Karenna,<P> I didn't get much time online last night. My son wanted to play a game. <P> Ok, I'm giving everyone fair warning. I am about to vent here. H just left a few minutes ago, and I need to go scream. Plan A just gets harder and harder to keep up, especially when your spouse lies to you.<P> Well, H didn't mention anything last night about his upcoming court appearance. He was about 9 sheets to the wind by the time he finally showed up so I imagine that was the farthest thing from his mind. It was after 10 PM before he got here, and he said he was working. Yeah right. I suspect he was in the bar. For someone who listed their most important emotional need as Honesty, he sure doesn't act like its important to him to be honest! Lately I have been having a hard time believing anything he says. Maybe I shouldn't take his lies so personally; I feel like it is an attack on me when he lies to me. <P> I am in suspense about the court stuff! Haven't heard from P.A. This morning I asked H if he was still supposed to go to court Tues. next week (H is supposedly "working" again this am). He never really answered me, but said that his atty's secretary called him yesterday, asking him to have the Women's Shelter fax her a letter stating when he registered for the program and what sessions he had been to so far. <P> He hasn't been to any counseling, and didn't show up for the first one this past Tues. I imagine the P.A. has called them to say that he knows that H has NOT been doing what he has been ordered to do and the letter that H's atty. sent to him was false. He was to have started this in January. Lets see, took 2 months for H to finally show up for the initial screening, then another month and a half for him to show up for the legal video. Two attendances in almost 20 weeks isn't bad is it. I am sick of my H's lies.<P> I need to pray for the Lord to give me His understanding and empathy I guess. I feel betrayed all over again. I have been praying every morning and every night for the Lord's guidance and wisdom through this, and for H's lies to be exposed. The Lord has been with me though, holding me up, and keeping me from committing any Lovebusters. Without Him, I would have blown a gasket a long time ago. I guess this is what the Word means when it says "longsuffering".<P> Thank you ladies for you prayers. Please know that I pray for you too.<P>AW<P>PS - CA job update. Even more things have gone wrong out there. PTL!!!!
