Did a lot of driving today so I had a lot of time to think of all the crap in my life, (sorry, it wasn't a good day):<BR>For Thanksgiving, I am alone although I;m going to friends, my mother is alone as she basically a recluse, my sister is alone as she just started a new job and has to work Fri. Some family bonding, eh !<P>Today I realized my stbx has "gone over to the dark" side. She told her friend that she is taking om back, but will not have any emotional ties this time. So what is is purely physical? Ehhh!<P>Friend of stbx told me she dropped a G.D. on her and not even out of anger. She also said om was a Christian and he gave to missionaries. Who is this woman ??????<P>Also tonite, it dawned on me that she will not be changing from her afternoon schedule because it fits in with oms noight schedule. They are both off for most of the day. If she goes to days to be able to see the kids, she won't be able to see much of om. She hasn't given any indication that she is willing to put the kids first so I don't think she will change. I guess I question if she will bother much with the kids on her weekends off if om want's and she wants to do something else?<P>Oh well, Just T-day, my son's birthday, Xmas and New Years yet to go.<P>Sorry for being a downer tonite, it was just one of those days!!!!!! The meds don't seem to be working today, but I guess its too early.

Hey RWD,<P>Your'e not alone Buddy. Don't ya just HATE THAT, not the driving part, the too much time to think about our lives. If only there was a switch to turn off that part of our brain.<P>Sorry to hear how you are feeling. Believe me you are not along. This time of year along with all the Holidays blows goats. My bad Val day is starting to look like a week.<P>Can't say I'm not suprised that you W is favoring OM over kids. That's the way the "Evil twins" think. <P>Give the meds some time to kick in. When they do they take the edge off. Small consilation. Wer'e here for ya.<P>Take care, God bless<P>------------------<BR>Wishing us all the Best.<P>Medic<P><BR>

Sorry you're feeling like this today. I'm fighting the depression w/ everything I've got.<P>Instead of fixing my usual HUGE meal, I'm working on a small meal for me and d, doing laundry, my nails, cleaning out closets, getting ready to paint the kitchen.....you got the drift!<P>Hang in there. It'll take the meds awhile. And remember, you're not alone. We're here w/ you today and everyday.<P>Lori

RWD,<P>Sorry you are feeling cr@ppy! I was there last week. My H is in FL spending the holiday with OW and her son, instead of his own kids.<P>Well, I polished all the silver, set the table with china, great-grandmother's silver, crystal, made a flower arrangement centerpiece and am cooking my family's traditional Thanksgiving dinner. We're gonna have a GREAT day, without H. Kids haven't said anything, but am sure they are disappointed, too.<P>Your wife is miredin the "insanity" of it all. She just isn't going to stop until she PROVES to herself that she is making a big mistake. So sda, but true. Like my H, she is determined to see this relationship with the OM all the way to the end - it will either "make it" or crash and burn! Nothing you can do to convince her otherwise. <P>Hopefully the meds are working better today. Enjoy your time with your treasured friends - how NICE of them to want to share the holiday with YOU!! Good choice on THEIR part, if you ask me <P>Roll Me Away<P><P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Day

Good morning everyone.<P>Well I have a decision to make. My ex inlaws asked me to come over for dinner. I want to really bad, but being my ex will be there will make it hard. I ran into him yesterday in a store and he told me to come on over and there will not be any tension.<P>What's hard is, eating a Holiday meal with him as old buddies or something. I still love him with all my heart and he can treat me as a good friend. That hurts. Yesterday he hugged me and I just started shaking and tried my best not to cry. Of course when I got back into my car I balled my eyes out all the way to work.<P>I am scared I will lose my dinner from the nevousness. Everytime I see him now too, he talks about horoscopes and astrology and now feels he is clearvoient. (not sure how to spell) Satan really has a hold on him.<P>Pls say a prayer me so I will be able to handle the situation. I will say one for you all too. If I do not go to ex inlaws for dinner, there is nowhere else for me to go either. My kids are going to their grandparents for dinner, (first husb), my mom is out of town with her shack up honey, and my dad and his shack up honey are arguing.<P>One big screwed up family. Oh well<P>Happy Thanksgiving anyway!!