<BR>I am lonely again this evening. I feel like I am going to forever pay for my sins. My h only seems concern with getting his sexual need meet, and I am left in the cold wanting his tender touch or to feel his arms around me. I have'nt felt special in along time, and when I tell him I need these things he says he doen'nt like all that hugging and cuddleing. How do I make him understand that it is something I need. I need more than 10 of sex, I am always left needing more and he seems ok with it. I guess since I am the cause of all our troubles thats all I deserve, but if God can forgive me and love me. Why can't he. I feel I deserve more. I am his wife. I know we have problems, but I deserve more. So I just keep praying everyday for God everyday to soften his heart, and give me patience.

My first response (thought the hardest imaginable) is to wait on the Lord. Allow Him to meet those needs in you for deep intimacy and tenderness. He is so capable of doing that for us...many of us never think of God that way. <P>Obviously you can't count on your H to do that right now. For whatever reason. I don't know your circumstances, but chances are there is unforgiveness on his part involved. You have to place your broken heart in the hands of the Father and leave your husband's forgiveness/hard heart issues to the God that made him.<P>It is by no means easy, let me tell you. But if you can tap into just a tiny fraction of His fulfilling love, it will sustain you until your husband begins to soften up. PRAY HARD! <P>My prayers for you...<P><P>------------------<BR>"Love...bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things...LOVE NEVER FAILS..."-ICorinthians13:7,8