My wife is all packed and ready to leave Monday…
If you have not read my other posts, here is a quick synopsis, I found out 2 weeks ago my wife of 8 years, total of 13 years together is leaving me, not because of cheating on either part, its just a case of things not working, and being sick of coping… she is simply convinced that moving to her sisters 1000 miles away will make things better for her. Unfortunately we have a 5 year old daughter and a 14 year old daughter from a previous relationship, W’s. I have been seeing a marriage counselor, and she has joined me twice as well, a bit reluctantly, but I really appreciate her coming. Nothing has changed, she is still packed and leaving Monday.
I have made quite a few personal changes since my last posts on the other boards. I started becoming manic last week, overly happy one day, not being able to stop crying the next. I was at the breaking point on Sunday, I could not deal with the weight on my shoulders, I could not stop crying, I really didn’t know what if anything I could try anymore, nothing seemed to be helping. I took myself to church for the first time ever, voluntarily that is. Everyone in the church seemed to see right through me and to how much I was hurting. I just couldn’t take it any more so I gave up and put my faith in Jesus, and God. Since, I have been able to deal with this seemingly hopeless situation. Things have become so much better for me. The guidance provided as well as the emotional stability is truly miraculous! I find myself doing the “Right” thing automatically without justification or reason, it’s like that little voice telling me to do anything but the right thing has been muffled, I find myself asking myself “why did I do that?” doing the right thing feels so good, and makes me so happy!
Our 5 year old is really looking forward to spending time with her cousins, and our 14 year old has wanted to get away from me for some time, thinking I hate her. Today, I came home, and the oldest opened the door for me, and I said thank you, then we talked for a while, and she asked me if I was her dad? I said yes I am you dad, I said why? She said she wanted to stay with me. This is incredible! Is this the same teenager that didn’t like me and wanted to leave 1 week ago? Earlier today I filed an emergency petition to keep my wife from taking our children out of state, I have put it off until now with only 2 days left, and the two girls at the courthouse said it was just too late. Then, they said they could possibly get it to the judge in time.
Nothing has changed, except maybe me, and I can really see the lord does work in mysterious ways!
I love my wife dearly, and I know she is hurting inside, and it breaks my heart to see this. I want her to be happy, with or without me; I pray for both of us every chance I get.
Earlier today, a friend of mine at work told me today of the power of prayer he said something like, “1 persons prayers for another have the power of 100” today he asked me if he could share my situation with his wife, I said sure, and he said “2 peoples prayers for another have the power of 10,000” I truly believe he is right! So I am sharing my story in hopes my prayers are shared.
Thank You All!
