Aw,<BR>You have been on my mind a lot today, maybe has something to do with the drinking my husband and son have been doing, I don't know. Just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and praying for you.<BR>God's Blessings and Love to you,<BR>Carol

Brown, thank you so much for asking. I'm afraid I am not doing very well. The stress of my H choosing to go to CA is getting to me. I'm at work so I can't post much right now, but I will fill you all in as soon as I get a chance. I'm trying so hard to stay focused on Jesus right now......<P>

Aw,<BR>I do understand how hard it is on you with your husband wanting to go to California. It's just like my husband telling me that he's coming home in March and then tells me in April he's not sure that's what he wants. Then tells me he's confussed. He tells his mom that his girlfriend makes him happy he thinks. To leave your family for this I don't understand I know the answers are always in Gods time and I know he has a plan but this trial is very hard. I have to face these divorce papers again in 10days I just pray God will show me what he wants me to do.<BR>Carol

Quick update: We had counseling session w/Steve Harley yesterday. Supposed to be joint, but Steve asked to speak to David alone for most of the session. I informed Steve that David was going to CA, Steve asked me how I felt about that, and I told him I was upset about it and don't want him to go. He asked David how he thought I felt about it, and he told Steve he thought I was ok with him going because I wasn't begging him to stay and was helping him get things ready for him to leave. Right after that he asked to speak to David alone. I don't know what they discussed, David doesn't tell me.<BR>Steve did tell me that I have been doing the right thing, David's EN are being met by me, but it is clear David does not meet mine. He told me to tell David how leaving makes me feel, and then to distance myself emotionally from him. This is going to be very hard for me. I imagine I will be on here full time after he leaves Sun.<P>David got a letter from the Women's Shelter that his counseling sessions start next Tues. May 2. I don't know what he's going to do about this. David is also supposed to be in court on May 9 regarding the assault, and again on May 17 on the divorce stuff. All of this is very confusing to me.<P>

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>He told me to tell David how leaving makes me feel, and then to distance myself emotionally from him. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Wow, that is really interesting! Did he clarify that any? What that was supposed to look like? Is he saying no contact for the time David is gone or what? Coldness when he calls? Seems contrary to the Word in some ways, but then again, the Lord does cease fellowship with us when we are not in His will, thus the need to make amends with those we have sinned against, etc.<P>Father, pour Your Spirit on Rootbeer this morning, let her feel Your comfort and peace as she strives to do Your will in her marriage with David. Give her clear examples of what emotional withdrawal looks like so that David feels a loss and an emptiness without her by his side. Let him see how this choice to go to work in California impacts their relationship. Let him sense that in placing his boss over his wife in importance, he has severed some cords of love and others are fraying rapidly. Let him feel the full brunt of responsibility in the court proceedings coming up.<P>Bring him to his knees Father, that he sees his need for You, that he recognizes the gift of his wife that you have blessed him with. Let the drink have no effect in hiding him from those things. Let his room be filled with Your truth that he cannot run away from.<BR>IJN, Amen.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>I imagine I will be on here full time after he leaves Sun.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Interested in being the leader of the new study? Might be helpful to have some direction in addition to focus on the study guide. I am heading off to California on Tuesday for a week (parent's 50th wedding anniversary)but I will grab my mom's puter to keep in touch as I am able.<p>[This message has been edited by SueB (edited April 28, 2000).]

Distancing yourself emotionally is to protect your feelings. Sort of like Plan B in that you are pulling back the blessings of your presence and gifts so that they are not stomped on. How do you feel when he disrespects your efforts? <P>I would only send cold hard factual notes, not lovey-dovey notes of appreciation. Keep him informed of the day-to-day functions of the home and family, any crises that arise, but stop with the free expression of desperate love. Those only make you look overly dependent and could keep him from having to grow. I think that may be what Steve is working on.<P>What is it about what David does for you that has you so torn up about his going back and forth to CA every few weeks? Can your ego survive without his dependency on you? Or are you more dependent on him? For what?<P>I hope you can answer these questions for yourself even if you do not post the answers.<P>------------------<BR>A true friend is one who not only is willing to love us the way we are, but is able to leave us better than he found us.

