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Every Wed. we are to pray and fast for one another. Every Weds we can check in and let everyone know we have prayed for the group. Prayer does mighty things and group prayer is even better.

I think it will be great to see how God works in our lives and heals our marriages and us. If you want to pray with us I will be more than happy to add your name to the list below.

Prayer Warriors who are praying and being prayed for: cajunky, Ezra, Willgetthruthis, Godisincontrol, Natasha79, JohnC, NMWBTWBD (Not My Will, But Thy Will Be Done, Wallace, relady, steadfast and committed, morriggs, lupolady, stillwaiting, Broken Hearted, PasDeDeux, hopeful_person, GinnyF, justpeachy, cry2much, SNL, LostAgain (Dave&April), Dodger, gloriachu, LoveNcare, JMF, WEN, NiteHawk, Absurd, LetSTry, AgainsttheWind, cemmerson, getting better, kellidiane, Terrified, BeeLee, idostylin, Resilient, thiscantbehappening, day by day, Jloves, broken x3, Sue with Hope, sunrise1, shepette, Malc, Faithfulwife, timbo-e, Angelia, FeelingAllAlone, broken_joe, dopey, awake, truly a friend, Is it to late, stilltryingtosaveit, landslide, GODBLESSU, vega, LoyalWarrior, janna-m-r, ferbie, epiphOny, simmy, cajeanie, d_rose, lost_lonely, briank4775, mayflower, Caged_Bird, LunaDove, goldielocks109, darwud, Mrs. darwud, Zuzus Petals, adamv, Army Hubby, Gail (mojodiva)& Shane, bonnie five & H, TryingToKeepHope, Hopeful98, lghoping, SoTired (Mike & Trish), evega, Douglas and Kirsi Nielson, Jessicafl27, kimmy2, auntielala, weezy8550, miserynmissouri, STBXWife, sealfan, Jen Brown, LunaDove, SMIAJ, cinderella, day by day, GreggC, trying_to_accept, solon, serenitydipity, ilia, lonejrock, anchorhugger, Prayer & Patience, Chikar, Alex6, Hopeforamiracle, fishlady, rookie, Made A Mess of Things, *DeepSigh*, boden, new comittment, deeplyhurting, jeff15679, Bob Castaldi, k57mo, skottyjay (Scott and Melody), TROD (Tony and Julie), thisso, ladysheep, hurtmorethanheknows,

Prayers Answered: Lupolady(air conditioner), Steadfastandcommitted (first string again), cry2much(sucessful surgery), Movingonwithlife(Wife coming home), WGTT(accepted into mentor program), betrayed and desparate (sucessful cancer surgery), Againstthewind (Got job), Free (Marriage Restoration begun ), cajunky (wife not engaged & did something with family, told me she loved me), Stillwaiting (neice is o.k.), Stillwaiting(Got to see her husband for 2 hours and his heart seems to have softened), Steadfastandcommitted (wife gave up other man), janna-m-r (Husband came home and wants to try to restore marriage even though he is the BS), tsc (marriage being restored), Faithfulwife (GOT A JOB, Found a house, D is final and got a puppy that “just LOVES me”), d_rose (got a ways to go but we are going there together.), WGTT (WH coming home), GreggC (wife's heart is softening a bit and son asking about things in the Bible and believes in it), hopeful_person (H seemed more willing to consider a reconciliation),

Thank you everyone that prayed with us and also all of you that gave a praise report. Like many of you all, I like to see the praises to answered prayer. It is a blessing to hear how God is working and helping people get through tough times.

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Guys,

This is so very important. Your W is attacked daily by the enemy and it is soooo true that neither one of you should consider leaving the house w/o the prayer covering of protection for each other. I certainly don't. Even when my W didn't want to pray with me, I still covered her.

HER PROTECTION

Prayers of protection build a hedge around your family. Your wife shouldn't even consider leaving home without you praying over her for protection.

