This is by far hte hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am trying so hard to cange me for me, I know that is theolny way that my marriage may be saved. But you know each day I am apart from my W my love grows stronger. It is so freaking hard to not try to push or manipulate my way back. I praise God daily for his work in my life and the work that I cannot see in my W's life. My faith has grown so much stronger but it is days like today that Ijust want to see some real progress. I know that is a selfish attitude. And see ow I am really starting to project, Mothers Day is my favorite Holiday. In two weeks my little angel makes her fisrt communion and I wont be there for that unless a true mirical happens the next week is her birthbday. I know I am projecting but it is just this day. See I asked my W last week if I could have some flowers sent to her for Mothers Day she said NO! So today I spent my first Mothers Day away from my family. I really hate being HOMELESS! I know when we get back as a family I wil never allow our home to feel like a house and not a home. I thank and praise GOD for this opportunity to work on me<P>------------------<BR>If you are living in the problem then you are not part of the solution!<P>I CAN'T<BR>HE CAN<BR>I THINK I WILL LET HIM

It's really hard. I hope you are feeling loved by God today. He is so happy to have you. Don't rush Him. He has big plans for you.<P>God bless you and give you strength and inner peace.