Hi ladies. I'm not sure exactly what Dr. Harley meant by distancing but he did say that I should tell David that I am NOT ok with his decision to leave, and for my own protection (emotionally) I must distance myself from him. I am also to say that that does not mean I don't care because I do care, but have to protect myself from any more hurt. This is going to be very, very difficult for me. I have been a loving, caring wife to him for over 15 years. Since he considers "acts of service" showing love, I guess I need to stop doing anything for him, right? Or, should I just stop saying I love you, etc?<P>SueB, thank you for your prayer, when I read it I felt the Holy Spirit come over me. It's a feeling that I can't explain, but it really touched me. I don't know what to pray myself so I'm glad you did for me. I just keep praying for the Lord to use these circumstances to reach him, and to alleviate the pain in my heart. And, I would be happy to lead the Study Guide next week! It will give me something beneficial to look forward to every day. <P>Karenna, I think you're right about distancing is to protect my emotions. When I am quiet and don't talk to him, if he is sober he wants to know what's bothering me. The thing that has me so upset about this is when we reunited, one of his promises to me was no more out of town work. Last summer he worked out of town for about 6 weeks. This was while he was in his affair full-blown. I suspect that she stayed with him out of town, as her husband mentioned this to me. David denies it, but he has not exactly been truthful about anything related to his affair, other than admitting he did it. I cannot live through another affair. Emotionally it will destroy me. I know how he is when he is drunk. He does and says things he knows are wrong, like pick up women in bars and sleep with them. Another promise he made me before moving home was no more bars. <P>I have asked myself a million times what it is about David that keeps me from leaving him, and keeps me loving him, after all the hurt. All I can come up with is the memory of the years when he was sober, and the happiness, love and commitment we had then. His return to drinking has all but destroyed everything. <P>I believe that God chose me to be his wife. I haven't figured out why yet, but continue to live by faith in Him that He has a purpose for all of this. <P>Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for your unending love for us, for sacrificing your only Son to pay the price of our sins. Lord, we can never repay this to you, but can offer You our devotion, love and faith in You. I praise You Lord for these caring, faithful praying wives on this forum. Thank You Father for allowing me the opportunity to be a part of this group. Thank You Father for directing Steve Harley to set up this Forum. It has blessed so many already. I pray for each of the wives represented here, Lord, for your guidance and wisdom in all they do. Help us Father to carry out Your will, and to leave our own will aside. Show us Father the paths we are to take, guiding us each step of the way. Our praises are all for You, all glory to You. In Jesus' name we ask these things, AMEN.

AW,<BR>Sorry to see this develop. But when I saw all the court dates down the first thing that came to mind was I see God working. I can't even explain what I mean or what I think might happen. I think distancing emotionally means being there, but now acting loving toward him. It is a tough one to pin down. I guess maybe you don't do the extra things that you might otherwise do or act affectionate to him. You know the answer. Seek God and ask God to guide you, That is always the bottom line.Another option is to call and leave Steve a message asking for clarification. Maybe he would even leave you an email if he was booked.. Aw I am going to pray for you and post it here in a bit. I have to pick my little one from dance. We are with you. Hey Sue the idea of Aw being the group leader for the study sounds like a God ordained appointment. He uses all things for good.

Father,I lift AW up into Your arms. Hold her close to You this coming weekend. Keep whispering in her ear, "I know what I am doing, trust me!" You do Lord, have everyhting in control, but Lord, sometimes it is so hard to let go. Help AW to let go. But in doing so , she knows deep in her heart that You are still holding on. Jesus, touch David and let him receive AW' words with a new heart, softened by you. Lord, bring Jesus into his heart. Light the fire of desire in David's heart for Jesus Christ, his Lord. Holy Spirit give Davis eyes to see and ears to hear Your calling to him, calling his out of the darkness. Lord, give him a heart that can recieve the message of Jesus. Lord, we know this is in Your will, and we know that You love David. Now, please give AW strength to trust You and to ket go into Your hands. Draw her to You. And in letting go let her fall into Your arms and rest in You. Lord, create a new day for them by your design. Thank You Jesus for Your presence in this marriage and situation. You are working, and one day we will see the results. One day we will just turn around and there it will be. Lord, almighty, You are our Rock, our hope, our deliverer and our God. Teach us to KNOW that You are indeed God! Amen<P>I know you read the Psalms AW, but this might be a good weekend to really live in them. Praise the Lord, through your pain and seek Your loving, compassionate, and gracefilling God.