It is important for you to pray over your wife to have good physical health. Tell her you are praying for her to have the strength, knowledge, wisdom, and motivation to take care of herself. Tell her you are doing it because she is the most valuable gift God has given you.

Our greatest efforts can't keep us well forever. Even on the best teams, the quarterback still gets sacked. God knew this, and that's why He sent Jesus as our Healer. So ask for healing on behalf of your wife. And don't stop praying until you see an answer.

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Lord, I pray that You would surround (wifes name) with your hand of protection. Keep her safe from any accidents, diseases, or evil influences. protect her in cars, planes, or wherever she is. Keep her out of harm's way.
Lord, You have said in Your Word that even though "the wicked watches the righteous, and seeks to slay him....[the] Lord will not leave him in his hand" (Psalm 37:32,33). Protect my wife from the plans of evil people. I pray that when she passes through the rivers, they will not overflow her. When she walks through the fire, she shall not be burned nor shall the flame scorch her(Isaiah 43:2). I pray that (wifes name) will make her refuge "in the shadow of Your wings" until "these calamities have passed by"(Psalm 57:1).
Lord, I pray that You would help (wifes name) to truly see that her body is Your dwelling place. Enable her to be disciplined in the care of her body, and teach her to make right choices in what she eats. Give her the motivation to exercise regularly so that she has endurance. Help her to get plenty of rest so that she is completely rejuvenated when she awakens. May she acknowledge You in all her ways - including the care of her body- so that You can direct her paths.

Let no weapon formed against my wife be able to prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Keep her at all times under the umbrella of your protection, and deliver her from the enemy's hand so no evil comes near her. Give Your angels charge over her to keep her in all her ways(Psalm 91:11). I say to my wife that God will "cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler. You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day, nor of th pestilence that walks in darkness, now of the destruction that lays waste at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousnad at your right hand; but it shall not come near you"(Psalm 91:4-7).

Thank you, Lord, that this day You will cover (wifes name) and help her lie down in peace, and sleep; for You alone, O Lord, make her to dwell in safety(Psalm 4:8).

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Please add me to your list...i have been sideline praying for all who come here...My request is, tha thusband gives full disclosure to complete hte healing in our marriage, that the ow gets tired of harrassing the family and spreading her lies and moves on to somethign else to occupy her time...THa thusband continues to strive to the marriage we once had ...

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Hello to all Prayer Warriors,

Yes, I'm still here and want you all to know that I am praying for each and every one of you by name on every Wed. Thanks to all of you for your prayers for me and my WH, Dan.

S&C,
I have a special request this week, besides the restoration of my M. Could you all pray for me about whether to send a Plan B letter and whether to confront my WH about the fact that I know about his OC? I am struggling right now with all this and am getting conflicting advice from very experienced people here on MB, but when I go to God's word, I don't feel any peace in my heart about doing a Plan B letter.

I also don't want to be a fool - if this will be a help to my M and to bringing my WH back to our M and separate him from the OW, then I will do it.

I am also struggling with another issue - I moved about 800 miles away when Wh moved in with OW and told me he never wanted to be M to me, so my Plan A has been long distance through letters, phone calls for last 6 months. I just had an opportunity to move within a few miles of where they are now living and have been praying about whether I should move - is this somehting that God is working out for me or would WH see this as me chasing after him and move him further away?

Also, my S,D and most of my family are pushing me to D, saying that now that they have a OC together there is no hope of him ever coming back to me or our M. This also make me feel so hopeless at times. Could you pray that my family and friends will be more supportive and that God will help them to heal from all the anger they feel toward WH, and that they will find forgiveness for him?

I know this is a long post...but I have had a lot on my heart lately and I really need some help with all of it.

Counselor has advised me to confront WH with the fact that I have found out about OC with OW, do you think I should?

Lupolady,

I read the article you posted here on Marriage by Steve Wilcox. It was a good article and I appreciate it, but I felt more confused by things after reading it.

You see, this is my 2nd M, so where does that leave me?

I have been M this time for 16 years and my first H has been M for a long time as well.

