I've been away for a while and I've been slipping. I just don't want to do it anymore. I still pray morning and night, but not with the same fervor and meaning. I've been thinking about dating other women. The Lord grabbed me and pulled me back to Him tonight.

You see, a few months ago, I had the gun, I was wanting to do it then I couldn't. I wanted help, so I fired a blank off in the house. I was arrested and there I found Him again. After years of trying to push Him away. Just when I think everything is well and settled, I start slipping again and tonight He pulled me back. I was stopped for speeding then I was arrested for an outstanding warrant that arose from the incident with the gun that night. Something neither I nor my attorney knew about. I was arrested for felony child abuse. Thankfully my dad was able to pay the bond.

I have already lost my son except for every-other weekend, I can't lose him totally and I can't lose my job. I'm so angry, so upset I can't think and I won't be able to sleep. Please pray that the Lord will be with me and see me through. I don't want to slip anymore I just can't take much more. Why do WS do this? How do you stop the hurt?

Hi LearningLots,
I've been backsliding a lot lately too. Anytime I start to think how much better I'd be without my husband, that's when I stop what I'm doing and start praying. I know the enemy is attacking me. The minute I start slacking off is the minute things start going in my favor. I back off and then things get worse. We must pray without ceasing. Remember that. Pray throughout the day.

As for the pain you feel, tell God about it. Give your pain to Him. He knows you hurt. Forgive your wife and continue to forgive her daily. It is the only way you are going to make it through this.

Lunadove

God loves his children and he does make us learn some hard lessons in order to bring him back to him. like the shepherd who lost his sheep, that sheep kept leaving the fold every day, so finally out of love the shepherd breaks the sheep's legs so he couldn't run away but held it in his arms until the legs were healed and then the sheep was let down never to leave the fold again. that's not to say the sheep didn't stray a little bit but w/some discipline that sheep would come back where he needed to be each time and faster.

it's during these times that we can refer often to the Footprints poem and know that Jesus is actually carrying us through and he IS. we have got to just allow him to do it so that His will is done.

Please Lord, allow learning lots to be able to "feel" you pulling him through these valleys in his life and feel the comfort of your embrace. that he will be able to again remember that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us and that things will be okay because you provide for your people even when it's hard for them to believe. even though we may feel all alone and incapabable of going on, the Shepherd is always, always with us (Matt 28:20) In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I have been slipping too and praying about it. This has been happening for the last few weeks. But I hadn't been doing the leg work either. Today I put my nose into the bible and starting working on my past due bible study and amazing things happened today. Word by others re this topic are awesome and so true. Gods plans for us are of good, not woe.......

It seems the dark one has been busy among us. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

Things between my wife and I are not going well. She is LB'ing, and the manner in which she is doing so forces me to LB too...

Basically the conversations recently go something along the lines of:

Option A)
BS: X has better legs [or body, or whatever] than me, doesn't she?
WH: No
BS: Don't lie. I know you're lying.

Option B)
BS: X has better legs than me, doesn't she?
WH: She has better muscle definition, but you're more beautiful.
BS: But you think she's better.

[Repeat, ad nauseum].

I just don't know how to handle that kind of lose-lose situation. I'm afraid that with my SA problem, I'm going to end up slipping worse than I already have (looking too long at other women / fantasizing about sexual situations with someone [anyone] who accepts me as I am, and wants me as I am).

Prayers would be appreciated, as would any suggestions you may have.

God Bless,
Richard

Richard, may be it might be better to say that you love her too much to talk about those things and you are exactly where you want to be and that you believe in the person she is. basically not really answering the questions that she asks because of what it can lead to(LB's).

not sure what state you live in but you can listen online to the Bott Radio Network and has a website of same name bottradionetwork.com this is a 24/7 Christian Radio station that has many programs and topics under the sun. it has people on it like Dr. james dobson, dr. charles stanley, dr. david jeremiah, etc. many of these programs/speakers have their own websites that you can visit, listen online, and read. i'm sure you are doing or have done a lot of this already but there's always room for improvement and these may help you in the areas in which you still struggle. even though the topics may not always seem applicable, they will later on. of course the marriage topics are always helpful.


just a suggestion and added prayers to you.

Roughroad,

I wish I were able to say that I love my wife too much to talk about things that I know will lead to LB'ing. Unfortunately, that in itself seens to be a major LB'er for her, just as the "silent treatment" she regularly resorts to is a major LB'er for me.

Thank you again for your prayers.

God Bless,
Richard

i guess i can see that and only you are able to interpret the way that may seem to her, just allow time to be your friend. God Bless, RR