Hurts... and hope,

I have a plaque on my computer at work that says; "Sometimes the Lord calms the storm, and sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child".

May God's peace calm you during these storms. He is still in control.

Bless you.

S&C

THanks to all of you...And true to his words the storm has been raging but his child is being calmed...So many things are coming to light but in my favor, keep up the prayers because with the nuts IM dealing with I need all I can get

I will be honored to life you up in prayer. Please remember what the Apostle Paul said:

"I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me." God also promised that his GRACE is sufficient for ALL our needs. Go to him in humility and earnstwhile seeking of His will and He will NOT leave you or forsake you.

A couple of Paul's letters have meant a great deal to me and hope they provide some sense of comfort for you.

Romans: 5:1 -- 5:6

1 Corinthians 13:1 -- 13:13

Hope this, in some small way, helps,

Pegasus

Peg
Thanks...What more can I say when another human being reaches out with comfort and support and most importantly the word of God to help another....In these times of confusion and pain I see the evil lurkign and IM standing steadfast againest it to protect all that is dear, My path for the lord, myself and my family is a rocky opne but one that can be completed in Gods love....

Beautiful words Hurtmorethanheknows!

I want to ask that you all keep me in your prayers.

I will be sending out my Plan B letter tomorrow morning. I don't know how my husband will react to this but I am trusting that God is working and know that He and I WILL overcome this battle.

Thank You!

H98

PLEASE pray for me!

I am losing my patience and getting VERY angry at my H. The credit card company (the one my H is paying) called me today to tell me that the bill was 2 months overdue and they needed payment today. I was so angry to hear this. This is the ONLY bill he's paying and he can't even be resopnsible enough for that???!!! Aaarggghhh! Since this credit card is from the same bank I have, they are going to take the money from my checking account. (not until Fri. though, since I don't have enough) This just really makes me SOOOOOO mad. I just cried so much and wanted to call my husband every bad name there is. I even asked myself why I had married such a STUPID person. I know that's not how I really feel about him but his irresponsibility is just making me very angry. I know that money should not matter but it's his taking advantage that bothers me. He's out there, so happy with this OW (spending his money) and he can't even pay this bill. Aarrgghh! Please pray that I will not give up on this marriage. I just recently sent him his Plan B letter (which he should have gotten yesterday) so I should have no contact with him. I had to call my MIL to ask her to let him know. This is the 2nd time he's done this to me. I just don't know what to do. I can manage to pay everything we owe but it's just not fair that I will have to pay EVERYTHING we BOTH both together! Please just PRAY for ME!!!

Thank You!

H98

Me again.

I feel so frustrated and discouraged. Please keep praying for me.

My H emailed me on Friday asking me to email him his resume 'cause he needs it badly. I guess he wants another job badly (which is good, that way he won't work with OW aymore). Per Cerri's advice, I printed his resume out and mailed it to his mom and asked her to give it to him. (I'm in Plan B - so no contact with him) I called my MIL last night to say hello and she starts telling me that H needs the resume EMAILED because he must send it via internet to the companies. Aarrgghh! It just made me mad that he insists that I do what he asks but doesn't even pay the bill he promised he would pay. I got so angry.

Today I went to my MIL's to pick up some Avon products I had ordered from here. Luckily, my H was not there (most likely w/OW). I noticed that some of the pictures of H and I that were in her living room are now gone! She had LOTS of them and now I only saw about 4 of them. Why? She said before she was NOT going to bring him down, even if he asked her to (he sleeps in the living room, by the way). It hurt to see them gone. I felt that she is just moving on and is going to accept the OW as my replacement. I know this is her son but this is so wrong. By doing so, she seems to be supporting him in the SINFUL life he's living. I hurt so much tonight. How can she give up when she was so confident before that he was going to return? I'm lost and confused.

Please keep me in your prayers. I need to stand firm and keep my faith in God.

H98

It's been 6 months Today that my H left me. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

*SIGH*

H98

Hope,
Notice I left off the rest, because you have to look for the hope inside yourself...Sweetie Ive been reading and keeping track of all your posts and my heart is aching for you....
"Lord, on this day we ask that you send angels down to brighten her day and her spirit...We ask that you send someone special to give her a positive word, a simply kind gesture.She needs something to lift her spirit to show her that she is not alone and that there is good in the world and she is thought of. Lord let these words wrap around her heart and bring her some peace, God we ask you to show her that there are people , your followers Lord who are sight unseen who are sending out powerful prayers and positive words to her a sister in Christ. Amen"

Hopes... I'll pray for you tonight...

How's counting? leave the tab my friend....

