First of all, I want to tell you all how very precious your prayers are to me. I wanted to share a little good news with those who have been praying for my situation. Things are changing and I truly believe that God is behind it all. I am still very aprehensive and going through many emotions and know that I have to continue to look to the Lord to make things right for us. I full realize that disappointments could come up again, as they have so often in the past when progress has been made, but I felt that this news had some merit. As you all know, I have been on a roller coaster for several years. We have gone through a number of stages. At first, my H was sure it was all over and he was certain he wanted to move on with his life. Moved in with the OW and even talked of marrying her. After several months, he moved out from OW (another answer to prayer). Then, he began to make comments and little hints about "reconciling someday". We began to see one another (more or less dating) but he kept the OW on the string as well. This winter,we came close to reconciling (he began to move home), but he has been unable to give up the OW. My H had done a pretty good job of keeping his two lives separate and the OW believed that the time he spent with me was because of his daughter. I prayed for several years to have the right time to talk with the OW and this happened last fall. The timing was God's (I am sure) and the conversation was peaceful and respectful, but I was able to tell the OW much of the truth that she had chosen to not believe or that my H had cast in another light. So, the truth was out in the open, but my H somehow convinced her that everything was okay and they reconciled. I have not had any peace about calling her again and have tried to speak with her. I have prayed that the Lord would reveal the truth without my help....And he has. H has been staying with us this past 10 days....I posted because his anger was becoming unbearable. It hurt as I truly did not feel it was justified and he could not even find a reason....Well, God did do something big and it explains why my H was/is in the state he is in. My H left last Thursday night and although I suspected he was going to see the OW, I did not LB and make any insinuations. He said he was going home (2 state away). He left and then he came back home about 4:00 in the morning. He only gave me a partial picture (he talked to his Mom and she filled in a few blanks) but he did tell me that the OW called thier relationship quits. She told my H that she could not take it any more, knowing he was at home with me and going back and forth between the both of us. Evidently, she has begun going out and he found her with another man at the bar. She told him it is over because she wants someone who loves only her (I have prayed she would desire a righteous relationship). Anyway, my H says that now would be a good time to really put this all back together. He is obviously hurting and commented that he figured that eventually he would lose one or both of us. When my H finally admitted this on Saturday, I asked him if this had been what was bothering him and he said "yes". He said she had left him some messages on his cell phone as she knew he was staying with me. My H asked if he was going to lose me as well. I broke down and cried and told him that I wanted him to have his feelings for me return. I told him I was tired of hurting and that I wanted to be happy again...even if that meant being alone. He then looked me straight in the eyes and said "My feelings for you are still there, in fact I have been noticing how very pretty you are." Words of hope.... Please keep praying as this is only the beginning of a new chapter, but it is further along the road that we were. I am praying that the OW finds a good relationship and that my H will have a softened heart towards me and my children. It will still take a miracle to put this all back together. My H is bringing more things over and should be here by tomorrow. And, he is planning on looking for work here and living with us. Wow. He is not happy, but I pray that God will meet with him and counsel him, heal him, and restore him so he can be the man that God intended him to be. Once again, this much is a miracle and I have prayed for this for a very long time. It seemed forever, and yet now that it has happened, I am amazed. I know that I will need the Lord's strength to endure the stages we will now be facing. My H is hurt and his pattern has always been to run when his relationships mess up. His Mother says that I am the only one he has not been able to run from, that he keeps coming back. I know it has to be God and that I have to trust that God will see to my life and make our marriage a good one. Thank you for all of your prayers. I just wanted to share this small victory as I am so very encouraged by the victories of other's here on the board.

My prayers are with you for a recovered maarriage.

Father, I praise YOUR Mighty name for working in this family. I continue to pray that this family will be reconciled and grow stronger to live for YOU and then for each other. I praise YOU for the miracles and blessings YOU have given to this family and I thank YOU for hearing her cries in the night and restoring all that the enemy has taken. YOU ARE an awesome and loving GOD, and I thank YOU for the mighty works YOU have done in their lives.<BR>Giving YOU Glory, Thanks, Praise and Worship for the miracles in their lives IN the name of Jesus.<BR>Amen and Amen<BR>