Hi there

For the past 5 months me and my W have been having problems. The worst for me is feeling like a Yo Yo. One day she wants to give up completely and a few days later she cries and says she doesn't want to loose me.

I have just relocated to a place about 1000 km away from where my W lives. We had a very good weekend before I left with her indicating that she wants to work on the M again. Two days later she tells me over the phone that she is afraid that she misled me and that she's completely confused. She was prepared to relocate with me within a month or two but now she's applying for a new job in the same city where she lives.

The one day I feel that God is answering my prayers and the next day the bottom drops out of my world again.

How do one handle this?
How do I know what God wants from me?
How do I know that its God's will that I get reconciled with my W?

I'm lost at the moment and do not know how to go on with this. (And to keep my faith alive!!)


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GWK

GWK,

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">The one day I feel that God is answering my prayers and the next day the bottom drops out of my world again.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">That's the infamous rollercoaster ride we're all all to familiar with.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">How do one handle this?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Everyone has their own tricks and devices. Me, I tried to remembered that God only wants the best for me. So, He was either going going to do a work in my W's life to bring her to a point where she would choose to come back and reconcile. Or she was going to not come back and God would heal me and provide me with a woman that I would enjoy growing old with.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">How do I know what God wants from me?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">God wants you to be consistant in your actions toward your W showing genuine love and steadfast commitment to Him first and your W second.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">How do I know that its God's will that I get reconciled with my W?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">God's word is plain about divorce: He hates it. So His will is to reconcile. However, he never goes against our free will even though he could.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I'm lost at the moment and do not know how to go on with this. (And to keep my faith alive!!)</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Just be steady and consistant.

Bless you.

S&C

Hi S&C

Thanx for the advise.
I know that I need to be S&C to the path that God chose for me. The problem is to put Him first and not to think about me and my W first before Him.

I've had a rough weekend alone with no friends or family to support me, but in the end I started reading a book by Jill Brescoe, I think, about keeping ones faith alive. The whole weekend I dreaded today (valentines day) because it would be the first one in six years without my W.

I'm also battling against my own sinful nature. When I get lonely I want to go out and meet women to have sex with. But it's not the sex I need, but the companionship I crave.

I also miss my children!!!!! I will only see them again on Friday when I have to travel 1000 km(about 600 miles) to go and see them.

But, I know I have to work on my head and God will fix my heart.


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Keep the faith alive!!!

H, me (38), W (29)
DS (5), DD (2)
Seperated (7/02/05)