I am ashamed to admit that I feel completely down and hopeless, and my faith is suffering. I think my H has given up on our recovery. I tried to be loving and forgiving, but he is so angry at me and blames it all on me. I have lost all the ground I gained, I'm losing my M and now I'm losing my H in the battle for his soul. Please pray for the recovery of my M and for me to have the opportunity to lead my H back to God. I'm afraid this will be my last chance.

Cute,

Don't give up now. Things often feel this way right before a breakthrough.

If he blames you, whether warranted or not, tell him that you want to know what he has against you, and listen.

Some of it might be him looking to shift blame, but even so, tell him that you are sorry for hurting him , for your part.

I think the anger is more about his own guilt and fear.

Jesus,

Let them talk this out and let there be forgiveness and healing between them today.

Let him see your love for him in Cute.

Give her a quiet and gentle spirit today with her husband, and let her see him through your eyes. Help her to put her self in his shoes.

Keep the enemy away.

Shul

I agree w/Shul. Please don't give up now. I have found the same thing that Shul described. Once I felt at my worst, that things were looking very bleak, something miraculous happened. My breakthrough came rushing in. The evil one wants nothing more than for you to give in to your hopelessness, for you to lose your faith. Please, don't let him win!

Know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is there, that He wants what's best for you & that He won't give up. When you're feeling like this, this is the time when you need to grab God's hand even tighter. It's part of the storm that has approached. And He wants you to hold his Hand through it & ride the waves with Him! He won't let go of you, so please don't let go of Him!

I pray for your situation. That you receive some kind of breakthrough very soon. That your M becomes one of love & happiness. That God will soften your H's heart & show Him that you indeed love him & want to be his loving W.

If you need to, please post often so we can help you through this storm.

Love in Christ,
Y

Cute -

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way.

Is there any way you could meet me in chat today over at the ladies board?

My boss isn't in the office today and I'll have some time to talk. I also invited Shul over and hopefully all three of us can meet in there at one point to give each other encouragement.

I agree with Shul --- a breakthrough is right around the corner either for yourself, your H, or your marriage --- maybe even all three!!! Remember that if the enemy knows that something good is around the corner for you, he declares war and pulls out all of his pathetic stops in order to stop you from getting there. More than likely, that is what you are in the middle of now.

I hope to see you in chat!! If you've lost the link, post here and I'll get it for you.

Thank you for the replies. I'm sorry I didn't check back sooner. Unfortunately, my M is over and my H won't even talk to me. He just called up one day and said that he was done and wouldn't talk about it except to say that if we couldn't make it work before, we can't now, and that he can't trust me (yet he was the WS, not me, so I don't understand that). The bottom line is that he doesn't want to keep his M vows. He also said really hurtful things about me and our wedding day. I do not understand why he would want to hurt me so much. He says there is no other person this time. I guess none of it matters anymore. My M is over. I don't think my H will ever find his way back to me or to God. I'm no better, because my faith has been destroyed from all of this. I have no hope left. Evil won, and I am completely defeated. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but it was more than I could bear. I feel dead inside.

Ok.

This is what I want you to do:

Read over everything you just wrote, and change each sentence to say the opposite.

For example:


"My marriage is not over.
My husband wants to talk to me.
He is at the end of himself and he wants to start over fresh...."

This is how we kick the enemy's butt.

Father,
I lift up cuteishot right now. I thank you that even though she is weak, you are strong, and that you can bring about your will even in the midst of defeat and discouragement. Thank you that nothing is too hard for you.

I pray that you will do a miracle in her husbands heart , bringing him to repentance.

I pray that cuteishot will have peace of mind and rest. I ask that you would send the comforter to her to remind her of your words, and to refresh her.

Let there be a hedge around her today, that the enemies lies cannot penetrate.

I ask that she will sleep and wake up calm and peaceful, senseing your presence, and your voice telling her that no matter how bad things look or what he says, You are at work, and she can relsx and trust in you to work this out.

Let joy come in the morning for cuteishot.


</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> 6For the LORD has called you
Like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit,
Like a youthful wife when you were refused,"
Says your God.
7"For a mere moment I have forsaken you,
But with great mercies I will gather you.
8With a little wrath I hid My face from you for a moment;
But with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you,"
Says the LORD, your Redeemer.
9"For this is like the waters of Noah to Me;
For as I have sworn
That the waters of Noah would no longer cover the earth,
So have I sworn
That I would not be angry with you, nor rebuke you.
10For the mountains shall depart
And the hills be removed,
But My kindness shall not depart from you,
Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,"
Says the LORD, who has mercy on you.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Isaiah 54


Shul

Shul,

Thank you for the response. The verse is so appropriate. I will try praying. I am so sad, my head believes, but my heart is empty. I feel hollow inside and so ashamed. I am trying... it's just been too much for too long, ever since I was young it's been one major thing after another.

You are going to be okay.

Everything is going to be all right.

I have felt like you feel many times. But i have also seen what God can do, and I cling to that.

There is a reason for all of this.

Jesus had his moments too. Remeber when he cried out 'Of GOd why have you forsaken me?"

But God didn't forsake him , and he won't give up .

We could throw in the towel, like most of the world would do, but we won't. We will wait, and cry during the hard parts, and keep loving and praying for them.

(Mine is here. He has been working on my car the past few days. He is in my bed , pretending to be asleep , feeling like a heel b/c he lied to me yesterday, said he was going home, but went out. I called him on it. I don't' know why he bothers to lie- there is no reason to. I have sort of let him go in a way, and I am glad when he is around, but I have no expectations. As I see it, I am the OW now. He doesn't have to keep secrets from me anymore. Sometimes I want to shake him and say "I am not your mother!")

I just want to get through Xmas, make it nice for our DD. She has been having a rough time.

Cuteishot, the owrst is over, it will get better now. God is with you.

Cute -

Sorry I couldn't log on yesterday to reply to your posts. Please try your best to come over to chat today.

You need to build a strategy here against the spiritual warfare that is taking place inside of you. If you don't, more than likely the "one thing after another" is going to continue in this vicious cycle. Giving up will simply make things worse. You can still stand for your marriage without your H in close proximity. Please do what you can to get over there, or post a time here over the next couple of days in which we can meet in there.

Thanks!

Sealfan - thank you - I have the link. Are you available today (I'm on the east coast) or tomorrow? I am supposed to meet my H at lunch to give him a letter that I asked him to read. I wrote something, but don't really know what to say, and I doubt it will matter. He is so angry and says it's all my fault.

Cute ---

I'll keep the chat room open today as I'm at home. Looking forward to talking to you!!

I'm having trouble getting into the chat room - what am I doing wrong? thanks