AW,<BR>I just got online-I have been staying at a girlfriend's because I've been so down.I haven't been sleeping well- wake up in the middle of the night. Last night I felt the enemy trying to take away my"sound mind", and the only way I could get back to sleep was to sing praise songs in my head and then pray and pray for the women on this forum.It was just what God wanted me to do and I slept for two more very needed hours.<P>I want you to know that I am praying for you in this new dreaded situation.<P>AW,<BR>God will work it out for your good.<P>Love,<BR>Jn<P>

Aw,<BR>I love the strenght, wisdom, faith, and love you share with us during your time of trial. I'm praying. Hugs to you,<BR>Carol

Brown and JoyNicole, thank you for your kind words. I don't feel like I have any strength though, I feel wore out. I am leaving it all up to God to handle because I can't handle any of it anymore. He is now leaving on Sunday. Now they are saying he will be gone for two weeks, then home for two weeks then gone again. I am concerned about the fact that he is scheduled to attend the Batterer's Intervention sessions starting next week Tuesday. I have decided not to say or do anything about this, except give it to God to handle, because this too is something that I am too distraught over to handle. <P>I know I am going to cry my heart out Sunday. I don't want him to go! But, as his wife, I have to respectfully submit to his decision, in the manner the Lord expects me to. I've got to stop the racing thoughts of "what if", and let it go, but I keep reaching for something to hang on to. <P>You all are so special to me. I wish you were right here so I could hug you. How's this {{{{{{{BROWN}}}}}}} {{{{{{{{JOYNICOLE}}}}}}}}} <BR>You are in my prayers.<BR>AW