hw - what a beautiful prayer. I cannot express in words how much your prayers and support mean to me. Your heartfelt prayer brought me to tears. You are so gifted with faith. Please rub some off on me.<P>God is moving here. I don't understand the meaning of all this, but I know He is working on David, and me. I KNOW God put us back together; there is a reason for all of this. I pray that a glimpse of what is going on will be given to me. All of my Hope and Faith is in God right now. <P>God does not want my H to perish. There is a purpose for the Lord's good for his life. When H was 18, he was in a terrible auto accident (I may have already talked about this, forgive me), hit head on at a high rate of speed by a semi truck. H was drunk. His car was demolished. No one should have survived, the impact of the crash was so severe that the doors were gone, along with most of one side. David walked away from this accident with only bruises and a slight back injury. Only God could have spared him, and He did. Whenever H talks of this, he says that the Good Lord saved his life, and that he and the "man upstairs" have an understanding. Given the reality of this accident, why does David continue to reject God's calling him? He believes God is real, but still runs from Him. <P>I will take your advice hw, and read the Psalms. <P>I was wondering, though, where is Redding, CA? That is where he is going for this job. Does anyone know what its like? <P>Thank you all for your love, encouragement and prayers. I'm sure I'll be posting more this weekend!

Was raised in California Rootbeer, Redding isn't any paradise by any means. Probably been 20 years since I have been through there but even if it has grown, it still isn't any bubbling metropolis. I wonder if he will be working there during the summer. It was so hot there that we kind of thought that maybe that was what hell was like, dry, arid, very stifling!<P>Glad you are going to be our study leader. Keep us on track!

<B>PRAISE GOD!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!</B><BR>He's not leaving Sunday! H called a little bit ago and told me since he HAD to be home by Mother's Day (I told him I could not spend Mother's Day alone) they decided to send someone else, so David won't have to go until they come back. Praise You Jesus, Oh, thank You Lord, You are almighty, my savior, my rock, my fortress, my life! <P>I don't have the whole story yet, but I have this feeling that this has more to do with the courts than Mother's Day.<P>Love, {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}, and prayers,<BR>AW<P>Update: H came home drunk and angry. Said his boss and co-workers ridiculed him for saying he had to be home for Mother's Day. He started his yelling and berating of me, so I closed my eyes, pleaded the blood of Jesus over him, prayed for Jesus to be with me. I told him to please stop yelling at me. He yelled "I'm not yelling at you!!! I'm p***** off!!!" I closed my eyes, rebuked Satan, prayed for help. He stopped yelling, and <I>apologized for yelling at me</I>. Praise God Praise God Praise God! <BR>Lord, thank you for being right next to me through this. Thank You Lord for intervening. Help me Father to stay out of Your way while You work a miracle in my Husband's life, You are truly The Miracle Worker. In Jesus' precious name, AMEN.<BR><p>[This message has been edited by Alcoholic's Wife (edited April 28, 2000).]

AW,<BR>Praise the Lord indeed!!! I'm sorry to hear that he took it out on you, but God is great and stopped it. From what you shared above, I'd say that God certainly has His hooks in him. He is reeling Him in according to His way! Which means we can trust it! He is God, who besides our Lord is God! He knows and sees all, He sees you and He sees David.Have a blessed day tomorrow and Mother's Day!!!!!!!

