....if you are lifting your voice up in praise...the Devil can't play with you....and right now he's going to do what ever he can to destory this....special if it's something God wants back together.<BR> Lord I come to you to lift up Holding On...I ask you to fill her with nothing but love and I ask you show her your love...so that she may love her husband with out doubts...I pray the blood of the lamb over her and her family that Satan may not touch her...I bind him in the name of Jesus that he will not beable to fill her head with doubts...I ask this in Jesus name...AMEN<BR>