I have never posted on this topic. I just wanted some suggestions.<P>Last week, my house was broken into. I was sexually assaulted in my dining room. It was terrible. I know I should go to counseling, I am just not sure about talking about it. I have had to talk about it to the police so much, and explaining it to family, friends. I am pretty sick or words right about now.<P>My husband was in another country when it happened. He will be home tomorrow night. I will be so glad to see him, I think I will hug him to death! [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] <P>I am scared of the intimacy that I know is inevitable when he gets here. Part of me just wants to curl up in a little ball in a deep hole and just cry to myself. I know I can't do that. I have my kids, and my husband and I just got back on track.<P>I guess I don't know how to react. I need some spiritual guidance. I don't beling to a church, however I wish I had a pastor right now. I don't know how to feel anymore. I know that I am depressed, and scared. I just don't know what to do. <P>I pace the floor most of the night. I conceded to the doctor giving me a sedative for my nerves. I didn't feel like I had much of a choice, I was so upset I would've taken anything to calm down. I still am. I get so scared at night, afraid that it will happen again.<P>I just don't want to act like it never happened, but I don't know how to act. I hope someone has a suggestion. I would take any offered. <P>Lost

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lost]}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P> So sorry about what happened!! You are in my prayers. About fearing intimacy with your husband. I know it's not the same but when we fall off the horse it's best to get back on ASAP. I hope you don't find that crude I'm only trying to help. Men have a different take on sex I guess. <BR> It may actually help to GIVE yourself to your H. In this way YOU are in control of your body and what it does.<BR> Don't let this MONSTER win by taking away a gift that God has given you to relax and feel and show love. <BR> As for being afraid. Go stay with a friend or in a motel if possible until your H gets home. You need to sleep...<BR> I used to travel 4 nights a week when we first got married and a man called and told my wife he found her attractive and she hung up but he called back and told her WHAT SHE WAS WEARING!! We bought a full grown Dobermin Pincher about 95 pounds and he never called back!! Just some thoughts.. GOOD LUCK & PRAYERS FRANK

Thank you.<P>I refuse to leave my house. I know it is corny, but I won't let him get away with running me out of my home. I feel like that is one of the few things I can control.<P>I am trying to relax, I am just not able to at night. During the day I am able to relax a little.<P>I guess I am afraid that my husband will see me differently now. I don't want to look in his eyes and see profound pity, or worse, revulsion. <P>I have less than 12 hours until I see him. And I find that I am actually nervous. I don't know what to expect when I look in his eyes. <P>Not to mention driving through a huge city to get him. That is a little nerve wracking too. Jeez, leaving the house is nerve wracking these days. <P>Lost

I can't even tell you how sad I am for you that this happened. You sound very good, actually. I think you're right not to let this run you out of your home. It is your home.<P>You don't have to rush into anything now. I don't think that you should do anything you're not comfortable with but be close to your husband and don't pull away from him emotionally.<P>The sick person that did this did not win and will not win. It had nothing to do with making love as the Lord intended - it was just a violent act by a very weak and possibly demon-possessed person. You will not be robbed of the gift the Lord gave to us and which gave you your children.<P>If there is any way, try not to hate. I know this is really hard. Pray not to hate every day. Pray to be able to love your family each day and pray to receive the Holy Spirit in your heart so that you are not damaged by this. <P>Holy Spirit of God, please descend upon Lost and Hopeless. She is yours and somehow this incident will make her even holier in Your eyes. Grant her the peace and the calm of knowing she is profusely blessed by You and grant her Your protection so that no one can harm her again.<P>We don't understand how this happened, Lord. But evil exists and is trying to break her through this horrible action. She is yours though Lord. Her spirit will come back to you and her love will overcome this so that many around her will be converted. Lord, You trusted her with this trial. We know that You cry with her, just as You cried when Lazarus died, yet you knew there was going to be a resurrection. Let her feel Your eternal love day and night, covering her with Your warmth. Fill her husband with wisdom so he knows how to comfort her.<P>I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.

TryingtoHope<P>Thank you for your prayer. I am trying so hard to not let this beat me. I have bad moments,,and I have ok moments. Not too many good ones lately.<P>I just feel so completely lost, I guess I am still sort of in shock. It isn't hard to believe it happened, besides the memories I have the bruises to remind me. <P>I guess I am afraid that I will need my H too much. We just started to get things worked out between us. And now this.<P>Lost

I can imagine how you feel. Yet somehow, some way you are going to get through and staying close to the Lord you will make this something to strengthen your marriage and your faith and the faith of those around you.<p>Jesus, please bless Lost and Hopeless until she feels the warmth of Your eternal love in her heart so strongly that it overcomes her grief, even for a second. Let her know it's You, taking care of her and not allowing this enormous trial to defeat her. Please help her husband too - he is probably confused and feeling terrible for not being there to protect her. Help him to put aside his own feelings of guilt and outrage and reach out gently to his loving wife.<p>I ask you this in Your Holy Name, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.