Hello all,<P>As I have indicated in the above title our sister in the Lord TNT needs some prayers right now. The enemy has infiltrated her house today and it is going to take the Lord to fix this one up.<P>I ask that you lift her and her husband up in prayer and all the complicated situations around them.<P>She needs the Lord to give her all the strength he has to offer.<P>Thanks in advance for all your prayers and much love to you all.<P>------------------<BR><B>God bless you and all of us. We are all going to make it, all of us! With God on our side we can't loose. What God has joined together let no man put asunder. <P>Samantha</B>

Father,<BR>I lift up TNT to You. Your grace is sufficient for us and we thank You for that great gift. Jesus, Your blood covers all forever. Amazing. I pray Lord that you will touch TNT in just the manner that she needs. Touch her husband and bring him closer yet to You and help TNT rest and wait for and in You. Show her Your way and path for her. Increase her thirst for You and her faith today. Help any unbelief in her. In Jesus name I pray.

Father, Your promises to us are great and mighty to break down strongholds. There is a stronghold in TNT's home. We ask that You would bind the enemy and release the power of Your Holy spirit to indwell this family. <P>You have said Lord You are Sufficient and are in control of everything that enters our lives. So we look to You to be the strength, wisdom and courage that this woman needs. Bless her with an undeniable sense of Your presence and bring peace and order to the chaos that has invaded her life. We look to You alone Father for deliverance. IJN<P>------------------<BR>"Perfect love casts out fear" I John 4:18

Dear Father in Heaven, I lift up TNT to you right now, asking that the Holy Spirit fill her home, and convict her husband, drawing him nearer to you. Thank you Lord for working in this family, I pray that there will be a glorious victory over the enemy in this home. Lord, we ask in Jesus Name for the powers of the enemy be bound. Lord, cast Satan out of their lives, and their home. Touch TNT and her husband, giving TNT the strength she needs, and great peace. Show her Lord, what it is you want her to do. Give her Your wisdom Lord. IJN AMEN

Thank you for your prayers.<P>Things are not great at home, that is for sure. <P>I've been experiencing triggers lately, and my supression of my feelings are coming out in dreams. As you know, my husband does not believe I have a right to my feelings. If I express my feelings - he gets very angry. If I express my opinions, he gets very angry. As long as I act like furniture (no opinion, no feelings - just there) then he is happy.<P>Things got bad yesterday, because I had another one of those dreams, and I told him that I think they are caused because I have been seeing triggers of OW lately, and that it wasn't anything he directly caused - but regardless, I have feelings that I need to deal with. He just hates the fact that I have trouble with an infidelity that he claims was only an "almost mistake".<P>It is not going well at home. Things escalate too easily. SD didn't come home Sat night, and came home very late last night. She refused to get up for school again today. Everything feels so compounded.<P>H is telling me to move out. It just isn't going well.<P>So, thank you so much for your prayers, and I appreciate your continued prayers.<P>TNT

Heavenly Father, I lift up TNT again to you today, asking that you send her your peace that passes all understanding. Please stop the enemy from attacking her, and her family. Bring serenity back into this family. Lord, please speak to TNT's husband's heart, convicting him of his words to her. Show him how much TNT loves him, as well as how much You love him. Give TNT the strength and faith she needs to stay calm and focused on you during this stressful trial. Hold her in your arms and comfort her Lord. In Jesus Name I pray, AMEN. <P>TNT, I've been having strange dreams the last couple of nights also about my H and his affair. The enemy must be after me again, because things have been okay. I feel so bad about the agony you must be going through, I'll keep praying for you today TNT. <P>Love and {{{{{TNT}}}}}}<BR>MTAW

I think those dreams are a result of repressing feelings. I just don't know how you are supposed to stuff them....<P>Aren't feelings a result of what I believe? - and I guess I am believing that this relationship with OW and H was more than my husband ever admitted. Here we go on the merry go round. It doesn't matter what he admits and what he doesn't admit, what matters is that I need some time to process the feelings. <P>He feels like I shouldn't have any feelings at all, because it was only an "almost mistake". From his perspective, from what I have gathered from all of his outbursts and rationalizations for outbursts, that, - my feelings are based on lies that I believe. <P>Translation: He didn't have an affair, and he deserves a pat on the back for not having an affair, and that I should be pleased with my husband, not "mourning" the loss of something. <P>I have decided to move PAST this stuff, so many times. Do I believe that he had an "almost mistake"? No. No, I believe that this was much more than an "almost mistake". I truly do. Regardless, I am willing to deal with that, I am willing to move on without a complete understanding between my husband, I'm tired of "beating a dead horse". I have resolved that he will never admit more than that, I am not demanding to hear more than an "almost mistake". <P>But I still have FEELINGS! Uggh! I am doing everything I can to not make him suffer because of those feelings. I am stuffing them to death. I can't help that they come out in a dream. I am willing to not bring the subject up. In fact, I have been doing just that, "not bringing the subject up." <P>But, OW and I made eye contact on Fri. I saw my husband cuddling on the couch with his daughter. Those are triggers. I didn't even talk to him about those triggers. I just stuffed them, like I have been doing for months. And they come out in a dream.<P>In the mean time, all this garbage with the X wife and their kids, (X-wife is leaving CA on Sat to move here - looks like she is going to be living a stone's throw from here.) It just feels to me that this situation is so compounded.<P>He blew up again this morning. He said that he is at the end of his rope. That he is moving to survival mode. Just like he did when he left me in CA. He is hateful, and mean right now. He is justifying everything he says, I am not reacting, I am not doing anything. He is hollering at everyone. <P>He is acting like a man who is currently having an affair, and justifying it. This is how he is acting - just like I hear from everyone on the board, that is dealing with someone in a current affair.<P>Have I accused him of that? No. Do I think it is a possibility? Yes, it is a possibility. <P>All I know, is that the way he is acting, he might be gone today. Or he may not be. Who knows. He left before - and he wasn't in his right mind before when he left. He claims he is at that point again. <P>I am so frustrated. I really appreciate all the prayers.<P>TNT

Well, he came home last night. We didn't have much interaction because I didn't get home until 8:00 pm, and by that time he was on the couch.<P>He had been making a list up - written on a napkin of the pros and cons of being married to me. He wanted to share it with me, but after he started in on the first line - he started getting angry and blowing up.<P>I told him that I am willing to discuss with him, but I needed a "time out", because I can see this is going to be non-productive. He said, "I think you are better at controlling yourself than I am, you are better at time outs." So I told him that I would discuss, but not tonight.<P>After a while he called me to the couch and asked for one kiss. I said, sure - it's not that I don't love you, I do. I want to reassure you that I love you. <P>Then this morning - he was angry again, and I didn't say much to him. He hasn't called to holler at me, so I guess things are going a little better.<P>No conversation with the SD, body language shows she is very hostile, and making Dad feel guilty that he is still here.<P>Thanks for all your prayers.<BR>TNT