Where is everybody??? I don't get to spend as much time on the boards as I did all summer, since I am now full time back to work (I teach). BUT it seems to me that everyone is G-O-N-E. I mean!! This place seems like a ghost town lately!! Mark? Where are you, bro? How are things?<P>Trustintruth, I am praying for your mom, for her healing...<P>Faith, Trusting..., Rox..., Trying..., LKD..., June...everyone? What's happened? Has everyone been abducted and taken to the Mothership to see their spouses??? <BR>How is everyone doing? I need INPUT to pray effectively.... trying to shake things up here tonight.<P>Lupo<P>[This message has been edited by lupolady (edited August 11, 2001).]<p>[This message has been edited by lupolady (edited August 11, 2001).]

Lupo, I took the liberty of reading a past post by you (the day when you were having a BAD day). I have been in a separation period of about 8 months, but things are looking up here. I have been through those BAD days, too, but somehow I kept the faith. I don't know how things are going now, but I pray that things are better with you. Time goes by so slowly during our trials, and you do know that God is carrying you right now. I just want you to know that I am here, and I care.<P>Faith n Him

Hi Lupo, ive got a new job(im working now) and now i miss being unemployed-lol. The Lord has been saying the same thing lately.Mark where are you? Now im too busy and its overwealming me. Im starting to get depressed. Now i see how much of a blessing it was to be off work for a while. I also work nights so that takes getting used to. <BR>I would really like to be in full time ministy. Now i feel so worthless going to a job where it seems im just there to punch a clock and make a buck to survive. <BR>I just took my wife back home today after her spending a few days with me and im depressed. I havent read my bible for a few weeks now and its really affecting me. I really long for a situation where i can keep my focus on the Lord and not have it taken away so much. However i would like to not have to suffer so much in the process. Am i asking too much? Am i becoming selfish again. Life is still very painful for me. Its like when one leak is plugged up another one breaks out. It never stops. I feel like im being tortured with seeing my marriage and family so close to restoration yet something is always in the way. Im sorry, im venting and whining. God bless everyone here. <BR>Mark

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Lostpup:<BR><B>The Lord has been saying the same thing lately.Mark where are you? Now im too busy and its overwealming me. Im starting to get depressed</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Oh, Mark. Please, please dont' get depressed. We all need you here, your faithfulness is what kept me going many, many times. YOU know God loves you immeasureably! Please find time to meet w/ the Lord. Mark, I get up at 5 every morning just so I can squeeze in time w/the Lord. I had gotten away from it for a very long time, I suffered, and my M suffered. And now that I am back in it, after a very long and DIFFICULT summer, I don't want to ever let that happen to me again. I never want to be that far away from the Lord again. Please consider setting the clock a little early each morning for a special time for you and your Father.<P>Faith In Him, I hope I didn't "bring you down" with my/whiney days and self pity. I'm doing mUCH better now! I know there will be dark days again, but hopefully not too many! My WH lives w/OW in another town 150 miles away, but I have faith, I have God's promises, and I am trying not to lose hope in that! He has only been gone about 3 months though. I hope I don't have to wait 8 months? Lord?!?<P>On that particular week-end (I think it was just last week-end!) it seemed that Satan brought every possible person into my life who wanted me to give up on my M and my WH. I didn't. BUT I also tried to fight "in the flesh" - in other words, I didn't go to God and ask him to remove the evil one from me, I tried to fend it off by myself, and you can see the results of that! Mark has taught us a saying. His W told him once, "Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle." That particular week-end, I think that's exactly what I was doing! Being tempted to give up, because I was 5 minutes away from a miracle from God. (Read about the mustard seeds )<P>I am writing letters to my WH and he is enjoying receiving them, apparently. This after telling me in a note when he left to ONLY correspond through our attorneys. I "honored" that request for awhile, until God told me "IT'S TIME TO GET BOLD!!" (I actually "heard" those words!) He is my H and I must treat him as such. therefore, if I want to talk to him, just DO IT!! So I started writing him, and it's working! Praise God, His timing is perfect, though. If I would have written to my H right away, he would have been turned off to it. But by letting several weeks go by, I beleive my praying about it helped, and God softened his heart, and now he's actually reading my letters.<P>Thank you for your concern and your prayers. I wish I could "feel" the Lord when He's carrying us, as in the Footprints prayer. That must be something! Actually, I'm feeling so happy and contented right now that I guess I CAN feel it!! HA!! <P>Thank you both for your replies. I only have a little time each night, and some more time on the week-ends, so I miss talking with everyone all day like I used to.<P>Mark, I will pray that God will wake you extra early just so you have to meet with Him! FaithinHim, I will join you in prayer for our M's to be healed, and all glory will go to God for performing modern-day miracles!<P>Lupo

