Saw H today and he told me again that he would not be in contact with OW. I have been reading the book and I felt so much and needed to talk to him. So I called his mom's and he is not there. I know in my heart he is with her and now I feel shot down. All the things I wanted to tell him now don't even feel right. How can I ever forgive when he continues to do this and hurt me so deeply. How can I pray for him with a clean heart when he keeps doing this to us. I prayed and told God I was angry and hurt and asked him to help me...I just feel so lost. I am losing faith in my marriage. <P>I could really use some prayers right now.<P>Stac<P>------------------<BR>Stac<BR>AKA/Jaded Heart<BR>~~~~~~~~~~~<BR> <A HREF="http://reflect.to/journeys" TARGET=_blank>http://reflect.to/journeys</A>

Dear Father in Heaven, I lift up confusedone to You right now, and ask that You comfort her during this trial. Pour out your love on her, and give her the peace that passes all understanding. Help her to get through this night, Lord. Cleanse her heart Lord, change any feelings of unforgiveness, fear, untrust, despair, and pain to joy, love, trust and faith in You, and forgiveness. Envelop her in Your divine love, Dear God. Speak to her husband's heart, reveal his sin to him. Deliver him from any evil spirits that are attacking him. In Jesus Name I pray, AMEN.

Confused,<P>One of the wonders of the way God moves is to have someone there to pray with you. Did you notice that AW was up to support you last night? God is so good. Of course you didn't have to be aware of it for the power of prayer to take place and thats is the wonder.<P>The only thing that can make us ineffective in our prayers is if we lose our focus. The devil can do nothing but make us ineffective. So realize that that is his approach, be on the look out for his web of fear and deceit. Remember God is able!<P>Lord today give this woman faith to move mountains. Assist her to keep her eyes on You alone and off of circumstances which may or may not come to pass. Release her from the need to control in any way and help her to know You can handle anything that comes her way. You have forgiven us unconditionally and you expect us to forgive in like manner. Help all of us Father to love as You love, completely and uncondiditonally. Encourage this sister and build up her faith in You. Give her a sighting of You today to bless her heart. IJN<P>------------------<BR>"Perfect love casts out fear" I John 4:18

ConfusedOne, <BR>I copied this out of a daily devotion I received via email:<P>"Yes, as Timothy warned, "deceitful spirits and doctrines of<BR>demons" are real. But as you daily embrace Christ and His truth,<BR>you will be able to recognize Satan's lies and choose the truth.<P>Thank You, Jesus, for being the way, the truth, and the life. I<BR>know You are my weapon for overcoming the evil one."<P>The Lord will calm your fears. Trust in Him, and give your marriage to him to take care of. I know its hard, really really hard, to let go and let God. I struggle with that every single day. It will be worth it though. <P>Love and hugs to you,<P>AW <BR>

i am working soooo hard to put my hope and trust and faith in God and His promises and NOT in my h or our marriage or even my own hopes. look up this verse jer. 17:7-8<BR>it talks about how we will be if we put our confidence in GOD....Col.2:10 says that we find our completeness in HIM. this is precisly the biggest lesson i know God is teaching me in this tormenting trial. on good days i can even thank God for teaching me this. my h does not belong on the throne: God does. i have the habit of sticking my h where God belongs. i need to be clinging to my heavenly Father and trusting Him to carry me, guide me, provide for me, fulfill me, and satisfy me, REGARDLESS of what my h does. this is soooooo hard for me to learn. <BR> without this horror it is very easy to trust the Lord for what He does, and not for who He is. to trust Him regardless of our situation is truly a valuable lesson, learned ONLY through suffering. yuk. Heb.10-11 outlines for us God's servants who persevered in waiting. so we are all in good company. <BR>

Ladies,<P>I can not stress enough what the power of prayer can do. Not so much to bring back your husbands (yet of course we desire this and hope for this) but to help you change your perspective and keep you strong. I have been going through this whole thing for almost 5 years. It is hurtful and debilitating. <BR>After Christmas God really moved me to start praying. I was sick of obsessing about the whole thing. It has taken three weeks to get to the place where I am now but boy does it feel good. I feel good about myself, I feel closer to God, I feel more confident and my hope is in God not based on what my husband is or is not doing. And to top it off we had such a great talk last weekend. I don't know where it will lead but the best part is feeling so much better and feeling like I am no longer in the middle of a storm but resting in Jesus arms looking out at the storm.<BR>I pray everyday twice usually the spiritual warfare prayer I posted here a couple of days ago. Then I pray the praise one I also posted last weekend. I praise God and praise Him for His answers as if they are already fact. I fast once a week and pray with a group for all our marriages and pray also for your marriages. It is amazing the changes God is making in me. I want to stay in this place for ever. Everyday I say "Lord, I hear your knock , I open the door and invite you into my life. I pray for Him to increase my faith daily and to help my unbelief. I ask him to show me where I need to change. And then throughout the day whenever I am walking to waiting for something I praise my Lord. Whether this changes anything about my husband coming home or not it is changing me for the better. I had to really stick with it the first two weeks. I had to purposely do it but now it is just natural. I love praying for others and their marriages. I am going to school full time right now and I don't feel I'm doing much in service for God until now. Praying is one of the greatest services you can offer to God. God lives in the praises of his people. <BR>Last weekend my husband saw a changed me. He just doesn't fully understand what has led to the chnage. I also go to the search engines and put in prayer and go to these internet sites where you can ask for prayer. Prayer for my husband and family is posted at this point all over the world. At first I wondered if I was hounding God but then I remembered the verses in Luke 18:1-8 about the widow that would not give up asking for justise. So I hound away. I also of course use the prayers from the Power of a praying wife. These are so uplifting for me. <BR>I pray for all of us. I'm thankful for AW for putting the prayer list of us all together. <BR>I can not begin to express the difference prayer and praying diligently has made in me and my life.<P>Dear Father, I ask that you draw all these praying wives deeper into prayer and relationship with you. We lift up our husbands to you. For those that need saving we ask that you draw them to you. For those that have backslid, we ask that You, Jesus, go and get them. I ask that you comfort each woman here. I ask that you sever all ties with the ow's and light the fires of desires in the husbands for the wives of their youth. I pray that you rebuild marriages in your image for marriage. Father we pray with confidence that you hear our prayers and that you have already answered. Increase our faith today and help our unbelief. God we pray in love for you. We pray for your Glory be shown to the world in the restoration of these marriages and we pray this all in your will. Amen.<P>

Thank you all so much. I went to bed and prayed and prayed and I slept too well after. (I slept throught the alarm!) <P>I am feeling so much better today. I did talk to H and prayed before he showed up for God to give me the words to use with him. I stayed calm the whole time. I Know God is with me!<P><P>------------------<BR>Stac<BR>AKA/Jaded Heart<BR>~~~~~~~~~~~<BR> <A HREF="http://reflect.to/journeys" TARGET=_blank>http://reflect.to/journeys</A>

confusedone - Praise the Lord! You're right, God IS with you. We're praying for you....<P>HW - Oh, what a beautiful prayer! Another one for me to print off and keep. I so enjoy reading your prayers, and praying them with you. Thanks so much for being here.