Friends,
Three years ago today, almost to the minute, I walked into my home to find a note stating my H had decided he "didn't want to be M'd anymore.....and had filed for Div."
Wow.
I thought I was going to die. I KNEW my life was over. Many thoughts went through my mind. First: "GOOD!!! LET HIM GO.................Who needs him???"
Next thought was a scripture: GOD said to me (almost immediately,
"What they mean for evil, I will use for good........"NEXT thought was - "WHERE IS HE?? HOW WILL I FIND OUT??? WHERE DID HE GO? I've got to talk to him.........and change his mind."
NEXT thought was:
"STAND STILL and see the salvation of the Lord."I truly didn't know how any of this would play out. It was a very bumpy road, a very long struggle, lots of ups and downs. I learned to trust Jesus, got my act together and got myself into a great, Bible-preaching, "alive in the spirit" church........
Now, three years later, things are starting to sort themselves out. He DID get his div. He continued to live w/ow till her death on March 1.
He now says he will now live alone and live for each day to its fullest - "since life is so fragile, and one never knows how much time they have left.........."
(As you can see, her death hit him HARD) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />
BUT - there's another work in the making........
WE are talking more. He seeks me out, calls more and more often, actually admitted he almost came to see me last week-end! (PTL, it'll happen), and we seem to have reached a quiet acceptance of each other..........
I guess I'm saying nothing seems "strained, or fake, or tense" when we talk.
Heck, the last time we talked (Sunday <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> ), he actually made some references to talking to God.
Friends, I guess what I'm saying is that when I came on this site, and was all broken up, and folks said to me, "This will take time.........it's a process, be patient......."
I didn't believe them. I read lots of success stories, and thought, "That'll never be us.........."
Well, today, although I've suffered lots of triggers, and have felt kind of "Off" most of the day, for the most part, I think I'm
*there*. I'm totally relying on God. I KNOW He knows what's best for me. He
*IS* working!!
We just really want everything RIGHT NOW, and that's not God's way. After all, look how many years it took to send His Son to earth, after having told people for 2,000 years to watch for Him.......
My message for anyone just beginning this journey today would be this: BELIEVE those people on this board who've been here awhile. When they say it will take time, THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT!!!
God Bless,