Also, if you read my post above, can you give me any advice as well as your prayers? I really respect your opinion.

Thanks to both of you for all your work here and to keep us going. I would truly be lost with out all your support and prayers.

Thanks, Cajeanie

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I'll be away from my computer all day tomorrow, but just wanted you to know that I'll be praying for all.

I'm spending the night at my BIL's house tonight, and spending the entire day with his pregnant wife tomorrow. She's due in about a week and a half. This will be my H's first and only Nephew. Don't know how he will handle this since he doesn't speak to his brother. Please keep me and my H in your prayers. I am still in Plan B and really don't know where this will take me. But I'm trusting God and know that he is and will take care of me. Thanks.

Have a Blessed Day!

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Please pray for us to restore our marriage I am praying for all of you

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cajeanie:

So sorry, I didn't see your post till now. I trust it isn't too late to address your ?'s. Listen, this is all such uncharted territory, NONE of us knows what we should really do!!! If you do not feel any peace about anything, then I believe you should NOT do it!!! We all know God gives us peace, when He's involved!!! That's one of the ways we KNOW we are walking in His way. PTL

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I also don't want to be a fool - if this will be a help to my M and to bringing my WH back to our M and separate him from the OW, then I will do it.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Hmmmmm, Don't want to be a fool for Christ? Hmmmmmm..........See, if you are doing all of this as unto the Lord, then leave the results, and the perceptions of others to HIM!!!
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> is this somehting that God is working out for me or would WH see this as me chasing after him and move him further away?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I really don't know the answer to this, and neither do YOU, until you ask God what He wants YOU TO DO!!!
You should be doing things FOR HIM, and not worrying about how it will "appear" - to WH or anyone else!!!!

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> most of my family are pushing me to D, saying that now that they have a OC together there is no hope of him ever coming back to me or our M.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Well, ya know something??? When people say this kind of thing to me, I just smile and tell them, "Wait till you see the miracle God has promised ME!!!!" Now, do I know for certain God is going to restore your M, given this new "wrinkle?" No, I don't!!! God wouldn't reveal that TO ME!!! THAT'S BETWEEN YOU AND HIM!!! But think what a testimony it would be if He does do that!!!!!!!!! PTL (again)

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Could you pray that my family and friends will be more supportive and that God will help them to heal from all the anger they feel toward WH, and that they will find forgiveness for him?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I will certainly pray that they will lose the anger, and find forgiveness.....but I wonder if they'll ever be more supportive.........
See, others on these boards have explained it to me this way: Our family and friends "feel our pain." They think the way to get over the pain is move away from it, AND MOVE ON. Therefore, they just want to help us get "happy' again, so they advise us to move on.........it's just their way of trying to help us stop hurting. They mean no harm, but - here it is again - they aren't going to hear from God FOR YOU about what YOU should do!!!!!!!!! God will only tell YOU what you should do.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Counselor has advised me to confront WH with the fact that I have found out about OC with OW, do you think I should?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">What do you feel you shoudl do?

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">
I read the article you posted here on Marriage by Steve Wilcox....this is my 2nd M, so where does that leave me?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Again, without spending LOTS of time with God, and asking HIM these hard questions, I don't think anyone has that answer. My H was M'd before me, so I know what you are saying.......I began to question whether or not OUR M was even in God's plan.............
But, here's the thing: H wasn't saved when he was M'd before, (I believe that means he was not in a "Covenant M") during first M, so God did not bless it........ (I'll prolly get flamed for that!) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> I'm just trying to make sense of all this, and that makes the most sense to me, and seems to follow scripture most closely. If one is spiritually "dead" - then how does one enter into a covenant with GOD?????

Just my thots.........

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Lupolady,

Thanks for the reply.

Ok, I am trying with everything I have to do what God wants me to do, but my biggest problem is when everyone always tells you to ask God, or it's between God and you, I don't always know what God wants me to do. I've been waiting a year, and still nothing, so I am starting to feel a little crazy.