Praise God indeed! David chose his boss over you in his decision to go to California despite what you felt. Now God has touched him and he set a line to his boss, etc. about waiting until after Mother's Day, putting you first instead of his job! Getting lots of flack for it. <P>I sure hope you see this as a sacrifice of love from him, an act of service showing love. Remember men don't know how to do this touchy feely stuff very well, and for many alcoholics, the drinking covers the need to feel. I would guess that David will be very surprised to hear that he is not meeting your emotional needs. As Harley said, you are meeting his...<P>Father, I pray that this next time with Harley will be insightful and productive for both David and Rootbeer, that Your hand is on both of them to listen with their hearts and hear what the other has to say. As You teach Your daughter Your precepts and as she takes each step to relinguish her husband to You, let her experience Your strength and peace, let her see with Your eyes and hear Your gentle whisper. Let her do nothing and wait until she is absolutely sure that it is Your will and directions that she hears. Let her be like Moses whom You told go this way and he went, and go that way and he obeyed. Let her not store up manna for tomorrows, but let each day be enough for her. <P>Let the internal barometer that she previously used to check the temperature of David's emotions and moods now be turned toward You and let the same quick ability to assess the situation and to adjust accordingly only respond to Your voice. <P>Let her be bold as Your daughter shares the impact of David's decision to go to California and show her through Your Word how You isolated and pulled away from those You loved, so that they floundered without you by their side. Let Your Word from Psalm 73:25 fill Rootbeer to the top and beyond. "Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside Thee." <P>How often Father, have you admonished us for being luke warm, or wishy washy, like the man who sees himself in the mirror and then forgets what he looks like after walking away from it. Let us shine in Your light, sticking to the narrow path that you set before us, like the beam of a flashlight on a dark moonless night. Teach us how to glorify You with our actions and words. <P>Let Your will become our will so that we may proclaim with others that "Thou has given us our heart's desire, and has not withholden the request of our lips." Psalm 21:2. Let us remain in Your presence for there You have said is where our fullness of joy lies. Let us not withhold our tears or deny our hurts, but help us to rejoice in hurt, for there You have said: "They that sow in tears shall reap in joy." Psalm 126:5 <P>"The Lord is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup; Thou maintainest my lot." Psalm 16:5. Let Your spirit remind each of us that You are enough for us and the blessing of our husbands are extra gifts that You have provided. Clear our minds Father, that only thoughts of You fills our minds today, Your goodness, Your glory, Your mercy and Your strength, Your unfailing love, and steadfastness. Let us embrace hardship with the same enthusiasm as blessings, with anticipation and excitement to see what character quality You will produce in us next. <P>Inhabit the praises of Your people Lord, let this day bring Your glory, IJN, Amen.

Thank you SueB for your great prayer! Wow, how insightful! I'm praying incessantly for the Lord to keep me focused upon him, and to guide my every word and thought. I hear those words "give him to me to handle" in my heart over and over. Thank You Lord.<P>I like this part of your prayer <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Your spirit remind each of us that <B>You are enough for us and the blessing of our husbands are extra gifts that You have provided</B>. Clear our minds Father, that only thoughts of You fills our minds today<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Each day when I pray in the morning I tell God thank you for my H, and thank Him for allowing me the chance to work on our marriage. I must continue to learn that David is God's child, and see him that way. And, like any other good Father, he must discipline him. I have to stay out of the way, keep my mouth shut even though through all the trials my H is hatefully blaming me for all his problems. So many of you here, as well as those in my prayer group at church, have said the words "Don't give up" many times; to me that is from God telling me not to give up. I truly felt it was a message from Him that day in church that my bible opened to Psalm 62:5 (which was highlighted) "My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him." <BR> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Let her do nothing and wait until she is absolutely sure that it is Your will and directions that she hears.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>I have had many, many mixed thoughts about calling the prosecutor, telling him that David is not keeping up his end of the bargain. I have begun praying that if the Prosecutor needs to know of David's lack of attention to his counseling session, let it come from someone else. Help me Father to stay out of it! <P>Thank you again for praying for me. Your thoughts and prayers are soo greatly appreciated. What would we do without your insight and knowledge of the word on this forum! You are fantastic SueB.

