Friends, <BR>My happiness from yesterday is fading. H was wonderful last night (not like we used to be, but I could certainly see that the man I married is still in there). We had a nice family evening, he checked his e-mail quickly before bed and immediately thereafter made a comment that hurt my feelings about how my body has changed since the beginning of my pregnancy..he went so far as to say I used to have a DECENT body..I was a little better than decent until the fertility drugs, and even then I wasn't awful! And what's more, I've actually trimmed down since I got pregnant except my chest and tummy. Anyway, he tried to backtrack after he realized that he hurt my feelings..but the hurt was there. At any rate, we went to bed and he seemed a little more withdrawn than earlier in the evening (e-mail I imagine), then the beeper went off at 10:25. As before this week, and I praise God for it, H didn't even hear the buzzing inspite of the 1/2 hour it beeped. None the less, the distance and the beeping set me up for ugly dreams all night. H did reach for me in the night at several different points, but I still dreamed upsetting dreams about his leaving. I am so thankful for the way God has worked on my H's heart this week, but we could do so much better if the other people (OW and the friends who agree that divorce is an easy option)would stop beeping him, giving advice, luring him to a path that he wasn't previously open to. Please help me pray that these other people..especially OW/friend from SA...will lose their grip on my H..that God will convict these people and take them from my H's life. I am also adding to these prayers that God work through this baby girl I am carrying to speak truth to her daddy. H is very focused and excited when he can feel her. She is just now growing to the point where he can occasionally feel her, but as she gets stronger, I hope God will use her to help H focus on the important things in this life. I know H doesn't want to miss being a daddy full time, but right now, with all the outside pulling he can't see that D will make him a part time, weekend dad and he'll miss so much.<P>My prayers are with you all,<BR>Kim

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by emptyinside:<BR><B>Friends, <BR>My happiness from yesterday is fading. H was wonderful last night (not like we used to be, but I could certainly see that the man I married is still in there). We had a nice family evening, he checked his e-mail quickly before bed and immediately thereafter made a comment that hurt my feelings about how my body has changed since the beginning of my pregnancy..he went so far as to say I used to have a DECENT body..I was a little better than decent until the fertility drugs, and even then I wasn't awful! And what's more, I've actually trimmed down since I got pregnant except my chest and tummy. Anyway, he tried to backtrack after he realized that he hurt my feelings..but the hurt was there. At any rate, we went to bed and he seemed a little more withdrawn than earlier in the evening (e-mail I imagine), then the beeper went off at 10:25. As before this week, and I praise God for it, H didn't even hear the buzzing inspite of the 1/2 hour it beeped. None the less, the distance and the beeping set me up for ugly dreams all night. H did reach for me in the night at several different points, but I still dreamed upsetting dreams about his leaving. I am so thankful for the way God has worked on my H's heart this week, but we could do so much better if the other people (OW and the friends who agree that divorce is an easy option)would stop beeping him, giving advice, luring him to a path that he wasn't previously open to. Please help me pray that these other people..especially OW/friend from SA...will lose their grip on my H..that God will convict these people and take them from my H's life. I am also adding to these prayers that God work through this baby girl I am carrying to speak truth to her daddy. H is very focused and excited when he can feel her. She is just now growing to the point where he can occasionally feel her, but as she gets stronger, I hope God will use her to help H focus on the important things in this life. I know H doesn't want to miss being a daddy full time, but right now, with all the outside pulling he can't see that D will make him a part time, weekend dad and he'll miss so much.<P>My prayers are with you all,<BR>Kim</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by emptyinside:<BR><B>Friends, <BR>My happiness from yesterday is fading. H was wonderful last night (not like we used to be, but I could certainly see that the man I married is still in there). We had a nice family evening, he checked his e-mail quickly before bed and immediately thereafter made a comment that hurt my feelings about how my body has changed since the beginning of my pregnancy..he went so far as to say I used to have a DECENT body..I was a little better than decent until the fertility drugs, and even then I wasn't awful! And what's more, I've actually trimmed down since I got pregnant except my chest and tummy. Anyway, he tried to backtrack after he realized that he hurt my feelings..but the hurt was there. At any rate, we went to bed and he seemed a little more withdrawn than earlier in the evening (e-mail I imagine), then the beeper went off at 10:25. As before this week, and I praise God for it, H didn't even hear the buzzing inspite of the 1/2 hour it beeped. None the less, the distance and the beeping set me up for ugly dreams all night. H did reach for me in the night at several different points, but I still dreamed upsetting dreams about his leaving. I am so thankful for the way God has worked on my H's heart this week, but we could do so much better if the other people (OW and the friends who agree that divorce is an easy option)would stop beeping him, giving advice, luring him to a path that he wasn't previously open to. Please help me pray that these other people..especially OW/friend from SA...will lose their grip on my H..that God will convict these people and take them from my H's life. I am also adding to these prayers that God work through this baby girl I am carrying to speak truth to her daddy. H is very focused and excited when he can feel her. She is just now growing to the point where he can occasionally feel her, but as she gets stronger, I hope God will use her to help H focus on the important things in this life. I know H doesn't want to miss being a daddy full time, but right now, with all the outside pulling he can't see that D will make him a part time, weekend dad and he'll miss so much.<P>My prayers are with you all,<BR>Kim</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><BR>Dear emptyinside, First of all, you aren't empty inside, you are full of the miracle of life! <P>May is the month of the mother of God, the Blessed Virgin Mary. I pray to God, but also pray the rosary. Catholics revere the Virgin Mary and pray to her to intercede with her Son, Jesus. Dear Mother Mary, please interced with your Son, and work on emptyinside's (Kim's) husband to realize and appreciate the gift he has with his new family, its specialness and uniqueness. Please help to soften his heart toward his wife and allow his eyes to open to the evil of the pull of the others who contact him and alienate him from his wife. <P><BR>Dear Kim, Even if you're not Catholic, this prayer couldn't hurt anything.<P>Stay serene.<BR><P>------------------<BR>Belle, Domestic Goddess