I am trying right now to put God first, and to be what I believe he wants me to be, but does that mean I shouldn't be proactive about my M?

Part of me wants to go up there where they are living and say "I'm here and I'm not going away, and I will do everything I can to win you back", but that isn't necessarily the right thing if you listen to the advice here on MB. I feel so confused about all this sometimes. I guess I'm just looking for a little clarification.

And although I was raised by wonderful Christian parents, I was very far away from God when I went through my first M and D, and it has taken me a long time to get back to Him again.

I realize that the Bible says that we see things now as "in a mirror" and that we won't know the answer to all things in this life.

But isn't it frustrating some times to know just what to do?

Thanks. I always value your input.

Thanks for the prayers, too.Cajeanie

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Cajeanie,

If I might, I'd like to take a stab at your questions here. And I'd like you to bear with me in the way I will answer them.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Ok, I am trying with everything I have to do what God wants me to do, but my biggest problem is when everyone always tells you to ask God, or it's between God and you, I don't always know what God wants me to do. I've been waiting a year, and still nothing, so I am starting to feel a little crazy.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Do you remember when your best friend and you first meet? You really didn't know them very well did you? But you spent time with them and started finding out not only about them outwardly, but you started to get to know their heart. You listened to them as they told you about themself and saw how they reacted to situations. After a while you started to know how they would respond to certain events. To me learning about God is the same way.

The way God speaks to us is through His word, the Bible (I know you already know this). But many people read it like a text book and see the history there. One aspect that I look at the Bible from is that it is a letter to me; from God telling me about His bride and the bride's A. Yes, that's right, in one aspect of the Bible, is all the infidelity of God's bride. Him being the BS, From adam and Eve, to Israel and Christians being the WS. And God's plan of redemption, reconciliation and reovery from our affair.

When I understood that God was really speaking to me through the Bible, I read it differently and started to understand God's heart in all of this. It became so real to me then. I'll tell how real it became (get ready for some goosebumbs).

On the 1st anniversary of d-day; my daily reading had me read 2 Corinthians 8:10 "I suggest that you finish what you started a year ago, for you were the first to propose the idea, and you were the first to begin doing something about it." (NLT) A year ago that day I vowed to fight for my M. And the night before that reading, I was considering giving up. How freaky is that? God's word will be real for you. Read it as it were your best friend were writing to you.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I am trying right now to put God first, and to be what I believe he wants me to be, but does that mean I shouldn't be proactive about my M?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I know I'm going to sound like lupolady here <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> but, I can't answer that. What I can tell you is, sometimes being "proactive" gets in God's way. Sometimes, He just needs us to butt out so He can work better. Remember, first and formost, God wants you to have a better relationship with Him. He doesn't want your M to be first. The weird thing for us to understand is by improving our R with God; God miracles become more commonplace in our lives and we start seeing things through His eyes. And we look different in other people's eyes. Am I making sense or just babbling?

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Part of me wants to go up there where they are living and say "I'm here and I'm not going away, and I will do everything I can to win you back", but that isn't necessarily the right thing if you listen to the advice here on MB. I feel so confused about all this sometimes. I guess I'm just looking for a little clarification.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Always remember to put man's advice (MB principles) through God's filter (His word).

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">But isn't it frustrating some times to know just what to do?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Yep, but I've come to understand that God always seeks the best for me and always wants to prepare me of all the things I will encounter and that takes time sometimes. BTW - I've also learned a lot of patience along the way too.

And as you know, my prayers are with you.

Love in Christ.

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S&C,

Thanks for your insight and support and your prayers.

I feel as though I learn so much from you and also from Lupolady - I just want you both to know that, and I am praying for both of you.

I am away from home, but glad I checked in. I want to re-read both your posts later, and think about what you said.

It did give me goosebumps to hear about your "message" on the one year anniversary. I continue to look for answers to my own situation, and it helps so much when you and others share, it makes me feel like I'm not out here without some basis to keep believeing.

