Hi,<P>I just wanted to ask for everyones prayers. I've been feeling a little strange the past couple of days, just like I have no energy ... maybe it's just the weather.<P>My wife seems to be moving further and further away, and I just can't help LB sometimes. I just go quiet and feel rejected. I just hate the fact that I can't make her happy like the OM does.<P>I know God wants me to fight for this marriage, and I kind of feel like he's saying keep your eyes on me and forget everything thats around me. I guess he wants to teach me to always focus on him make sure he is the most important thing in my life, rather than in the past my wife being the most imprtant thing. This is a tough lesson to learn.<P>I hope everyone has a good weekend, I'll be praying for as many of you who I can remember your usenames!<P>/Plec.

PLEC,<P>I know how you feel. I have been very lonely lately. It's getting close to our 13 year anniversary of our first date, and it hurts that he's not back. He obviously doesn't plan to come back anytime soon, because he wants me and kids to move out of house so we can get our bills paid off.<P>Anyway, I know that God is bringing him home, and I just have to wait and watch, but it is hard to let go. I, too, feel that God is trying to make me put Him before my husband, so I wrote my husband a letter yesterday apologizing for some LBs I did, and telling him that I am going to move forward, and just try to make myself and my kids happy, and hopefully he will join us soon.<P>I have to let go. I have to quit interfering in God's work. My words mean nothing to my H. Only God can change his mind. I have to keep reminding myself of this when I get the urge to talk to him.<P>I am going out of town with my kids this weekend. Just need to get away, so we're going to Houston to visit our church down there. I've never been to Houston, so I plan on taking my kids sight-seeing. Hopefully, we'll have a good time.<P>Please pray that God will deliver my H, and bring him home to us who truly love him. Please also pray that I do what God wants from me to please Him.<P>I will pray for God to ease your loneliness.<P>God bless you!<BR>TIG

Dear Plec, One of the hardest things i had to learn was to put the Lord before my wife. I couldnt do that in the past when we were together and i trusted in myself to protect her from herself. I couldnt do it. I failed. I really believe that once i let go and put her in the Lords arms, and put Jesus first in my life, thats when the Lord started restoring our relationship. It took a little over 2 years to get it right. I to depended on her to make me happy and she wasnt doing that anymore. She made me so unhappy that i wanted to die. For about a year and a half i begged God to take me. Well He wouldnt. <P>I really believe God can restore any marriage. But someone has to stand and trust that God will. Pray and never give up. The hardest thing is the waiting. Gods timing. Its different than ours. Most of us cant handle Gods timing. Ive always fell short in that area, but im learning. Hang in there brother. The Lords got it all under control.<BR> <BR>Trying, Be encouraged that letting go is when the Lord starts to move. Many wont understand your stand, but some will. Some wont even be honest about how your stand is affecting their lives in a big way. My own family thinks i would be much happier following the ways of the world. Some of them cant handle the guilt of their own descisions so they want me to make them feel better about themselves and follow them on the wide road. I cant do that. What matters is what God thinks and sure they all know what God wants. Ive heard it all. God wants me to be happy, happy, happy....<BR>I just cant figure out how some people know what is going to make me happy, more than i do. The truth is they are utterly miserable and misery loves company. And Holy Spirit conviction doesnt sit well with many. <P>Dear Lord, i pray that you would continue to show us your joy and heal our broken and lonely hearts. I pray Lord that you would give my brother Plec and my sister Trying some extra peace and joy to carry them the rest of the way thru their trials to victory and restoration.Lord, May you do more than they ever hoped for or imagined, In Jesus name, Amen<BR>Mark

Plec, <P>It is REALLY hard. I am being tempted to throw in the towel all the time but actually I feel God is doing a job on him. My husband actually called just to talk to ME (not my daughter) which is really a new thing. <P>I am sort of trying to get him a little jealous but we'll see. I don't know if I need to quit that or what. I do want him to wake up and I think he will. I am just having a good time without him, seeing old friends, inviting people over... <P>Right now I'm on vacation (yeah - they do let us senior citizens get around now and then ;-) )which is why I haven't been posting.<P>Take care and don't give up. You are going to see little cracks in her armor in the next few weeks - just hang in there and TRUST. You are not in charge of this right now.<P>Love, T