My wife filed for divorce on 12-02-02. Two days after filing, she learned she was being deployed to Bosnia for the military. She isn't going to be back until January 2004 at the earliest.

I responded to her papers that I believe there is a possibility of reconciliation. I also believe that her mind is fixed on divorce, although I am concerned that I do not know all her reasons, if she even knows...

We have agreed to forego additional divorce discussion until she returns.

I admit I killed her love for me by not meeting her emotional needs, and became selfish about our time together. I made plenty of mistakes, and I was wrong about how I handled things. I didn't cherish her enough, while blinded with my own needs.

Please pray that she returns home safely, regardless of her decision to leave me.

I also ask we pray that perhaps the time away will allow her time to forgive, and then possibly revisit her commitment to God, our family and each other. I have a renewed commitment to God, which is why I continue to wait -- and I acknowledge that things don't look good.

Then again, maybe the future holds the possibility of renewing our vows to each other? That would be an answered prayer, wouldn't it!

Thank you and God bless!

Awake