I realize that last line is just what you were talking about - doing it because it's what God wants, not others, but what can I say. I hope that I continue to grow in confidence with God. I really like how your comarison. It gave me a brand new way to think about things. I am going to spend some time praying about this.

Thanks again. Cajeanie

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Cajeanie,
I also, like you, have a hard time sometimes discerning God's will... esp. in specifics. I also moved miles away from my husband and did not know if I should move back or not, etc.

I have found that when I am not in God's Word I am truly like a blind man feeling my way around in the dark, hoping I end up in the right place! When I am in God's Word, I read testimonies of men and women who put their faith in God, I read pastoral teaching from men like Paul, I find comfort in the Psalms and can relate to David's cries for help and comfort, I glean wisdom from the Proverbs, etc. God's Word is truth. We live in a world in which Satan is the god, allowed to roam around "seeking whom he may devour." We are not only surrounded by his lies, we are beseiged and attacked by them! If we do not know God's Word, we will fall for Satan's lies because he is scheming and so convincing! If he could convince Eve who was without sin... think of us, who are with sin!

Anyways, the Word will guide you. As you are in it, the Lord will speak to you through it and will give you wisdom. Also pray for it. Even fast for it. I just finished a long fast in which I was desperate to know God's will and for him to hear my prayers.

I still, though, feel confused at times, etc. We are to "take every thought captive." When I doubt, fear, etc... I confess it to the Lord and ask him to "help my unbelief" and then try to remind myself of Scripture and truth. When I hear "it's hopeless" or "it's impossible," I recall the truth of God's Word which is so opposite hopelessness and impossibilities.

God bless you and may He heal your marriage.

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From the Steinkamp's, and Rejoice Ministries:

THE DANGERS OF DARKNESS

"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly." Romans 5:6

Early Sunday morning we received an email from our friend and co-laborer, Dennis Wingfield, who prepares a weekly "Standing Firm" men's
devotional for Rejoice Marriage Ministries. Dennis' subject line told the story; "Victim of east coast power failure." Dennis, who lives in
the Detroit area, wrote, "I have been without power this weekend and will get my devotional out on Monday. Please pray for us."

Until 4:10 PM Thursday, few of us were thinking about darkness. The work day was about to end for millions of people, and early weekend plans were being made by some. Workers were considering how long the commute home would take, never thinking they would soon be headed home on foot. The same New York City tourists who were grumbling about restaurant prices would soon be searching for a restaurant that could even serve them.

What happened that made the difference? The same thing, in a physical sense, that happened to your prodigal spouse, in a spiritual sense;
The power went out. There are some basic lessons that can be learned from both areas of darkness:

* DARKNESS IS DISPLEASING-
Just as people in the northeast were saddened to be thrust into darkness, the spiritual darkness of your prodigal is breaking the heart of Almighty God.

* DARKNESS IS DANGEROUS.-
Residents in large cities were apprehensive as nightfall approached. Your prodigal has their eyes closed to the spiritual darkness they are
in.

* DARKNESS IS DECEPTIVE -
Victims of the power failure had no idea what was happening around them, nor how close they were to danger. Your prodigal, living in
sin, has no idea when they will draw their last breath. There is no time for repenting after that moment.

* DARKNESS IS DESTRUCTIVE -
Even at best, the darkness cost both government and citizens billions of dollars. The cost of spiritual darkness to your prodigal, if they
do not turn around, will be eternal separation from God, in a place called hell. The cost to you, your family, and future generations
cannot even be estimated.

Why should you continue to stand? Because the mate you married is in something displeasing, dangerous, deceptive, and destructive. God
has called you to take a stand, so please do not, quit, back up, slow down, look around or fall down, until the one you love is back, safe
in your home, and safe in the arms of Jesus. That's when the lights come on!

"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." Acts 1:8

P.S. - The authorities are warning there may be "rolling black outs" in some areas, even after power is restored. Charlyne and I pray that your stand with Christ for the restoration of your marriage is not experiencing "rolling black outs," as your standards change, depending
on the situation and circumstances. May each of us enter this new week determined to stay 100% powered up for Jesus.

