Wow! It's been 6 months. Amazing. 6 months since my H returned. It went by so fast. I can't believe it. As I look back on these last 6 months, a few things stick out for me. 1) Knowing what God has done for both of us, 2) Keeping my children mentally healthy & happy kids, 3) Keeping His presence around us although H is still not fully back to the righteous path, 4) Helping me deal with those nasty triggers that keep coming up.

Triggers -- how I hate them! I didn't realize how many I would have & how often. I was not prepared the one day I rode by his old room & saw a car that looked like his, except convertible, and I was sad the rest of the day. Another example, my BIL was talking to me about when he & my H worked together last summer & this brought it all back for me because this is when the A started & I was in a horrible place after that conversation. BIL understood & changed the subject to try to cheer me up. H is great though. When I feel like this, he tries to remind me that he indeed chooses to be there every day & is in this for the long haul. He is indeed happy and he is surprised by how fast he has fallen back in love with me. But to me, I shouldn't be surprised at all. God is awesome and glorious and all powerful. Should I have expected any less?

I'm also finding that I'm getting little "digs" in where I can, although I'm not trying to deliberately. This makes him feel so guilty & feels like I'm throwing it in his face "all the time". I'm finding that I'm a little more bitter than I had imagined I would be & that I need to choose to forgive both of them every day or it eats me up.

When I asked him what he wanted to do to celebrate the 6 month mark, he was busy studying his homework & so I didn't get the response I wanted. However, this weekend passed and we & the kids went down to a local park with my sister & her family & played volleyball, track ball, basketball, four square (boy, did he have fun with that one!) and swung on swings & slid down slides! So I guess I got what I wanted. A celebration!

Thank you God for everything you have done for me in this past year for without You, none of it would be possible!!!

In Christ's Love,
Yvette

Thank you Ivette for giving us this update. 6 months sure have gone by pretty fast. I am happy for you!! I know that what He has done for you, He will also do for me and many others on this forum. Thank you for giving me encouragement. I've had my tough days this past week but I've also learned things about my H that show me how God is working in his life! Soon...very soon, God will bring him back. May God continue to bless you and give you strength to keep forgiving and to forget. You're in my prayers!!

H98

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> I've had my tough days this past week but I've also learned things about my H that show me how God is working in his life! </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Now, what you do is list the things that you see how God is working and this will keep giving you the courage to push forward with your chin high. Praise God for the small victories & then revel in His glory when His light comes bursting through!

For instance, when H told me in Nov that their "R" was diminishing, I praised God for removing the O/W. Not starting to, not please remove her, but thank you for already doing it! By January, their R had fizzled completely. Then, when he was thinking about coming home, he told HER first & foremost that he was thinking about coming back to me. He told HER that he was going to discuss it with me & that he would call her if he wasn't working things out. SHE told HIM that he must have a heck of a W if she's willing to hold onto you that long! HER words, "She really loves you. Go be with her." Now THAT is God working!

When H's finances were blocked and the bad influences in his life seemed to disappear, I praised God for placing that hedge of thorns so his only road that he could see was the one toward home! And most of all, when something bad happened, yes, I cried, yes I screamed sometimes, but then after thinking about it, I realized that these things were happening b/c Satan was FALLING! Satan had to pull out all the stops to try to beat God, but you know how all powerful God is -- He ALWAYS comes out the winner!

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Soon...very soon, God will bring him back. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Not only have hope that this will happen, but BELIEVE it w/all your heart, as if it's already happened. I know, it's a lot easier said than done and I'm guilty of failing at it too! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> Just trust in Him and everything will work out the way He intended it and maybe even better!

In Christ's Love,
Yvette

Rejoicing with you, and saying a prayer for you now.

^KK^