we seem to have the same weakness. writing notes, calling etc. <P>today i said goodby with a smile after church - for once, i didn't say when will i see you next, ect....<P>i just smiled and gave him a tv and some furniture for "his house" reminded me of the prodigal son. the kids are so young and i change things so often they don't notice.<P>tonight i am going to tell you and all my other prayer partners on this board. i will no longer call him, no matter what. i will not send him notes. ok, so let's start there. tryingtohope - how bout try it with me for 7 days!<P>anyone else game. we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!!!! <P>what ever they do or say is temporary anyway.<BR>hey devil , my husband is coming home soon - na na na na na nay!!!!! <P>by the way - take a look at the mule story over at the recovery board. it may be on the 2nd page or so it waas posted around easter. it was great... <P>the joy of the Lord is my strength, teddy

Abide in the Lord thru him all things are possible. But remeber they only happen in his time. You are in my prayers

Teddy,<P>Praise God and Amen!<P>It is hard not to contact them. It took me falling on my face a few times to get the concept. Having someone with you for 7 days would be great. It is so great to find support here. When I was trying it I was all alone. <P>Praise God my husband has mentioned his lawyer twice the past week and both times he sounded discouraged with him. What come be better than strife between a divorce lawyer and his client. Let him keep blaming things on his lawyer,better the lawyer than me.I didn't ask why , don't want to know. A woman not asking questions about something like this could only be a GOD THING!<P>Remember to thank God everyday for your spouse and the love He has given you for your spouse. This was hard for me because I just wanted God to take the love away so I wouldn't hurt anymore. Now I thank Him for the pain because through it I have grown closer to HIM. <P>You are all in my thoughts and prayers.<P>gentle

Thanks for the help! My husband is still living in our house so I am walking a kind of tightrope. He doesn't seem so hostile toward me now. He is still with the OW but now he is paying more attention to our daughter and he stayed home the whole past weekend for the first time in months. In the meantime, I have been SO blessed by the Lord through all of you - I look forward to hearing from you every day and to reading the uplifting words. <P>I feel so at peace inside in the past two weeks. Anyway Teddy, I didn't write a note and I will stick with you on that. I told him that I still loved him but I didn't want to tell him every day since I knew he knew and he said that he did know that. He is not in a big rush to leave so I am just praying for that hedge of thorns to grow as quickly and as tall as possible!! I'm hoping my inner peace will attract him and in the meantime I praise God that my daughter isn't suffering like she would if he left all the way. He still travels a lot and won't be home every night but she doesn't have to know why. You have all given me a real boost and now I am confident that Jesus will turn his heart one of these days. In the meantime, He's given me a HUGE blessing, to feel peace and to find others who understand what I'm going through personally and spiritually and you are all helping me to grow UP too.<P>Since there are only a few believers in my workplace, I hope to be a fair witness to my Lord. Now I finally get what it means to rely on him completely since I basically have no choice! ;-) Isn't that weird how you have to be so far down to really understand the gift He has waiting? The day after I told Him I couldn't take it anymore and it was up to Him to fix our marriage if it were supposed to be fixed - my depression lifted like a great big cloud blowing away.<P>I wish for each of you a big hug from heaven, to pour down the grace and peace of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior who lives and reigns with the Father and the Holy Spirit forever and ever. Amen.<P>God is so good...