i've known about my husband's emotional affair for two months now and i don't think the pain i'm feeling is ever going to end. i'm at the end of my rope and i feel as though i'm on the brink of doing something harmful to myself. i feel as if no one understands or loves me. my husband is totally numb to the pain that i have been going through. i feel as though i have been deserted by god. my husband's heart has grown so hard and numb that he is insensitive to anything except his own selfish desires. i know that god is using this situation to bring us back closer to him, but my sight is so short that i can't see beyond today. i feel as though my life has been totally destroyed. god has ignored my prayers and my cries. my husband, who was a godly man, is someone that i don't even recognize anymore. i can't take this anymore. please pray for rob and me.

Lord, I have been where sb is. I cry with her as we ask you to give her the strength to face today feeling so alone. Today is your day, a day to rest in you. Although we want you to bring our husbands back to yourself, we know that the decision to follow your way is one that each man must make himself. Hold sb and me in your hand today, be our comfort and our strength. Give us the courage and discernment to change the parts of us that have created this gulf in our marriages. Thank you for your true love, help us to feel it today, as we know this is a day when there is only one set of footprints in the sand. In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, by whom our marriages were blest, Amen.<P>sb, I'm with you. If I didn't have so much to work at in my own life, these months (without affection from my husband, feeling his anger and unforgiveness) would be heartbreaking. Since we are nowhere near recovery, Lovebusters and personal developement studies have been giving me faith. My husband too, is not the Christian I married. My counsellor said he is being deceived and therefore not able to see the truth right now. <P>Love and prayers. not so "alone" when I'm here<P>

i wish i had magic words to say to uplift you, I do understand how hard this must be.<BR>Dear God,<BR> Please work in sb1's heart and help her to give the pain to you, please make it possible to send her son to college. Open their eyes to possibilities for funding. Please soften her husbands heart, ease his pain and depression, so he can concentrate on his marriage.. in Jesus name Amen

whoops, sorry, the part about the sons college was for amialone...............<BR>God will sort it out I am sure.<BR> Dear God,<BR> Please give sb1 a sense of peace and strenth to face today. Open her eyes to something beautiful today, give her a glimse of hope. Please give her husband a lift as well. Soften their hearts toward each other<BR>amen

Dear Sb1,<P>I know your hurt and pain... know tha our Lord listens to our prayers.... I too have had doubts if my prayers have been heard... and I'm still in this terrible situatiion... Remember, its in Gods time no ours... know that our Lord is always with you... get on your knees and pray out loud.. just like you are talking to a friend... this really helps me sometimes.....I know this is very hard for you.......<P>Dear Lord.... please be with sb1 and comfort her...please give her the strength to face this terrible time with her right now... Hold all of us sisters in Christ who come to this board in your arms.... trouble our H's with guilt and shame for the pain they are causing us... break all bonds and sexual desires or these OW... Trouble our H's, even as they sleep... message to them then... remind them of the vow they made before you to be faithful.. to love us forever....alos touble these OW... let them feel the guilt and shame for being involved in an adulterous affairs...thank You...IJN...amen

Hi SBL,<P>I am so sorry for your pain. Do not give up hope. God is already working in your life, He led you here. You are not alone, read and learn how others have coped with your same situation. No one knows your pain, but as you read the posts here you will see that we all have been brought to our knees in one way or another. The good thing is that when you are on your knees God will be faithful and he will hear your prayers. He loves you and He doesn't want you to give up. Everyone here cares about you even though we don't know you. That is the power of God in our lives. So please don't give up hope. I pray that God will send His Holy Spirit to comfort you and that He will reach into your H's heart and return to you the man you once knew. Be strong, trust in God, rely on Him. Burden Him with the pain that so overwhelms you. He is merciful, just and true. Most importantly He truly loves you. You are a child of God, please do not harm such a wonderous, precious gift that God has created. <P>Sometimes we are faced with situations with the ones we love that hurt so much. As you will see there are people here that have been exactly where you are right now. Remember, it is beyond our understanding to know God's ways. Please do not think that God has deserted you. He will not forsake you. He promises you that in the Bible. You can rely on that with all your heart. I pray with all my heart that you will feel his presence and he will calm your fears and comfort your breaking heart. In Jesus name, our most loving and precious savior, I pray for you.<P>You have found a place of understanding Christian women who truly care. It is in my heart to tell you that I and I'm sure every one here loves you. Jesus loves you.<P>Cindy

As Holding On (If that's not the right name, I hope it was close enough) said, <BR>God has led you here. <P>You're not alone with feeling hopeless, like there's no tomorrow for you. You sound like the way I felt last summer, after D day. The pain was actually physical, in my face, my whole body. I can't tell you what went on in my mind, it was so desperate and black and hopeless that I would have done anythin to stop the pain. Couldn't see beyond the immediate pain (and I can't be mroe articulate, the words can't describe it.) So what you say scares me. <P>I want you to have hope. God is there for you and he has led you to people who want to shine a light toward that hope. <P>I'm not one who thinks about Satan, though I do believe in good and evil. I've been where you apparently are, the deep pit. Post here to be comforted by others who suffer what you are suffering. Hang on; we're throwing you a rope, tie it around your waist and hang on tight! You will come out of the pit. <P>When you learn about an emotional affair you feel betrayed, alone, ashamed and abandoned. Not to mention being made to doubt your sanity. (Notice my pen name.) <P>I wish I'd thought to use a search engine before I did. Instead I went to a library away from our neighborhood to look for anonymous help. <P>Come back, keep coming back, and keep praying. You'll find you have more strength than you thought you did. <P><p>[This message has been edited by Bellevue (edited May 08, 2000).]

