It has been a very bad day today. I am going through boxes, since we moved into a new home just 2 weeks before H left to live w/OW. I was left with all the unpacking. Well, some of these boxes contain the SUM TOTAL of our lives together, marriage license, wedding photos, kids' pics(now grown and gone)etc. I thought I was handling it well, actually I WAS handling it well. But, today, well, he "bounced" one of my Voicemails back to me again (a message of some importance that I called him with 3 weeks ago), and between the UNopened voice mail, and the opening of the history of our 20 years of marriage, it's been a picnic for Satan....just PICK ME apart at the seams. <P>I keep having visions of my H and OW laughing and wooping it up, partying, and having a grand time, walking arm-in-arm together and all sorts of stuff....it's enough to make ME "throw in the towel." Please pray that I can hold on....I know God is in control, I know God can "change the king's heart any way He wishes..." - it's just that today has NOT been one of those "we walk by faith..." kind of days. It's been very hard. And lonely. And I'm getting sucked under...<P>Lupo

Lupo, I can kind of relate to your pain. Although mine is different. H forgave me (I am the WS) and we decided to start a new life in a new home. I have had to face my own grief as I washed the walls of our last home office where I allowed compromise on the internet, where I allowed OM to attack me and then gave him continuing power to abuse me.<P>We resign our ministry officially on Friday and I am feeling major rejection. <P>So although I am on the opposite side of your pain, I still hear it.<P>Jesus, please help my sister to know You are in control. I ask Your loving arms of comfort to lift her close to Your heart. Wash away the sorrow and bring your peace. May Lupo know she is Your heart's desire. You are grieved that she was wronged. Convict her H to repent. But right now, Lord, please just give her hope...comfort...good friends...an overwhelming sense of Your people praying for her. Carry her through and as you promised Paul, please give her Your more than sufficient grace. God, You know she needs a tangible reminder of her worth in Your eyes today so please bring Your touch of healing I pray. In Jesus Name. Amen.

Dear Lupo, it must be going around cause ive had a day from hell. My wife and i are drawing closer together and that has unleashed all of hell. My sister whom i made guardian of my son, thinks a guardianship was me giving up my parental rights and she has become far worse than my wife ever was. I havent seen my son for 3 months cause she wouldnt let me see him,even on fathers day and i cried a lot that day. and now she went to the courts and lied to them and told them i was a danger to my son and was going to kidnap him. I cant get a lawyer to fight her and her lies. I am totally broke and can barly eat. She also managed to turn my own mother againts me with nothing but the most evil of lies. This doesnt even seem real. When my sister found out how close my wife and i are about 4 months ago, she started with her evil plans. Now shes carrying them out. I am totally helpless. Im crying a lot again. I have lost my son and everything for continuing to love my wife. Ive lost even my own mother. I suppose the devil hates me more than most. Still, i also wish i could just throw in the towel. I hope and pray to God this day will pass for us and we will have joy in our mourning.<BR>Mark

<BR><B>I cant get a lawyer to fight her and her lies. I am totally broke and can barly eat. She also managed to turn my own mother againts me with nothing but the most evil of lies. This doesnt even seem real. When my sister found out how close my wife and i are about 4 months ago, she started with her evil plans. Now shes carrying them out. I am totally helpless. Im crying a lot again. I have lost my son and everything for continuing to love my wife. Ive lost even my own mother. I suppose the devil hates me more than most</B><P>Oh, Mark, I'm soooo sorry to hear things are continuing to get worse with your sister, even as they are getting better with your wife. You are right, though. It's obvious the devil hates your victories. I guess that's what happened to me....I was trying to stand against the devil ON MY OWN yesterday, and I certainly didn't do a very good job of it. I have cried a LOT last night, and this morning, too, since I still am NOT feeling victorious like I want to. BUT I am trying to STAND on God's promises, and YOU MUST DO THAT, too. GOD IS good. God DOES want your family restored. STAND on that, believe God for it. Ask God to move in your sister's heart, cause God can "move the king's heart any way He wishes..." I can't imagine God having no control over your sister's heart! She is just being a tool of the devil right now. Reach out to her in love. Let God show her His love through you. DON'T fight her, just let God continue to work. Surely your son tells her he wants to be with his daddy and mommy. Surely she will soften at the pleading of a small child? Pray God will soften her heart.<P>Father, please let this time of trial be short for Mark. He and his wife and little boy have been through SO much, Lord, it is now becoming too much of a burden for him to handle. Put an end to his days of suffering, Lord, and reunite his entire family TO YOUR GLORY!! This miracle will be a testimony for many in years to come. Please, Lord, please hear our cries. Mark has been faithful and trusting to your wil, Lord. Please bless his faithfulness. Thank you for your concern for our little problems, although they are little to you, they seem insurmountable to us. Thank you, Lord that we can move mountains out of our way. Please, In the name above all names, in the name of Jesus, move this mountain! Amen!<P>Freshstart, I am sorry to hear about the major life changes you are going through, too.Yes, rejection, almost a twin to lovelessness....I think it is the major feeling that the devil has used on me...certainly I felt MAJOR rejection when those calls came back to me, as though my H had not - did not WANT to - listen to my voice, DID NOT CARE what I was calling him about. Rejection. A horrible feeling. Thank you, Jesus, you did NOT reject us when we came, as sinners to the foot of your cross. Lord, you have NEVER rejected anyone who comes broken-hearted to you for salvation or healing. Thank you for healing all these broken hearts today, Lord, for FS and her spouse, and all in their family. I raise them up, Lord, and ask for continued healing of their marriage, and set aside the feelings of rejection and dejection. Lord, instead, let them know that you are the captain of their ship, YOU are leading them into Canaan, the land flowing with milk and honey, and they were not REJECTED when they left their ministry, but their work there was over, and you are opening new doors, and new opportunities to praise and witness for you. Thank you, Lord, because we know we can do ALL things through Christ, who strengthens us. Let us stop trying to do it in ourselves, but give it all over to you. Your solutions are so much higher than ours, anyway....why do we fight you? <BR>Praise your name, Jesus, for you alone are worthy and able. <BR>

