Just a praise report...

My Husband had a heart attack in November while he was living with ow.

To date, he has moved out of her home, has accepted the Lord as his Savior, has been in church weekly, reads the bible daily, is on FIRE for the Lord, has asked for forgiveness from the children, my parents, and his parents; has been accountable; listens to nothing but football and gospel music (haha), and all of this is nothing but the Lord in his life.

I cannot take credit for one ounce of anything - I prayed, felt like nothing was happening but meanwhile, God was working on my own relationship with Him. That was one of the best parts of our separation was that I discovered the Lord for who He is. I knew that no matter what my husband did, that I would be okay because God loves me and cares for me. Divorce wouldn't have been the end of the world - because surely God would have taken care of me through that and past that. However, I'm pleased that my husband has been saved and is a living testimony of God's love and forgiveness.

Just wanted to give God the praise!!!!

Praise the Lord!

Thank you Angelia for sharing this reminder of how NOTHING is impossible for our God! I don't see anything changing in my husband's life (I actually don't even see him at all) but I need to keep believing that God IS working in his life, just like He's working in mine.

To God goes all the Glory for your wonderful Praise!!!

God Bless!!

H98

Thankyou for sharing this wonderful news. It renews my faith in what God can do and is doing.

Are the two of you together now?

Shul...yes, we are together. This has been a rough couple of years. He's had five affairs that I can count, and other encounters with prostitutes.

His words were empty - I would find out about an ow, then he'd act remorseful, say all the right things but none of it meant anything. He continued right in his path. He was angry, bitter, felt like he deserved whatever he wanted in life. My job was to stay at home, service him, and put up with his junk.

When I said enough, moved out, went on with my life, continued and strengthened my relationship with the Lord, that was when God was able to work. I had to get out of the way. I always softened his consequences. I made life easy - although I would nag, complain, get angry or whatever, that was the end of the consequences.

I knew that was not what God wanted for me. God's timing is perfect. I began to ask God to just protect me and make a way. God responded by providing a place to live, a raise at work, my therapist gave me an excellent recommendation for my daughter and it was within my price range. All those things enabled me to move out and allow my husband to live his sinful life.

My husband lived 'in the world'. He was not saved, not redeemed by the blood of the Lamb. It's amazing what God can do when someone asks him to. My husband, on his own accord, fell to his knees one night and asked the Lord to forgive him and help him. This is the same husband who vehemently denied ever needing God.

God has worked amazing things. I know it's a short time since all the things have occurred however I see the differences. You know the verse that says you can know the tree by the 'fruit' it bears. Well, the fruit is different.

It's also been a very amazing lesson to me along the way. I learned that I was truly codependent and had placed my husband in an idolatry place. God wanted that place in my life. He is a jealous God. I've also learned that forgiveness was not in my vocabulary. Oh, I'd say the words okay but the fruit of my life was not forgiveness but bitterness, resentment, strife, and just plain ugliness. My heart was full of anger, hate, discord and only Jesus has made it whole.

I have many days where I worry about the ow, or maybe a new one. Then I turn that over to God knowing that He will make a way for me - regardless of my husband. My faith is no longer in my husband - it's in the Lord.

Tomorrow, if my husband were to return to his ow, or another one, I would be upset and surely saddened. However, I know that God wouldn't leave me - he wouldn't let me down in any way. That is an awesome truth to hold on to.

One of the things I had the hardest time with was learning to bless those who cursed me. Jesus says to do that. I found myself praying for his ow. I found myself praying for her own salvation. Same with my husband - I prayed for God to bless him. Funny how God thinks....I thought God would bless him in a new life - not the one with me. God's blessings only came to my husband once he accepted the Lord.

I hope all this rambling isn't too confusing. It really just is amazing to me that when I look back, I can see all the plans God had - things I couldn't figure out, now I see it. I also see an amazing God who has been working in both of our lives to restore a marriage that was broken. Restoration is not easy either. It takes both parties willing to submit to the Lord first and then to each other.

I have you in my prayers.