I totally do not understand these things. I have somehow become close to God. I found out about the affair Jan. 7. I became close to God in Dec. Baptist came to my door. I did the saying with them. Felt confused. Asked God to help me with the right religion....Took a book of my mom's she got for Christmas "The Search For Faith"- thought she'd be upset- ended up she already read it- meant for me I guess-- I totally felt a connection with God through that the first time in my life. <BR>Honestly, I don't know about numbers- Got the 666 twice in October- was afraid something weird was going on- Mom said evil would enter my home ( I know sounds crazy) we were robbed. Only thing is this is when my husband started to have feelings and acted on them two weeks later...weird- Then the Fri before d-day I got 777 and I verbalized " Thank you I needed that" I felt that now God was telling me everything would be okay- I guess I was ready to know.<BR>Sat. my H goes to his car to get a book- gone too long I go out their he's on his cell- hiding a phone call=- stayed up late - believed all the lies- not in the back of my head. Sun- snooped on the internet- trying to break into his university account- couldn't. However, I verbalized "Why can't I just know the Truth God"-one second later---I got it.<BR>My husband has an e-mail for junk- hasn't used it in three years- checked it that day- told ow not to e-mail there- I clicked in didn't need a password- the letter that told me what I needed to know--Of course, after I confronted- still lies, but only for a few minuter. I believe God was the one helping me confront them- I was as calm as could be on the phone talking to her- when he went to her dorm room I went- didn't know her room number- the desk gave it to me(against regulations) I knocked, barged in, sat on her bed and said" we three need to talk"<BR>Explained : I know students fantasize about professors. You love her , your in love with her- you can't control your emotions, but you can control you actions.<BR>You can not have two relationships....Then I went home- he came home that night-<BR>I ended his relationship the next day.<BR>I kept saying one night to God that I would ask him for a sign that I should keep my marriage- Jeh. witness come to my door want me to read article on what God wants us to do in our marriage- weird with all the other topics listed and then she has something else, something on saving your marriage. God has sent different religions- different people to me with his messages-<BR>I sat down the first time in a long time to read the bible- had no clue what to read:<BR>Put it down - checked my e-mail- A woman I haven't talked to in three years told me to read psalm 69, 86, and 91--I was blown away when I read them and cried---It goes on. How could I ever ignore the communication I am having with God---it is so hard to understand- I would not be healing at this rate without him---I need people to pray for my husband- he needs God--actually makes him uncomfortable for me to talk about this stuff. Christians are the only ones that don't think your crazy---few months ago I would have thought who I am now was a religious fanatic---Glad I'm here now, completely with God...Love