Hi. You have been so awesome and such a blessing with your prayer support. It has touched me deeply and I'm so grateful MB includes a sight like this.<P>Lately, I find God is pouring healing in almost too fast. He has also been challenging my heart, however, that I am letting this place become a god in the sense of choosing to go online instead of get in the prayer closet. <P>I also am finding it's not healthy for me to keep talking about OM and the A--I need a break so I can focus on the M and come back better equipped to help others--I may have my own occasional questions, too.<P>One thing that led to this decision (and I do have a couple open threads--just 2-3 and following one or two so may be here for a bit or from time to time depending what God says) is I had been on here and it was a terrible day for most who posted (or those I read anyway); then I started to read this book about women being pleasers--this was before bed. It was Saturday night just past. I woke up from a nightmare that seemed so real. In the dream, first H was hugging me but saying softly he didn't love me anymore with a big smile on his face. I was horrified. Then I was at the bottom of the stairs, standing in the basement and H was on the landing by the front door and I threw coffee in his face. <P>I realized this was a mix of things I had been reading in the book and here. I was so scared and clung to H, waking him up. <P>God has been hounding me to get back into prayer and develop a healthy devotional life again for about 3 weeks. I know I cannot disobey Him. <P>So I am not taking off with harsh feelings, although a bit of insecurity. I know there is a good purpose in this. I don't know when or if God will allow me to return but I suspect He will in His perfect timing.<P>My heart is with you all desiring miracles and healings for all and rejoicing in the healing of others here.<P>Love you all,<P>------------------<BR>Fresh Start