staeryn,
Have not heard from you on this forum. Tells us how everything is going with you and your new baby.

Love and Peace in Christ,
ttsmm

Sorry it has taken so long to respond- I haven't been checking the board in a few days...

Keira Olivia Grace was born Wednesday 14 January 2004 at 1059pm. She weighed 8 lbs and is 20.5 inches long- little bit of light brown hair and a great set of lungs!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> She is a wonderful baby so far- on a great schedule already and a happy calm baby!! It was a good delivery, H decided to be there (although he had decided after three days at home he "couldn't stay there" and moved back to his friends house) and was helpful to me.. My mom has come down to be with me for three weeks to help out (Yeah mom!) and so far DS likes his sister- he loves to hold her. I am hoping he continues to like her and doesn't get too jealous..

On a bad note- H hasn't been around too much since the birth and upon visiting one day earlier this week told me I need to hurry up and decide to file separation papers or he is going to. Then two days later he was hounding me about money- what I can cut down on in the house (I am a SAHM and as I was 5.5 mos pregnant when he decided to leave I couldn't get a job) to give him more money, etc.. He told me I definately need to move home with my parents asap and wanted to know how much child support will be- and if he still has to pay the full amount if I live with my parents and don't have a real rent of my own. I think he thinks that if I live with my parents for a while (hopefully no more than 6 months) they will totally support me- he won't have to pay me and can use that money himself- he wants to get an apt (living with friend) and wants a new car!

So at the moment I am just praying harder, totally unsure of what to do- I don't want to move home, I don't want to loose my independence, my son loves his preshcool down here, and I am afraid that if I move the 5 hours away- it will definately be over- there will be no chance of reconciliation...

Whew- that was longer than I thought <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Staeryn

I happy about the baby. As for your H, I'm sorry he is being so cruel. You and your F are in my prayers, so please come by and let us know what is going on.

Love and Peace in Christ,
ttsmm

Staeryn,

Congratulations on your new baby.

That is good that your husband was there, and even though he left after three days, I am sure that because of your prayers, God is moving in his heart. He probably left out of guilt. He wants to leave, knows he shouldn't, couldn't deal with it.

Trust the Lord to be your Provider. It says in Isaiah that the Lord is our Husband. He will NOT leave you destitute, or your children. You will face fears, but overcome them with your faith and prayers. The Lord will meet your needs... including financial. If your husband "hounds" you, try to respond to him with gentleness and patience (and forgiveness!)

About moving home with your parents... that is a tough decision. Continue to bathe it in prayer and then whatever you decide, do it in faith knowing that God is with you and you have prayed over it.

God will provide and care for us. He esp. is very concerned about widows and orphans (and that is in essence what you and your children are because your husband is leaving).

Keep praying. If you do end up moving home... just remember that "nothing is impossible with God." He can still reconcile your marriage. There might be a purpose for Him having you move home. God will guide you as you decide.

My heart goes out to you. I do hope and pray very much that God restores your marriage. I pray that He softens your husband's heart and renews his love for you. I pray that He does a new work in your marriage and blesses your efforts to reconcile so that you will see the fruit of your labor (a good marriage as the result of your prayers, efforts, etc).

God bless you and be with you.

"What is impossible with men is possible with God." Luke 18:27

<small>[ June 12, 2004, 06:10 AM: Message edited by: LoveMyEx ]</small>

Thank you LMEX for your thoughts- I have found those websites although I haven't bought too many things off them I do visit them semi frequently (esp when I am feeling hopeless!)

It a first marriage for both of us... I had thought my only (still hoping) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Staeryn, I'm glad you read my reply and wrote. If you would like some of the books but can't afford them, I can send you some that I have. You can also maybe share with them that you can't afford them but want them (if you do). I did that and one of the women sent me her cassette tapes. She told me that her marriage had been restored and to pass them on to another woman when I was done.

I, too, hope it is your only marriage. Be strong and keep your faith. God can restore it!

Staeryn,

Good to see you here. Welcome back! Congratulations on the new baby! I just love babies! All I can tell you is, trust God - He knows what He's doing and rely on HIm for EVERYTHING! I agree with Lovemyex. I don't think moving away would be the best choice. Of course, this is going to take a lot of prayer for God to speak to you on what you should do. The answer lies within, just listen for it.

You are in my thoughts & prayers. I too pray it's your only M and God will restore it.