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2

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Dear S&C,
I would like to be added to your prayer list both for prayer and to pray for others. I understand it is every Wednesday that people pray and fast.
There is so much wisdom here that I just want to reinforce it and ask that God will give everyone wisdom to seek His will. The WORD is God's will. The Holy Spirit will speak to us minute by minute if we listen. He will take us to just the right verse if we ask.
I do know that patience is a critical component of christianity. His time is not our time.
I have been divorced for 7 years. I am praying for that gal that God has chosen for me. Just so that you know how to pray for me.
God said that He would "guide our steps" and we should ask every day that He will lead us to the things He wants us to be apart of and to divert us from the path that would harm us. Father make us into the people You want us to be.
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S&C,
Please add my family and me to the weekly prayer list. All my stories are in my signature below. I am living at home, in the family room now, as my W continues filing for D. I am the WS in this, the A being over 5 years ago. I am Roman Catholic, but I let my spiritual guard down and was not the man God intended me to be and succumbed to my EN's being stroked by the OW. My W is agnostic and told me yesterday, she is happy to stay that way, and that in the past I tried to force her to change. I didn't, I only asked that she would attend with our children on high holy days. Even with her lack of belief, we experienced something somewhat miraculous shortly after we met. We were on our way to church in NYC (coming from NJ), having a tremendous arguement (both of us are way to opinionated). We were yelling at eachother right up until we opened the church doors. When we entered, we both inesplicably? stopped and looked at eachother. We forgot (to this day) what we were fighting about. Unfortunately, since that miracle, we have had (too many to count) fierce fights, that the A was the last straw. She is now surrounded by friends(?) an atty and a therapist who all want her to end the misery.

Last year I did a Sterling Men's Weekend in NY, and when I returned my W was in disbelief and distrusting of the changes she saw in me. Because I did not invite God fully back into my life, I slowly went back to my opinionated, selfish ways. She even told me one night, after an arguement, "You have become the man I wish you were when I first met you.....BUT, I cannot forgive the infidelity."
I now have a mentor, my nieghbor, and we have started reading the Bible together on Tuesday evenings (once thus far). I have downloaded some books of the Bible to my laptop so I can read them at work, home, etc. I have read Genesis and started Exodus, Matthew and Romans. I have been praying a Rosary (or two) almost everyday in my car ride to work. When I feel tempted, I look down to the ground on my left and point my finger a Satan, telling him to leave me alone. But, I am a sinner and I do fall. Until I started the mentoring, I never realized how much sex is really portrayed in the world and how I am tremendously influenced by it very waking (and sleeping_) moment.
During the A, and about 18 months prior to, I was on the Internet, chatting, downloading, etc... BEING UNFAITHFUL to my W. I was not getting my EN's met within the M so I seeked elsewhere. Then Satan showed me more and told me I deserved more, and I listened. I know part of God's plan for me going through this is to inform other potential (or current) WS', STOP BEFORE YOU DESTROY YOURSELF, YOUR SPOUSE, YOUR CHILDREN, AND YOUR ETERNAL SALVATION!
From constant pressure from my W that I have a problem, I finally, reluctantly, admitted to being a sex addict. After this I have been told by therapists, clergy, friends, family, etc. about a 50-50 split on me being an addict. I don't feel I am an addict, BUT, I definitely did activities that were morally wrong. I am looking for an SA meeting in my area so I can go in and be saved from going further down this dark path. I have not chatted, strip clubs in 5 years, no A in 5 years (almost one 4 years ago). No mags or vids in 3 months. I did falter this past week. a few times, one-two minute viewings of MA rated cable movies.

So closing this, please pray for G & M and our two children, Noelle and Stefan, that God save our M and restore our love for eachother (if it be God's will).

Thanks and God Bless all of those in need of His divine mercy,
TTSMM

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I posted a reply on this weeks ROM (Restoration of Marriages) thread. Restoration of Marriages Aug. 27th

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