Thanks for the compliment, but if you were here, you would see a big knowing smile, partially in awe at surviving (so far)the school of hard knocks with my Lord as the instructor. When one has been gifted with a strong will, the quality of taming it and learning discernment to become self- controlled is quite a challenge and I have been knocked off my horse so many times. <P>I can relate to dogs who attack a porcupine, get quilled and have to undergo the painful process of having the quills removed only to go back and attempt to show that porcupine a thing or two a few days later, a little more vicious and direct in the attack; and wind up with a mouthful of quills this time. You usually end up putting the dog down because you can't teach them to not attack porcupines, but our incredible God just keeps taking my quills out, gently restores me and then with a gleaming smirk in His eye, says okay hon, try again...and finally I get tired of getting quilled and relinguish and say okay, let's do it Your way, Dad....<P>I have been through it so many times that now I immediately know that it is learning time for me again and I submit far faster than in the past. I wouldn't wish my trials on anyone, but at the same time, I have learned so much from Him and am so in awe of His mercy and grace, that I almost desire everyone to go through it so they can see the glory of it all. <P>When you share your pain AW, man I have walked it and I sometimes fear that I come across as not empathetic or feeling to you, because the answer now comes so simple in some ways...He is God, He is the boss, things go as He wills, it is better for me to change my will to His will, etc....what I am learning these past few months is a refining of me towards that empathetic person, first in dealing with my husband who is very emotional and hopefully to all of you as you share your trials. <P>The only thing that rings true 100% of the time is His Word, so that is where we need to seek His answers. The more we read and memorize the Word, the more that the Spirit will bring it back to our mind in times of need. <P>I know I am supposed to be in this marriage for my husband's good and for his growth to know God in a far deeper way than he does now. Through this trial, God reveals those areas of my life that continue to need sanding and reshaping towards His character. Everytime I verbalize "that's it, I quit!" I hear that gentle whisper, " And what if I had given up on you...?" I have to respond, "Yeah, Yeah, okay so what am I supposed to do here? Was I this stubborn? (The silence tells me yes...I can feel the smile)For every "yeah, but" that I come up with, a scripture fills the space. So-I am still here, still learning and trying to share with you guys what I learn in case it helps you to not have to step in one of my potholes along the way.<P>What was supposed to be a romantic night ended up the same ole way, he is in bed crying and here I am trying to figure out what I could have done or said differently, that might have had some kind of impact. <P>To be honest as our pearl Lizzie said, is quite a feat. I have to be honest to be true to the Lord, hubby doesn't want to deal with facts or truth because he lives in his emotions, which hardly are based in truths. I want to honor, he wants what he wants...sigh.<P>But I will keep plugging along, the Lord says joy comes in the morning!<P>HW, how did the date go? I have been praying for you and Rootbeer all day as I was driving the Pennsylvannia Turnpike, the Lord kept bringing you two to mind.

Rootbear... I will definatly keep you in mind all of this weekend, and if you see me on icq...hollar <P>"Be still and know that I am God" is the scripture that has come to mind for you.. Rest in that!!!!!<P>------------------<BR>Jesus is the only answer!<BR>His blessings, Cozy

Sue, as the saying goes one step forward and two steps backwards. Thanks for praying and the post above, I needed to hear it.<BR>Actually after a little wrestling with the Lord earlier this evening I am fine. You are so right He is the Boss.<BR>Before our date apparently the ow had called my h. During the conversation she spoke up about feeling his distance to her again and she was upset. So between that and some overwhelming work situations the old depression was wqorkingover time with him. He hardly noticed I was there in many ways. I felt like the date was as our times going out before he moved out last summer. He said he had been looking forward to our date. I asked him to do me a favor, don't talk to the ow before our date. <BR>It is hard because although he wants someone to talk to him about interesting thoughts and concepts I am at a disadvantage. When he is in one of thosse moods it really doesn't matter what I say, it won't be received as anything thrilling. It is almost like why try.<BR>So on wednesday, it is I don't wantto talk to her. On thursday it is how did we get here? ON Friday he called me before he left work just to chat (that hasn't happened in a very long time, to this morning when he could care less that he was with me) I didn't loose my cool and tried to help him chase his demons away. Heck we didn't joke in any sexual way at all, a prime topic between us lately.<BR>But tomorrow is another day. It is hard to tell how the ow reacted when he got off the phone and whether she'll be all upset at him now and how that will effect him. It is hard to know how he will act towards me tomorrow. He is coming for the little one to take her to his office. I am still writing finals and she has a project due also.<BR>I know God is in charge and this in His plan is no big deal, therefore after a little wrestling as I said above I listened to some Christan music as I wrote and I am okay. I hear the same whispers as you Sue, don't give up on him, because I have never given up on you. It humbles me. It is true! I always go back to the last thing I heard God say to me so clearly 5 years ago. "Put me in the middle of your marriage." Yes, Lord that I will do.<BR>Well I finished final two, mostly a few minutes and it is in the middle of the early morning, so I think I'd better go to bed. I've got to write one tomorrow and get mostly through it, and then one more by Thursday. Almost done. I will be a vegetable next weekend.<BR>Thanks again Sue for asking. Goodnight

