I just can't do this. I am dying inside. I don't want this divorce. But there is stopping it. Why doesn't he love me anymore? What did I do? He meant everything to me. My world revolved around him and the girls. "My" precious little family. How can he just turn his back on me? This pain is so strong, even after all these months. Why did he do this? I thought I was his everything and I would have bet my life that I would have never had to experience this. Why me? I want my life back. I want my family back. He is not even with the OW. He just says he lost me months ago and his heart has turned to stone and he doesn't even want to try. Whats he talking about? I did nothing, nothing but love him. Thanks for letting me cry on all of your shoulders. Please God listen to me, just this once!!!!!!

I just posted a cry for help. I feel as you do....dead. I know you will not understand my feelings because my H is with me and gave up the OW, but my pain is as real as yours. I love him, but I can't get past this. I am dying a little each day and I don't know what will be left at the end.<P>I just wanted you to know you are not alone in your pain....

Oh, Mental, I know it hurts. I felt the same as you, everything I ever was centered around being a wife and mother - working was just a way to pay for things we needed.<P>It's ok to cry. Let it be a little release for you. <P>And remember that we all love you. Not like having him, but we're here.<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{Mental}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Lori

{{{{{{{{{{<B>MENTAL</B>}}}}}}}}}}<P>You've seen my posts... <P>You must think I just <B>follow the book</B>... or books...<P>Well, it's not that clear...<P>I've learned like many here, especially those in Plan A who get piled on with verbal and emotional abuse (because of the contact we keep), just sometimes... <B>to let go</B>... <P>I let go... and give into God...<BR>Prayer is my only recourse at times... not books... not posting... not reading... not consoling/counseling... just straight talk with God... Jesus my saviour.<P>For those who come here and don't have "some kind of faith... belief..."... I don't know how they will ever survive... <P>There are a few like that... right now Arik(<B>2 soulmates</B>) is at this point of no-belief... I feel for him... but I feel for Nicole(<B>Patient Love</B>) more...<P>I have to give in... put myself into the palms of His hands... and know He'll be there when no one else will.<P>Jim<BR>------------------<BR>I can dare myself... I'll put a pebble in my shoe...<BR>I can walk... I can walk! I shall call the pebble Dare...<BR>Dare shall be carried... And when we both have had enough<BR>I will take him from my shoe, singing... "Meet your new road!"...<BR>Finally glad... Finally glad... That you are here... By my side...