I really liked how TTSMM started a thread a while back for praises. I am starting a new one 'cause I know that many of us have MORE praises to be added. I will start with mine today! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

My H showed up at church today!! My MIL left a note for him at home in the morning, inviting him to go and he went!! God is sooooo good. For almost a year I have been praying for God to bring my H back to Him. I KNOW he will, in His perfect timing. Today was a first small step and proof that God IS working in his life. He was there the ENTIRE church service and even stayed for the potluck. He was with his mom and was able to talk with a few friends. I was pretty nervous but overall, was VERY thankful to God for bringing him to church. I wanted to say hello to him but he was always with someone and I didn't get the courage to. Most of my family was there at church today and that didn't stop him from going in.

The interesting part about this all, is that my cousin's husband (a Pastor) was supposed to preach today but for some reason (God) he didn't and his brother preached instead. The sermon was truly AWESOME and touched my heart very much. I pray that it touched my H's heart as well. At the end, the pastor did an altar call and I went up. I cried thru the prayer 'cause I was so happy to know that my H was kneeling just a few feet away from me and praying. God is soo good. Thank you Lord!!!!

H98

My children are safe.

I had a wonderful talk with my mother this morning. We ended with "I love you"... used to be foreign, and I am thankful it isn't any longer.

My daughter's boyfriend is healing (the one who had surgery yesterday is home).

My daughter made me laugh so hard today I had to get my asthma spray!

Our cat takes "adventures" down the hallway and tiptoes outside, although she is an indoor cat. My H and I have to go with her because she's afraid. Today she stepped all the way out and rolled around on the grass. This brought me joy!

I had a bath this morning... I love baths... while my H was out picking up his children.

The sun came out!!! It was about 5*C, which is about 42F, and felt like 70. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I am working on my journal to begin writing again, and feel that this will be a huge step in my recovery.

This is long.

I am at peace with my past.

Friday morning, I visited the Tabernacle at church, I'm doing this for Lent, and I hope to do it for ever. I confessed my affair again, felt the need, and remembered about the abortion my wife had, and I agreed to, before she knew about the affair, because I was in a fog and thought I wanted out of the marriage. I wept because my unborn son or daughter would never see God. HE woke me up telling me, "...they were baptised by blood..." My tears of remorse became tears of joy. My child was with my Mom, Dad and oldest brother, Michael, in Heaven. He removed a HUGE burden from my heart. My Spiritual Director told me later, "God gave you Grace this morning."

That evening, I saw "The Passion of the Christ". I had read about Mary Magdaline many times, and know the story pretty well. I am an adulterer, but I NEVER put myself in her shoes. But in the movie, when Jesus forgave her, I truly felt forgiven. I know I am forgiven (even though He forgave me years ago). He lifted another heavy burden from my heart; another Grace He blessed me with.

When I saw my Spiritual Director (SD) last week, we discuussed my life story. I discovered I wanted to serve God as an alter boy, but my parents were against the changes in Vatican II. I discovered I felt turmoil because I wanted to serve God, but going against my parents would be dishonoring God as well. My SD asked me where God was in this. I felt God pick me up, this 9-10 year old boy, by my arms, turn me around, hold my face in His hands, and tell me, "It's OK. I know the intent that was in your heart. There will be other times you can serve Me." I felt calmness and peace, and started to weep tears of joy.

This past Friday with the SD, I discovered why I have the thoughts and feelings I do about myself, authority, women, sex, etc. I never got this deep with any therapist.

So I have been truly blessed these past 10 days from God.

God's Grace,
ttsmm

Praises to Our King:

Thank you for letting me sleep in today.
Thank you for letting my puppy sleep by my side.
Thank you for my cat drinking water from my sink! haha <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />
Thank you for coffee! Oh, Double thanks, now that I think about it.
Thank you for my daughter.
Thank you that my exH called me at 8am to tell me they were working.
Thank you for the the walk I had with my puppy this morning--it was beautiful and exhilarating.
Thank you for my car. Okay, it's just a Ford, but it's dependable and it's a mommy car.
Thank you for lunch with my friend. I love her and she's doing well.
Thank you for using me to help heal her marriage.
Thank you for spanish rice and beans--I love them mixed together.
Thank you for my exH's puppy. She is so cute.
Thank you for the relaxing time I had at the bookstore--I so rarely get to do that.
Thank you for the Naked Juice! Good one!!
Thank you for Mel Gibson. Thank you for working in his life and for giving him the courage to make that movie.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for that movie. It is so powerful and such a blessing. Bless this movie and make it an instrument of salvation.
Thank you for kleenex.
Thank you for listening to my heart in the car.
Thank you for loving someone as unworthy as I am.
Thank you for ruffle potatoe chips.
Thank you for my warm home.
Thank you for the snow.
Thank you that I have the internet now and can write to my friends.
Thank you for this forum.
Thank you for the calm, still night.
Thank you for my warm inviting bed with is calling to me now that it's 1am (heehee).

AMEN.