Take care

Alchoholics Wife,

I don't mean to deter the thread but your words ministered to me.

And to hopeful and hope... I will uphold you in prayer.

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h98,

How are you doing girl? Praying for you.

In God's care and grace.

S&C

LoveMyEx - Thanks for the encouraging words. I'll be praying for you!

S&C - Thanks for asking about me. It really brought a BIG smile <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> to my face when I read that. It's amazing how someone who's never met me be concerned and ask for me. That's proof of God's awesome Love!

I'm doing good. Hanging on as best as I can. God is helping me take it one day at a time. I haven't heard about H since 9 days ago. This Plan B is really helping me. It helps me keep my mind off of this situation a bit and concentrate more on myself.

Thanks for keeping me in your prayers. That means alot to me. I also pray that this Plan I'm in will work in my husband and that God will change ME as well.

Thanks!

H98

Hi All

My SIL (BIL's wife) emailed me today and told me that my H finally went over to visit them yesterday (BIL is not accepting his lifestyle and does not want anything to do with him). But of course, he did not close the door on him. He was there about 7 hours. Anyways. They talked about our situation and the choices my H has made. My H asked his brother why he doesn't call him or at least look for him. BIL said that he does not agree with what he is doing. H then asked what he was doing wrong. (DUH?) BIL told him that he was committing adultery and H asked what adultery was to him. BIL gave his explanation of it. Then H gave a whole bunch of excuses (unknown to me)trying to justify his actions but BIL just told him that what he was doing was wrong and that if he wanted to make things straight, he had to make up his mind on what he wanted and if he didn't want to be with me, then he needed to divorce me. H said that divorce was just a piece of paper that has no value to him. BIL got upset and said that perhaps the divorce has no meaning to him but it does to everybody else and himself. Then BIL mentioned how my H had said before that he didn't want any children but now he was with someone that has a child. H said that this OW has made him change his mind about that. BIL was really upset now and told him that he was willing to listen to this OW but he wouldn't listen to his own family.

Turns out that my H just bought a laptop. (and a car about a month ago) but when askedabout the divorce, he said he didn't have $300 and that was not important to him. BIL told him that he couldn't be his friend as beforebecause friends tell the truth and tell you when you are doing wrong and H didn't want to listen to those things. Therefore they had nothing to talk about. Since my BIL is about to have his first baby, he told him that he couldn't introduce my H to his children since hewasn't about to show them that cheating and breaking promises to God was acceptable. H just said that he can use him as a bad example then but BIL said that he couldn't, cause that would mean that he has accepted what he's done and he doesn't. BIL told him that he's just being so selfish and only thinking about himself. How come he didn't ask how others felt about his decisions. BIL thinks that his NOW friends are not fulfilling him anymore and that is why he's starting (or at least wanting) to come back to his family. According to my SIL, he's still carrying the child seat in his car (therefore, is still with OW) BIL kept talkint to him about divroce and making the right thing that he just got pretty upset and picked up his things and left. BIL said he was upset but SIL says that he just looked VERY sad when he walked out. He just turned to her and told her to take care of the baby and left.

I don't understand how Divorce is not important for him now, when he was the one to bring it up when he left? Why is he looking for his brother now? So many questions, still unanswered but I know God is taking care of us.

PLEASE keep praying for H and I. Thanks.

H98

H98,
Your hubby is trying to find contentment in people, places, and things. That's what the other woman, the car, the laptop, and anything else are. He has a hunger down in his soul for only what God can give him. He is learning that "the pleasures of sin are sweet, but short". they do not last very long. When he finally realizes that God is what he is hungry for, then he will start to see you differently too. But he needs salvation first. REAL salvation. I agree that you need to change your focus. Pray for his salvation. That he would have a true God experience. Start to believe the verse you have in your profile and then really believe it. Find your peace in God and then others won't disappoint you as much. Make God your provider and ask him to supply ALL your needs.
God Bless.
singleguy

Thanks Singleguy!

I will pray for his salvation and I will work on myself as well. I KNOW I need to find my peace in God and have him supply my every need. Sometimes it's very hard though.

Reading you reply just brought tears to my eyes. It is all so very true. Thanks for reminding me and helping me get back on the right track. I really needed to hear those words.

Thank You!

H98

I really can't wait for the day I post a GOOD update! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Obviously, this one is not going to be one.

I got the bill for the New laptop my H just bought. (he must have forgotten to change the address when he bought it) I, of course, opened it to see how much it was. $1583!!!!! I just can't believe he is buying a laptop that he does NOT need but cannot make the payments on his part of the debt we have. What is WRONG with this man???? Can he not think? Does he no longer have a heart? This is all so unfair! I'm stuck paying all our debt, and he's out there spending money he doesn't even have!!! (w/ OW) Aarrrggghhhh!!!!!! When will all this ever end?! It's so frustrating.

