Please pray for my wife. As some of you know my wife spent about 6 weeks in a psych ward due to bulimia and suicidal thoughts. Well since my sons diagnosis of diabetes the drs have had to change one of her meds, they have a history of bringing on diabetes. And now she is going thru major anxiety attacks and depression since dropping her dose and the new meds have not been increased.

I came home last night from an errand to find my wife on the couch with a bleeding wrist and a knife in her hand.

We talked and we prayed and she made promises not to do it again but she does not trust herself that it won't happen again. I am scared for her and our kids. To top it all off she may be pregant, which isn't a bad thing but she needs the meds to remain stable and she may have to off them. And on top of that I think of "What if she goes thru morning sickness" I am just worried.

I am doing more to get close to the Lord in this time and encouraging my W to do the same. Please pray for us in this difficult time.

Knight

Just a quick reply.

I told her parents today and they made up their minds that they would come over, I didn't try to stop them but I thought that they would only push her further away. I was wrong, they talked to her and loved on her like I never thought possible. When I came home from my errand tonight she was crying in a healing way. Don't get me wrong, this is not over but tonight has ended on a good tone. Her Dr uppped her meds and she did her lab for a necessary sodium level test, so I see things improving. Thanks to all who have prayed for us, and to those yet to pray, you are all an amazing bunch of people.

Blessings to you all,
knight

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Knight,
I am so sorry about your wife. You have been through so much and I admire you for the strength that you have shown. You did the right thing by calling her parents, thank God they showed her the love that she so desperately needs. I will pray for your family. Ladysing

My dear Knight, I am so sorry that you have so much to endure, just remember that the Lord will not allow anymore than He knows you can handle!
I was just recently reminded of that as I have been under quite an attack myself, from the enemy. Just know that there is a reason all this is happening. The enemy knows how the Lord is going to use you and your W and family in ministry, the enemy hates that, he wants to destroy you, but he is the loser here. Jesus is the Victor!
I have been going through so much these past few weeks, and what brings me hope is to know that God is up to something incredible for the enemy to attack as he is. Praise the Lord and give thanks to Him in every situation! As difficult as it may seem, He sees the bigger picture, we only see one puzzle piece at a time. As we endure the fire we are in, we know that He is molding us for His purposes. We will all look back one day and see how He used this time in our lives for something good.
I pray for the Lord to strengthen you during this time of trial, that He will draw your family much closer together through this. That the guilt that your W feels, will disapate, and that God will give her the knowledge that she is forgiven by all of you and Himself.
It will take some time for her to realize that, I'm sure her guilt is strong and she probably feels that she is to blame for the problems with your son. We know that isn't true, but when one has sinned and even though we are forgiven and know that in our heads, it is hard to accept it in our hearts somehow, until God breaks through!
She still needs to come to terms with forgiving herself! It is not an easy thing to do, but again with God's help... anything is possible!
You are a blessing to those around you knight, and know that your rewards will be great!
Hang in there, and hang on to the Word, He will see you through now as He has in the past and will do in the future!
God Bless you.
Monika

Ladysing, Thanks for your reply, yes I was very happy to see things going well with her parents.

Monika, Thanks for you prayers and encouraging words, you hang in there too, OK?

Well we finally had atest confirm that FWW is definately pregnant. She called me crying, she was really scared, but we talked and things are going well. We even went and picked up baby name books.

I took yesterday off work, I just did it but during we realized that it was a huge trigger day for us since she was in New Orleans with OM when she should have been home with her family when our country was attacked. We had a great day yesterday, despite the triggers, in fact I feel closer than ever to her.

Blessings to you,
knight

Knight -

My story is not near yours, However, you and your wife are in my prayers....

Ken

Thanks Ken,

My W has been doing better. Since the Drs have taken her off her meds, since she's now pregnant, there have been some heavy anxiety. Also tho the fact that there is a baby in her it helps her to cope and press on.

I called my mentor last week, it had been months, and he challenged me to raise the spiritual temperature in my home. I see some fruit from that already and want to abide in the presence of the Lord as the Word says. I am a work in progress.

God bless,
knight

Hi Knight, I'm so happy to hear that she is not on any meds, that was kinda on my mind. It may be a little tougher, but God can conquer it all! Congratualtions on the new baby, God is so good!
I am needing some prayer this week, I'll start up a new thread, under prayer requests, "contacting WS" Please check it out, I know you'll pray!
God Bless and keep you all, Love in Christ, Monika

Continued prayers to you Knight and to your wife and unborn baby. Ladysing

Thanks for your prayers ladys, I need the strength of my friends here. To clear up, she is still on Celexa, an anti-depressant, and Klonopin, anti anxiety-kinda like valium, as needed. You are right the Lord can conquer all. We are seeing more desire to seek the Lord here personally and corporately as a family.

God bless you all,
knight

HI Knight, thankyou for your prayers on the other thread! His strength and direction is exactly what I am praying for as well.
I am just wondering, how are these meds going to affect this child? I'm sure you have looked into it, but it does concern me a little.
When a woman is pregnant they usually are not even allowed to take cold medicine.
I will also pray that God will always be the center of your families life, that He will guide and direct all that you do. He is so awesome, and I'm so happy that He loves us so much!
Blessings to you Knight, have an awesome day!
Monika

Monika,

These are the meds the Dr has OK'd her to take. Ya, no meds is best, but this is the minimum that they wamt her on. God's grace is sufficient for us as we live out his plan for our lives.

Thanks for your encouraging words,
knight