Formally known as JJM.<BR>Whoever saw my last post (last week) I was ready to leave H we had settled it, OVER!<BR> But As we all know so well things can change very quickly. We did some heavy talking and I came to realize allot. I wanted H to be this certain way, and even though what he did was awfull I in return was being awfull. I kept batteling with the scripture in the bible about if your S cheats you may leave the marriage without being deemed a sinner. That was my excuse to run! And the thought of staying to put myself on the line for a possible hurt again was unthinkable. But Hey is that not what true love is letting go 100%. And I was reminded of It also says in the Bible to forgive 70x7.<BR>So I have let go ( not completley but allot) and begun to give my H the Love in return that he has been showing me the last month. And yes he does deserve it. That just a week ago would have been impossible for me to say.<BR> So through this all I have been blessed with a strength that I never knew I could even have Just wanted to share this with you all and thank you for all your support. I am sure I will need it again, and again. But for right now I feel good, ANd that in itself was only a dream 2 weeks ago.

Good for you. How wonderful!!!!!! Nancy

Name changes can be a great thing. Mine helped me keep my attitude in check(even though I let it slide a bit). My husbands new name gave him a newer and more singal minded focus. I hope yours does as much good for you as ours has done for us.<P>------------------<BR>Love and Prayers<BR>Nicole<BR>

{{{{{{{{{{<B>*SecretuvmyStrength*</B>}}}}}}}}}}<P>Strength comes from the most unexpected places... right now from the words of your H!<P>Bless you bountifully...<BR>Forgiveness heals... peace mends... love reunites.<P>Prayers to you for more strength... as times get tough again... <P>Jim

What wonderful news! I'm very happy for you.<P>Lori

THank you Mental and Lotsva.<BR> NSR: You are very right it is amazing that at times you can gain strength from the last place you ever thought you would find it. The person that caused all this pain. Thank you for all your prayers. Mine will also be with you.!!!<BR> Patient Love:Thank you for your post and I agree with you something as simple as a name can change everything. My thoughts are with you ( and prayers) From reading your posts you seem to be an increadible woman. And now that I have strength I will pray that GOd only gives me an Ounce of the patients you have. THANK YOU ALL!!!!!!!!<P>------------------<BR>God is our refuge and STRENGTH,<BR>A very Present help in trouble.<BR>Psalm 46:1<BR>I sought the Lord and he heard me, <BR>and delivered me from all my fears.<BR>Psalms 34:4<P>

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