I understand he's looking for happiness in all these material things (car, laptop and even OW). But I'm just so.......I don't even know how I feel anymore. I want him back, I do. But he just keeps making things harder and harder each day. PLEASE pray for us! I don't want handle this the human way. (taking him to court - filing legal separation). I know this is a battle that needs to be fought in the Spirit, not the flesh. But how much longer will I have to be suffering for him? I am learning to Trust God but when situations like this arise, it brings me back down and then I start to doubt God. I don't want to do that. I KNOW he is there and is taking care of things but I just get so confused. All I can do is keep praying.

Please pray with me that my H will WAKE UP and do the right things. I don't want to force him to pay his part of the debt but I pray that he does it willingly.

Thank You!

H98

LoveMyX- I'm sorry I haven't replied sooner. I don't get a chance to get on here much due to work and lots of yardwork! Thank you for your kind words. I will pray for you and your husband.

Father, I come to You in the mighty name of Jesus, to ask on behalf of LoveMyX for reconciliation in her marriage. Lord we stand on Your Word which says You hate divorce. Father, I thank You that You are working in her husband's life, and that her husband's heart is in the hands of the Lord, like a watercourse You can turn it whichever way You please (Prov 21:1), Lord we stand in faith for this marriage to be restored, Lord show this husband what the adulterous woman is; let her become as bitter as wormwood to him.

Lord please intervene and fill LoveMyX's husband's heart and mind with loving, pleasant thoughts of her, constantly. Give him no peace and no rest until he turns his life completely over to You, Lord. Lord I pray that You will guide LoveMyX and help her become a woman modeled after the Proverbs 31 woman. Let her husband see You in her Lord.

Lord, You are the Lord of miracles. We ask in Jesus' name for a the miracle of a restored marriage for LoveMyX. Thank You Father, all Glory and Honor to You in all things. You are almighty; the one we lean on for everything. Thank You Lord for your love and kindness. In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN. LoveMyX -- EXPECT YOUR MIRACLE! Believe!

Hopeful, keep your chin up dear sister, the Lord will sustain you; He will take care of you and will not honor those who are living in sin. Take heart knowing that He IS in control and will prevail. Keep in the Word and most of all keep praying for his salvation and deliverance out of the hand of the enemy. Pray Ephesians over him, pray scriptures especially. I pray this one a lot: "Father I thank You that my husband loves me as Christ loves the church and gave himself for it, I believe in the name of Jesus and by the power of the blood of Jesus that my husband loves me as Christ loves the church and gave himself for it." <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

God bless,

Well, I'm feeling down again today.

One of the owner's of the company I work for just had his first baby yesterday and forwarded a picture to all of us today. He truly is adorable and I'm very happy for him. Just staring at this little baby I felt so sad. My best friend had her baby 2 months ago, my BIL had his last week yet here I am, not even with my H. We were the first ones to get married from all and now everybody else is happy with their family except us. We've been separated for almost 7 months now. I was hoping to get pregnant on our 5 year anniversary trip (which was almost 3 months ago). Will I ever have a family and be happy again? That's what I've asked myself all day today. I've just cried thinking about it. I see all the couples on the street and wonder if I'll ever be that happy again. I envy everyone. It just hurts so much!!! <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

Tomorrow is my H's birthday. I've been by his side for the past 5 birthdays but tomorrow, he'll be with OW. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> Will he even remember his last ones with me? Does he even think about me at all? Will he remember the little spiderman blanket I gave him last year? How he woke up in the morning and was covered with it? I just wonder all these things. He must remember 'cause the last time I saw his truck parked at his mom's house, I saw the blanket in the back seat. This is just so depressing. As much as I want to wish him Happy Birthday, I won't. I'm still in Plan B and sticking to it. I'll wish him in my heart and will pray for him (like I do every day). I know God has a plan for me but I don't know what. I know that he also has the perfect timing for everything and I need to be patient. It's just so hard some times.

Please keep me in your prayers. Please also pray for my H. I love him very much and miss him like crazy. Thanks

H98

Hey Hopeful,
Just want to encourage you today and tell you not to give up. I've been thru what you are going thru, so I know what it's like. Trust me, it will get better. God will change the scenery as time goes by and thus the season will change also. You will learn to get your affirmation from God and not from man which will help you in life.God has taken me in a whole new direction and I'm actually enjoying it. Stay strong girl.
God Bless
singleguy