I am at a fairly difficult place right now. Our marriage has been in disarray since it's inception, but this past 2 years has seen the culmination of it's disparity. We have 5 children ages 3 - 21, 3 still at home. Many mines have been detonated recently in our relationship and our ship would seem to be slowly yet determinately sinking.<BR>I know that everyone says this but I am going to say it anyway, ours is a very compicated matter in that there are many, many extenuating circumstances causing the disharmony between my wife and I, and when I say that mines have been detonated, they have, and the gapping holes they have created have only accelerated the dissolving of our scant sense of mutual support and unity.<BR>I am in the process right now of filing for bankruptcy. Also I am trying to fill the role of Mr Mom as a result of my wife returning to school full time and being away 5 days and 4 nights out every week. Please pray for my wife as she goes through severe bouts of depression. Also pray for our marriage and somehow for me to become financially responsible to secure a future for my family.<BR>My 2 sons are attending public school for the first time in thier lives this year. They are in grades 5 & 7. Pray for walls of protection to be around them as they go.<BR>Thank each one of you for your time and prayers.

mY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.

I am praying for you and your wife and children. I hope you can find a way to put the past behind and move on together and be happy. I also hope that your children will be safe. (I lived through public school. So did my 3 sisters and brother. It isn't as bad as you may fear. The difficulty lies in the lack of motivation on behalf of the teachers; perhaps due to the fact that most moneyed families don't want their children to be there among the rabble...so the funding is low. )<BR>I also am praying that you will have the time and money to be involved with youir children's education, and maybe improve it not only for them but for all the children they are in school with. I pray that you and your wife can come to a happy agreement and find a way through the minefield without being hurt.

Thank you Ani & Tigger for your concern.<BR>I am not so confident about school being such a safe place after Littleton and the others Ani but I believe in God providing safety for us. My wife is planning on leaving if I don't change, she has already started the process with her going to school so that if I don't change she will have a way of escape for herself and our children. She says that the biggest thing is my anxiety and how that has kept everyone in the family oppressed. I have to agree that I have a great problem with anxiousness, so much that it has kept me from advancing in the employment world to the degree that I could have if I was free from that affliction. I also was very deppressed and would go into emotional tyrads frequently which helped to make everyone in the family feel insecure. I am much less influenced by my emotions than before yet my wife does not see it that way. She is waiting for me to change and until then has plans to leave.<BR>

Look to God for the help you need to change. He will help you.