Hi, Lupo!<P>I was out of town this weekend. I had a wonderful weekend with some girl friends at a women's retreat. I miiiissssseeeeeddddd the boards this weekend. I have jsut read and caught up - I didn't miss much. They are slow on the weekends. I forgot to read your Plan A and surgery post. I'll go do that now. I meant to come back to it and I forgot - wanted to come see the Prayer board.<P>Mark, it's good to hear from you. I've been wondering about you. Please don't apoligize for being human. You can have down times too. Just do those habits that you know you need, even if you don't feel like it - like reading your bible, praying, and coming here. We can lift you up when you don't have the strength, just like you do for all of us. And remember, it is often in giving, that we receive.<P>I have been praying for everyone this weekend. Let's all have a good week, ok? Lean on GOd for wisdom and strength. Let's not depend on ANYONE to make us happy, and let's not feel like we have to make ANYONE else happy. We are responsible for our own emotions. <P>I have new energy, can you tell? <P>I love everyone here! God bless you!<P>------------------<BR>Faith1<P>"Then Jesus answered, 'Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.'"<BR>Matt 15:28

Dear Lupo,<P>I'm still here. I really only get to the Boards during the week. I'm glad to hear that you are having a good week and that God is moving for you.<P>I really need alot of prayer now. I am getting very weak and tired. Perhaps it is 5 minutes until the miracle, but I feel like the miracle is so far away, it hurts too much to carry on. My husband is still in the same frame of mind he was a month ago, perhaps even worse. I keep trying to convince him, and I know that's wrong to do - I'm interfering in God's work, but my baby will be 5 months old on the 15th, and I feel a desperation to have his father in his life now. I spent all day yesterday crying after I spoke with my husband. He just won't give up the resentment, even though I've made the changes. Then I talked to him again this morning - it's like talking to a wall, though. He says he is not just blowing me off, but it sure feels that way. I am soooooo tired, I want to go home. Am at work now, but I really want to go home and just stay in bed until this is all over.<P>Please pray for me, as I don't know how anymore.<P>God bless you all!<BR>TIG

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by TrustinginGod:<BR><B>I am soooooo tired, I want to go home. Am at work now, but I really want to go home and just stay in bed until this is all over.<BR>Please pray for me, as I don't know how anymore.<BR></B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Dear Lord,<BR> Please bless TrustinginGod, as her name implies. Lord, hold her up, and don't let go! Father, she is feeling down and alone. Father, we all get that way. I know I am feeling that way, today, too, not knowing WHEN my WH is going to "come around."<P>Father, we must thank You that your timing is perfect, but we are human, Father, and we don't understand the difference between OUR time and YOUR time, just like a little kid doesn't understand "just a little while longer," or "in a minute." We don't understand how LONG that may mean. We want to trust in your timing, Lord. <P>Lord, just give us strength for 5 MORE MINUTES. Please - Lord Jesus, we love you, we know your love for us is unending. Please, give TrustinginGod just 5 MORE MINUTES of waiting for her miracle. Holy Spirit, just fill her heart with the Father's love. Let her hear His sweet voice to her, saying, "Dear child, I am here, lean on Me."<P>Thank you Jesus. Thank you for our salvation! Let that be enough for us, if there is no more. Let our salvation be our hope and our glory. All else is "icing."<P>Thank you Father, Thank You, Jesus. Thank You, Holy Spirit. Amen.

Lupo, thanks for the encouragment. I get off work at 5:30 in the morning so my system is off and so is my schedule with the Lord. I get it right soon. I really need to. Good to hear your doing better. This thing with my sister persecuting me for loving my W and wanting our marriage and family back is really getting me down. Its just dragging on and its my sons bday this saturday and she wont let me be there. This is hard to believe is happening. She has been such a willing puppet for the devil. I really need some prayer that God would put a stop to this. I havent seen my son in 6 months.<BR>Thank you Faith for your encouragement also and you do lift me up. I praise God for my real sisters here that acually support my marriage being restored. I have 3 blood sisters that dont. This place is a great blessing for me.<BR>Mark<P>

Hi Lupolady!<P>I'm here. I haven't been posting here often because I've been so busy.<P>My 30th birthday was August 8, 2001, and I had a 30th birthday bash on one of the cruise ships here in Maryland on Sunday. Now that that's all over and done with I can get back to my normal way of doing things.<P>I found out about a week or two ago that my court hearing date is September 24, 2001 for my divorce. Please keep this date in prayer for me. Of course my husband called me on my birthday and wished me a happy birthday, but I wasn't home to receive his call and I'm glad I wasn't. I just e-mailed him back and thanked him for remembering the day. My birthday is also my anniversary. It didn't bother me that much as it did last year.<P>He also called me one night to tell me that a sister from my church had called for me there and left a name and number where she could be reached. So he gave me the information and then said that he tried to call me at home to give me the message, but I don't answer my phone. I told him the reason I didn't answer the phone is because I wasn't there. When I got home and checked my caller id, it said that he called at 11:20pm. Why in the world would he be calling me at 11:20pm at night? I don't know and I don't want to know.<P><BR>Roxy

Lupolady, You have been there for me with words and prayers<BR>and I am getting to believe it would be easier to just call it quits. I ask for some more help from you in the form of prayer i also ask for that 5min . <BR>My prayers are with you and the others on this board .

Colfax,<P>Of course it would be easier to call it quits. We all agree with that. That's why it requires faith in God. God never said it was going to be easy. You are a better person because you are taking the road less traveled. Just keep walking in Jesus' footsteps and all will work out for the best.<P>I am finding prayer hard these days myself, but you will certainly be in my prayers.<P>God bless you!<BR>TIG