I am burdened with a new concern and feel very foolish. My concern is that I may be pregnant. My circumstances do not make this a welcome situation (I am ashamed to admit this) because my marriage is rocky (H is back with his mother and I am unsure where we stand, but I am trusting God to work this one out). Many things need resolution and I know that our Father can and does work beyond what we can even imagine. I am also almost 44 years old and became a grandmother this past week. My H and I have a 4 year old D who is a most precious blessing. Another child would add more stress to the situation and my H will not be pleased. I am (and always have been) the primary bread winner. My finances will not allow the additional cost of childcare, etc. Please pray for me. This is overwhelming to me at the moment. I know that a child is a blessing and I will accept this additional responsibility. Please pray that I can find joy and peace in this situation, and that if my fears are unfounded, that the concern will be dissolved. I may even be wrong about my concerns, but I am discouraged. I have been asking the Lord to change my life and to bring it in line with his plan for me. I truly believe in God's goodness and I love the Lord. I have been a christian for a number of years and realize that many of those years I have lived in his permissive will, rather than his perfect will. I desire his perfect will in my life. I am very weary of the struggles that I have had in my life. I also reflect upon the devastation that my refusal to seek God's perfect will has caused for me and for my family. I want things to be different. I am ashamed and full of sorrow that the thought of another child is anything but joyful. I am afraid, please pray for me.

Trust God...If indeed there is a baby, He will work it all out. Do not stress, just accept what is given to you and trust that God has this situation in His hands. <P>We are so blind when it comes to what is good for us. I am 42 and we have 5 kids...I would totally stress in the natural to think about another pregnancy but if that is what God gave me I would try to find everything positive that I could. Be thankful in ALL things and it will work out to good for all those that believe...I will be praying for you.

Thank you for your reply, Starry eyed. I know that God is a big God and he can help me to make it through whatever happens. I am a little overwhelmed at this point. Financially, I am stretched to the max (and I have no help from H). I told H that I was a week late (now 10 days and I have the usual symptoms). His response was, well that is your problem, I want nothing to do with it. He has no desire to see me "go to seed" again. He made several other comments that I do not even wish to repeat, but overall the discussion added to my discouragement. My job has been overwhelming and my responsibility was greatly increased in the past few months. I have been seeking God's will for my life and as each hurdle is overcome, another comes along. I am trying to maintain my hope that God will change my life, that I will be happy again, that this tremendous pressure will be lifted. Please keep praying for me as I am greatly discouraged right now. Thank you....