Daizy, My heart breaks with you as I have been where you are as I am a BS as well. I am so sorry that you are feeling that desperation that I and many others here are so familiar with.
I did not know about this site until after my FWH ended the A and returned home so the only guidance I had was God and my own instincts. We have been in recovery for 2 years and doing good.This site and this forum has been a great help and support to me and the rebuilding of our M.
I went back and read some of your other posts. The situation will be far more difficult if not unworkable as long as your WH works with or has any contact with the OW. I know.My FWH worked with the FOW,too. I have endured great struggles with that situation in recovery.I highly recommend the rules and advice of Dr. Harley.Read,read,read.The best advice is there, along with the people on this forum.
I will be praying for you even after this post.
"Heavenly Father,we come before You with humble,yet broken hearts.I know that you understand how our hearts and souls are frayed and tattered by this betrayal that has come into our lives and we ask for your help and healing.
God, I pray for Daizy.I know so well what she is going through and I would remove all of the pain,confusion,devastation, and lonliness from her life if I had the power. I do not have that power but you do and I ask for your help in giving her the strength to sustain her through this dark and trying time.Oh,God,I can feel what she feels and I am torn for her.I ask you to please hear and honor this prayer and the prayers of others sent to you on her behalf. I thank you for all you have done in our lives and for all that you are going to do." kk
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