Well, we go to Mediation today at 2:00 EDT, to decide HOW to divide up all our assets (such as they are!) WH's leaving me everything, and doesn't think this meeting is necessary. He thinks this Mediation session is MY idea, and I know he's upset with me. No. It's just part of the process of HIM getting what he wants. <p>He will say he can't afford to pay me anything (is true), and MY atty will say he MUST pay me something (also true) cause he left without notice and left me with ALL the household bills. This could get ugly. I do not want ugly. I do not want his money, however, I never expected to do this all alone when we bought the home I am now living in (moved into it 2 weeks before he left). I'm spinning my wheels and making NO headway. He seems "dug in" and determined to get his Dv.<p>WH will see this Mediation as a manipulation on my part, NOT as part of the process necessary for this thing he started. His first wife tried to take him to the cleaners, and I'm sure his mindset is that that is what I am doing. It's not true. I make more money than he does, I DON"T need his money,I don't want this Dv., however, if he's determind to go through with it, then I DO feel, after almost 21 years of M that I am entitled to some benefits (not just the empty dreams of my future) for the time I spent with him. <p>Please pray with me that God will be in control of the Mediation session (of course He will!), and that WH will begin to see the destruction his choices are causing both of us. it's been 10½ months, and I am still amazed to think he wants this, has wanted it all this time, and continues to move in this direction. I had NO idea whatsoever until I came home that day last May and he was GONE.<p>Thank you all for your prayers, and I will update you when I get back home this afternoon.

Hi Lupo,<p>Please know my prayers are with you this day. I will be praying all day.<p>God Bless,

Hope it went well!

Dear Lupo, I am praying for you. May the peace of God rest on you thru your trials.
Mark

Thank you, Mark. I am praying for you too. I know God draws us closer to Him through our trials.<p>I also know that He loves us more than we can comprehend, understand or feel. It's just that our FLESH desires a fleshly kind of love, a "feeling" and we get caught up in looking for that "feeling." God's ways are higher than our ways, and His love for us is perfect.....I guess we can't argue with PERFECT, now can we?

Lupolady, <p>I too was praying over the mediation, just no time to reply. So, how'd it go?<p>knight

Knight,
Thanks for asking.....<p>I posted the WHOLE story on GQII. It's very long, so I rather you just go there and find it, instead of re-hashing it.<p>It's got the same title.<p>Thanks for your prayers through this thing. I'm still waiting to see YOUR breakthrough!!<p>God Bless,

Thanks Lupolady for your prayers too. I'm getting anxious/nervous but I think it will happen real soon. I will check out yours on GQII, totally understandable. <p>knight