Please PRAY for me I have been struggling with the humiliation of my husbands on going infidelity for about 2 years now ..It consume my thoughts daily since he continues to lie and sneak around...last night I found a cell phone underneath the passenger seat of his car it seems he has had some time now by what my 4 yr old daughter casually said about "daddy's secret phone"....I feel trapped in this marriage and grin and bear it only b/c of our 2 kids and b/c of financial need ...he has told me in the past that he likes having his cake ...and feels bold b/c he knows I am in no state to leave him....(since my moms death I actually have no one else to turn to) ...I hate what I have become ...it has been the most humiliating event of my whole life ....please pray for me I struggle in believing that God can save this marriage

Please go to this site. <A HREF="http://www.restorem.org" TARGET=_blank>www.restorem.org</A> <P>God can and will restore you marriage. God led me to this site when I had little hope. I found hope here and my faith has became strong. Please go and read testimonies from many women just like you.<P>gentle

The book from that site Gentle mentioned is excellent.<P>I want to tell you that YOU are not being humiliated. You are doing the right thing. You are not small because you believe in your marriage and care about your children. Your husband is the one who has a problem. It's not you.<P>I can only suggest that you give this over to the Lord and ask Him to carry this cross for you. It is too heavy for you and you sound almost desperate. You are never alone with God - He will protect you and watch over you. Pray to increase your faith and pray for the will to forgive your husband (even if he doesn't "deserve" it. None of us deserved the sacrifice Jesus made for us, yet He did it out of love. He wants you to do the same so that your husband can come back to Him and to you.)<P>I am in your same situation. I am taking anti-depressants because the situation got me so down I couldn't function. If you haven't been to a good doctor yet, try to find one because if you are depressed, you will have a hard time being a good mother. <P>Try to let go of your anger and resentment toward your husband. What he is doing is completely wrong but your anger won't help him to heal.<P>Don't worry about the future or what he is doing - trust in God to help you to heal first by drawing closer to Him in this trial. Then slowly you can heal your marriage with the Lord.<P>Jesus, please help falula to love You and to trust in You. Please take up her cross so that she may rest in You. Allow her to feel the peace from doing Your Holy will. Please help her husband to understand what a special wife he has and turn back to You and to her. I ask this in Your Holy Name. Amen.

Thank you for your responses I have talked to him about the phone. I am doing alot better...I have been praying alot and reading the Bible...I am just going to let God deal with the situation