dear amialone,<P>thank you so much for responding to my heartfelt prayer. it means so much that others know the pain that i am going through. your prayers and the prayers of others are a tremendous blessing. i am learning patience and perseverance throughout this trial and i know that my husband is learning lessons as well. it is so easy to become despondent, but harder to hang in there with faith. please pray that i'll continue to trust what god is doing in my life. please pardon the lack of capitalization - the shift key on my keyboard is not working. <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by amialone:<BR><B>Lord, I have been where sb is. I cry with her as we ask you to give her the strength to face today feeling so alone. Today is your day, a day to rest in you. Although we want you to bring our husbands back to yourself, we know that the decision to follow your way is one that each man must make himself. Hold sb and me in your hand today, be our comfort and our strength. Give us the courage and discernment to change the parts of us that have created this gulf in our marriages. Thank you for your true love, help us to feel it today, as we know this is a day when there is only one set of footprints in the sand. In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, by whom our marriages were blest, Amen.<P>sb, I'm with you. If I didn't have so much to work at in my own life, these months (without affection from my husband, feeling his anger and unforgiveness) would be heartbreaking. Since we are nowhere near recovery, Lovebusters and personal developement studies have been giving me faith. My husband too, is not the Christian I married. My counsellor said he is being deceived and therefore not able to see the truth right now. <P>Love and prayers. not so "alone" when I'm here<P></B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

dear carol14,<P>thank you so much for your concern and prayers. just to know that others are lifting me up is a blessing. please continue to pray for healing in my marriage. thank you. <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by carol14:<BR><B> i wish i had magic words to say to uplift you, I do understand how hard this must be.<BR>Dear God,<BR> Please work in sb1's heart and help her to give the pain to you, please make it possible to send her son to college. Open their eyes to possibilities for funding. Please soften her husbands heart, ease his pain and depression, so he can concentrate on his marriage.. in Jesus name Amen</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

dear scoick,<P>thank you for hearing my cry and responding with your prayers. i do so much appreciate the love and concern that i have found at this site. it has truly been a blessing. god is working, i'm just having to learn to wait for his timing. please continue to lift my husband and me up to the lord. please pardon the lack of caps - my shift key doesn't work. <P>susan <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by scoick:<BR><B>Dear Sb1,<P>I know your hurt and pain... know tha our Lord listens to our prayers.... I too have had doubts if my prayers have been heard... and I'm still in this terrible situatiion... Remember, its in Gods time no ours... know that our Lord is always with you... get on your knees and pray out loud.. just like you are talking to a friend... this really helps me sometimes.....I know this is very hard for you.......<P>Dear Lord.... please be with sb1 and comfort her...please give her the strength to face this terrible time with her right now... Hold all of us sisters in Christ who come to this board in your arms.... trouble our H's with guilt and shame for the pain they are causing us... break all bonds and sexual desires or these OW... Trouble our H's, even as they sleep... message to them then... remind them of the vow they made before you to be faithful.. to love us forever....alos touble these OW... let them feel the guilt and shame for being involved in an adulterous affairs...thank You...IJN...amen</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

dear holding on,<P>thank you so much for taking the time to read my post and responding to my need. i appreciate your love and concern - it is a blessing to know that others understand what i am going through. even though i don't know you, i feel a bond, and just wanted to let you know that i'm thankful for your prayers. i know that god is working, i just don't understand the why or the how. finding this site has been truly a miracle and of the lord's leading. thank you for caring.<P>susan <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Holding On:<BR><B>Hi SBL,<P>I am so sorry for your pain. Do not give up hope. God is already working in your life, He led you here. You are not alone, read and learn how others have coped with your same situation. No one knows your pain, but as you read the posts here you will see that we all have been brought to our knees in one way or another. The good thing is that when you are on your knees God will be faithful and he will hear your prayers. He loves you and He doesn't want you to give up. Everyone here cares about you even though we don't know you. That is the power of God in our lives. So please don't give up hope. I pray that God will send His Holy Spirit to comfort you and that He will reach into your H's heart and return to you the man you once knew. Be strong, trust in God, rely on Him. Burden Him with the pain that so overwhelms you. He is merciful, just and true. Most importantly He truly loves you. You are a child of God, please do not harm such a wonderous, precious gift that God has created. <P>Sometimes we are faced with situations with the ones we love that hurt so much. As you will see there are people here that have been exactly where you are right now. Remember, it is beyond our understanding to know God's ways. Please do not think that God has deserted you. He will not forsake you. He promises you that in the Bible. You can rely on that with all your heart. I pray with all my heart that you will feel his presence and he will calm your fears and comfort your breaking heart. In Jesus name, our most loving and precious savior, I pray for you.<P>You have found a place of understanding Christian women who truly care. It is in my heart to tell you that I and I'm sure every one here loves you. Jesus loves you.<P>Cindy </B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

dear bellevue,<P>thank you for your caring and concern. i have seen so much love and compassion on this site, i know that god has lead me here. even though i have not posted very often, i can see the lord at work in the lives of those who post regularly. i appreciate your prayers. thank you.<P>susan