Well, my WH left home on May 17th, so the 17th is eleven months exactly that he's been gone.<p>THAT's a trigger. It hurts a lot, cause it appears he has NOT wavered one ounce since he made his big decision and move.<p>Second trigger, This Thursday, (April 18th) is our twenty-first wedding anniversary. <p>Needless to say, I am asking that someone please pray for me to get through this week with grace, and peace.<p>THANK YOU all so much.

I will be praying for you Lupo. You do your part and get your eyes on Jesus and off your circumstances, hurt and pain. Dont be like me and nurse your pain until it about kills you.
It all really is in Gods hands. What the devil has meant for evil, the Lord will turn this all to His glory.
Mark

Lupolady,<p>Mark has given you great advice that we all need to remember.<p>Heavenly Father my prayer is for You to be with Lupolady, she needs you now this week. You know all the reasons this week is hard for her, so as she turns her eyes to you, I pray that You would show her Your glory and Your grace and Your peace in the midst of the storm. We also pray that You destroy the enemy's plan of destruction, bring this man home in a miraclous way. Be lupolady's strength now I pray, IJN. Amen

Thank you, Mark. I appreciate your faithfulness both as my friend and as the H of your W to continue to pray in faith believing.<p>KM, Thank you, too, for your prayers! I know God is going to crush the plans of the enemy to destroy my H and our M. I have gotten promises telling me this! Also, I never thought about praying for a miraculous return for my WH....of course, at this point it looks like it will HAVE TO BE miraculous!!! [img]images/icons/shocked.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Both of you strong men of God are always in my prayers for the restoration of your M's. It's so refreshing to see men who are STANDING against the world for their families. God will Bless you both.....WATCH FOR THE HARVEST which is to come.

Yes Lupo, It is going to take miracles. That way God gets the glory. The only way Im standing is by the grace of God and His Spirit. When Im weak He is strong. His word promises restoraton and Jesus is our victory. Let us take advantage of the fact that the Lord is close to the broken hearted. At times in my self pity i think my situation is such a curse, yet its acually a blessing. I plead mercy for our WM's and the Lord will do far more than we can hope for or imagine in our situations.
Let us not forget its the enemies job to lie and deceive us into believing its in his hands and not Gods. Sad to say, i have believed the lies at times. I am learning the worse things are, the more God will be glorified. We dont need to understand how(as i try so much) we just need to know He Will!

Lupolady,<p>Thanks for your prayers, every one helps. As Mark has said it is only the grace of God that has carried me thus far. And it is the only thing that will carry me through. <p>I feel that I need to tell you briefly about a couple I met that has recently recommited their M vows. The wife was the wayward one and after 4 long years somehow by Gods grace she was prevented all these years from filing and God has given her a heart for her H. I couldn't believe it. I sat their in shock, basically, during their ceremony. God has totally turned this woman to her H, even their boys now love their Father again. So know this that all is not lost even when the enemy tells us his lies. Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and stand for your M.<p>You have been an encouragement to me, so stand tall, and look to the Lord.<p>Gods many blessings to you,
knight

I love you and I'm proud of you that in the midst of your pain, you can still come here and help others. Keep posting, keep venting, keep helping, keep believing and keep your eyes on the Lord! When we are weak, His strength is made perfect. Consider yourself hugged today...<p>This week is my twins' original due date, but their real birthdate is January 6th. God is good. He is faithful.<p>I always wonder 'what if' they went full-term, but I have to stop my mind from that dangerous 'what if' thinking.<p>Cuz you know, IF they went full-term, I never would have seen and appreciated God's salvation like I do today. You are learning how to trust God because of a situation where you are being forced to. And hey, that's not such a bad position to be in after all since He's the god who raises the dead, right???

Lupo, hugs to you. <p>Lord, I pray You will give this woman a very special blessing...affirm Your love for her in a significant healing way that reminds her that she is loved by You with an everlasting love....we continue to seek You for miracles.
Lord, Lostpup and Knight?mare are two amazing godly sons of Yours, too. Surely You have heard their hearts and their crying out to You.
BINthereDunthat has suffered, too.
You are merciful. Pour out Your compassion in fresh measure and pour more of Yourself into these wonderful people.
Lord, You bring another person to mind as I pray--I ask for courage to share You with her and that You will heal her hurts, also.
Thank You for the miracles You have performed. Bless my friends with increased faith that You will do as You have promised. <p>"What would I have done if it wasn't for Jesus?"
(from a song by the group "delirious?")

Thanks, everyone, for your amazing faith, and prayers for me!<p>It IS true, we see God's amazing GRACE and love when we lean on Him. I have Witnessed in my Spirit, that the "time grows short" that satan may continue to deceive my WH.<p>I feel that all of this is b/c of all my faithful friends' prayers. I am strong in the Lord, and doing fine, thanks to all of YOU!<p>My poor, dear, deceieved WH is SOOOO miserable, living in his life of sin. I have basically decided that I have to go to Plan B, in a sense (hence, my sig line), cause I cannot bear to hear about all his COMPLAINING about how terrible his life has become!! Every week it's something else....and of course, it'll JUST take ONE MORE THING for it to all wondrously "fix" itself!! He's always looking for that ONE MORE THING that isn't quite right, and then it'll all be ok. <p>I have told him it is NOT God's will that he continue on this path, that God is not pleased with him. I KNOW some advised me to call and apologize to him for saying those things.....well, ya know? GOD TOLD ME TO SAY THEM!!! I cannot go against the Word my Spirit witnesses within me that comes from God.<p>All I can do at this point is continue to look to the Lord, stand firm in what He has told me, and continue to Grow in the Spirit. I am AMAZED at what God has done in my life, in my Spirit and in My heart during these months of trusting Him alone. I NEVER want to move away from this place I am in. <p>Thanks, Mark, for your encouraging words to that subject. Thank YOU, KM, for your prayers, too. I WILL look to the Lord. I KNOW when I get distracted and look away, I immediately begin to "sink!!" Isn't that something?? We just KNOW....we experience it, just like Peter.<p>FS, I love and appreciate your prayers, and wisdom.....thank you, humbly.<p>BIN, I want you to know that I've called on the "hug" more times than you can imagine!! It has sustained me this whole week!!!<p>Folks, I don't know WHAT is going on, BUT I FEEL IN MY SPIRIT that our anniversary wasn't a GOOD day for my WH. That it's happened - that he's turned a corner and that he's on his way home!!! Do I think he'll be home this week? Probably NOT! Maybe not even this month, or this year. BUT, I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I KNOW that *something* happened. Something has changed.....God has given me witness of it, AND has spoken it in His Word to me. (II Sam. 14:14, Amos 9:14)<p>Thank you all again, for your strength in the Lord.<p>PTL
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Hang in there Lupo. Today is a trigger for me. Its my W's Bday. I started crying earlier. I still havent heard from her and right now I dont want to hear from her. I dont think I could bear it. Unless she is compleatly humbled, I would just hang up the phone. She is in Gods hands and unfortunantly been handed over to her sin until it destroys the sinful nature. God only knows what that will take. I have no doubts she is miserable, probably to the point of suicide again. During the last year that we dated, she shared with me a lot of what she went thru. I have no idea why she went back there. <p>Dear Lord, I lift our WM up to you. I pray that you would deliver them from the spirits of rebellion and take away what has blinded them. Have mercy on them Lord for they know not what they do, nor the hurt and pain they have caused. Forgive me Lord also, for the hurt and pain I have caused you many times.
In Jesus name, Amen