HW, so your task this morning is to pull back some huh? If he feels chased, then he runs, it sounds like. Do the appreciation/ admiration jazz for his helping daughter and you, give him a wink and a smile and send him out the door. Put the Christian music on and flood your senses with His presence around you as you get this next paper/test done. The time will go by so fast!<P>It sounds like he is experiencing conflict in this thing in that he now feels guilty much as he had conflict with you when she was the object of affection. Now you are the object of affection and in some ways the OW to the OW...now isn't this a great circle? It is a smiling time for we know who prevails and who is victorious for all time. It is that knowledge that gives us strength to have the spark in our eyes and lilt in our steps that makes them wonder what it is that we have got that they don't have...It is that knowledge that helps us to say that we have confidence in the other person to figure out what they need to do and to ask how we can specifically pray for them.<P>God is working here, Your prayers have been clear and concise and God is answering them. The evil one is going to attack but he is floundering, grasping for straws, throwing those darts to your senstive areas. Stand firm my sister! <P>PS 116:3 The cords of death entangled me,<BR> the anguish of the grave* came upon me;<BR> I was overcome by trouble and sorrow.<P> PS 116:4 Then I called on the name of the LORD:<BR> "O LORD, save me!"<P> PS 116:5 The LORD is gracious and righteous;<BR> our God is full of compassion.<P> PS 116:6 The LORD protects the simplehearted;<BR> when I was in great need, he saved me.<P> PS 116:7 Be at rest once more, O my soul,<BR> for the LORD has been good to you.<P> PS 116:8 For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death,<BR> my eyes from tears,<BR> my feet from stumbling,<P> PS 116:9 that I may walk before the LORD<BR> in the land of the living.<P> PS 116:10 I believed; therefore* I said,<BR> "I am greatly afflicted."<P> PS 116:11 And in my dismay I said,<BR> "All men are liars."<P> PS 116:12 How can I repay the LORD<BR> for all his goodness to me?<P> PS 116:13 I will lift up the cup of salvation<BR> and call on the name of the LORD.<P> PS 116:14 I will fulfill my vows to the LORD<BR> in the presence of all his people.<P> PS 116:15 Precious in the sight of the LORD<BR> is the death of his saints.<P> PS 116:16 O LORD, truly I am your servant;<BR> I am your servant, the son of your maidservant*;<BR> you have freed me from my chains.<P> PS 116:17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to you<BR> and call on the name of the LORD.<P> PS 116:18 I will fulfill my vows to the LORD<BR> in the presence of all his people,<P> PS 116:19 in the courts of the house of the LORD--<BR> in your midst, O Jerusalem.<P> Praise the LORD.<P>Thank you Father, for your Word and encouragement, for the victory over the evil one that we may be overcomers until the end of time when we will be reunited with You.<P>Father, let Cindy rejoice this morning and be encouraged by Your Word, let Your peace surround her and Your angels do battle with the evil one while she finishes her paper and continues on this path that You have set her on. Surround her husband and daughter with a hedge of thorns to repel the evil one and let their time be blessed, let the daughter relish this time with her father and strengthen Jack to meet her in such a way, that she glimpses him in a new light, her hero as You are our hero, let her see him as her champion as You are our champion. Let him feel her love in such a way that the emptiness when they part is a darkness and void to him, that any calls from the OW are a shallow and unfulfilled attempt at filling that hole. <P>Draw Jack to You Father, call his name, soften his heart and prepare him for reuniting with his wife. Let him be in awe and wonder at the strength and joy You have given Cindy.<P>We continually lift up Jack in regards to his mind and emoitions Father. Darkeness does not come from You. In the name of Jesus we rebuke the darkness, bind it and throw it away as far as the east is to the west. We know that You warned us in Luke that if a house is swept clean and not filled with the good things, then the demon will return with 7 others and the torture will be worse. We bind these dark things and we plead Father that You fill Jack with the light, that he be given a hunger and thirst for the things of You, that he not be left empty and in danger of worse things. Increase his desire for his wife, let him sense her joy and be in awe of all he walked away from. Let him see her in a new way this morning, let the sparkle in her eye, the lilt of her walk and her smile touch him deeply in the hidden places and work a miracle in his heart.<P>This is Your day Father, let it be one of rest and glory to You. IJN, Amen.

Thanks Sue, I needed that. I am tryimg to write this next paper. About tobegin but checked in after doing some research. Thanks. I know Gosd id working. UInteresting note b0oth my older daughter (away at school) and I had bad dreams last night.Mine were as I was trying to fall asleep. I asked h if he;s had bad dreams and he said yes. It is an attack, and You are right Jesus has already one. I do believe it is just what it is, confusion and God will use it for good!! Thanks again