Wow! You two are very special people. Mark, I also feel terrible for what is happening to you. <P>This morning God gave me some encouragement thru Proverbs 28..for you two it will come from the "other side of the fence" as you are the ones betrayed but it still stands true..v. 10 He who leads the upright along an evil path will fall into his own trap, but the blameless will receive a good inheritance. <P>You are the blameless ones as far as not betraying. Keep believing. God will honor you. Mark, so glad you chose your W. Lupo, so sorry your H won't hear you at all <P>This morning I went to my favorite mall and had a panic attack in fear of meeting OM by accident. I called H at work as soon as I hi-tailed it home and he was so helpful to me. The other verse God gave me today about living in light is Prov. 28: 13 He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy.<P>Mark, your sister is certainly not covering her sin against you but God is watching as Lupo reminded you. I pray He will unite your whole family again--you,W and your boy. <P>God, I lift up my friends here before you. We seek Your healing on our emotions and ask Your strength to face each day--especially the difficult ones. You are the Perfect Father, You are transforming us into YOUR pure, spotless Bride. Bless Mark for the Christlike way he is loving his W. Ease Lupo's pain. Bring some little joy reminders to lighten the load. Thank You for Your presence and the knowing that You are ever watching over us. May truth prevail and victories come. Thank You that we can trust in You even when we cannot trust others--especially in times when we feel we cannot trust ourselves. You are there with all that we need. Your Love never disappoints or fails. It will never be withdrawn from us. Pour out forgiveness on our circumstances--whether we need the forgiveness or to extend it to others. Work in Mark's sister's heart to relent. Amen.

Surely your son tells her he wants to be with his daddy and mommy. Surely she will soften at the pleading of a small child? Pray God will soften her heart.<P>Yes my son does just that and thats whats going to soften her cold heart the most. Thank you Lupo for your prayers and encouragement. Sometimes i do forget this is Gods fight and not mine. I just get so overwealmed and it seems God does nothing although i know its all still in his hands and i want to do something, i want to fight, i want to take control and fight the enemy on my own. I shold know better.<BR>Thankyou Freshstart, for your words of encouragment also. My family has told me im a worthless human being and its nice to hear some real love and encouragemnet from my real brothers and sisters in the Lord. It will be a great blessing to spend eternity in heaven with sisters like you Lupo, and freshstart and many others here on this sight like my sister Tryingtohope. Lord i pray that you would fight for all of us here who cry out to you day and night and pray for compassion on our situations. Lord, so many of us have overwealming circumstances and enemies againyts us and we are left full of pain and sorrow. Lord we sometimes cant see past our sorrow and tears and forgive us for not fully trusting you to handle our situations. Nothing is to great for you Lord. Have mercy on us Jesus for standing againts all odds and trusting you to restore our marriages and families. Come againts our enemy the devil for discouraging us and lying to us and generally destroying our lives. I lift the prayers, cries and tears of your faithful ones here and ask Lord that you would show us your love and mercy and miraculaously restore our lives, when others tell us its hopeless and may you get all the glory Lord. In Jesus name, Amen

Hi<P>I am Carol and would like to let you know that I have studied marriage counselling<P>It is tough when old memories come to mind and match up with disappointments<P>You are welcome to mail me at kidnpuppetshow@yahoo.com and keep in touch with me<P>I will give you emotional support and put you in touch with people who can give you the kind of advice needed<P>I am here for you and know how a crisis feels<P>Carol<P>------------------<BR>Carol the friend