Well, actually I'm not so sure all the news is good. But here goes....<P>H came home from wok this a.m. I teased him whenhe came to my room about not bringing me a freezy pop (a pg favorite first thing in the a.m.) He laughed and actually returned downstairs to get me one! He came back, stripped down and crawled into bed with me. We talked a while, then both went to sleep. As we slept he reached for me a time or two, but Iwas careful not to push the issue and scare him back to his room. (PTL...another miracle)<P>However, I was still troubled by the conversation about the $ from his old job. I knew they owed him 1 full paycheck and vacation pay. It wasn't like him to cut me off so abruptly when I try to talk to him about how or why the $ isn't right...so I went to his car to look at the paper work that he put in his dash..the papers he didn't want me to see. In light of the comments about going to FL I suspected he had $ and had either sent it to her or was shorting our bills to put $ back to go see her. Well, turns out his checks were for $750..enough to cover his contribution to the house and pay his carpayment..due in a few days. He received only $129. Why? Well, he got caught using a supervisors access code for long distance to call her in Colombia after she reported she was pg apprently...all the calls were from 5/2-5/24 ..just about the time span he told me she told him of the pg and then when she returned to US. Over $500 in phone calls he had to pay for. I was so hurt, but I feel like he has realized what a mess he is making..how out of control everything is...<BR>There is good news here too, I think.....though we will be short on the bills, I think H didn't want to tell me the truth because he has already disappointed me so much, that I don't think he wants me to think of him as so stupid or weak. And God has grown me up so much that I actually took the camera to his car to take a picture of the checks and bills to put in my file, and God laid it on my heart not to do it...to trust him to do what he needed to do with H. Maybe he is bringing him to a point where he will have to humble himself..maybe just bringing him to the realization that his playing is interfering with his real life and bringing the reality home of the very real possibility of losing everything. I can help but notice the difference in H even though OW is still in the picture somewhat and H is frustrated and hurt, none of this is being taken out on me any longer by H. That is good news.<P>Only one thing damped my spirits this a.m....H did make one comment about is the baby ready to come out yet (I took a class last night about bringing baby home) I told him no..she's only 27 weeks, her lungs aren't ready. he asked what would happenif she came now, I told him she probably wouldn't survive (this upset me because he originally said he'd stay till the pregnancy was over then we'd talk about separation etc...I wondered if he is implying that he wishes the pg would be over soon so he'd be free) His response was to touch my tummy and say.."oh, then honey, you stay right there" maybe a mountain from a mole hill..he may just be anxious to see her little face. I noticed he had moved his father's day card from her to a place of prominence in his room yesterday.<P>Just wanted you to know that God is indeed at work..and very visibly so.<BR>Kim

Kim,<BR>God is indeed working. Praise the Lord for the miracles he is performing in your life. I think your insticnt is right not to get too out of shape over it. I too had material at one point that God said you don't ned that and I got rid of it. He was saying "Will you trust Me."<P>I just had lunch with h. He has jury duty and it is near where we live. Pleasant lunch and talk. Then right at the end, his cell beeped. He looked at it and them his whole everything changes. He was more distant etc... I asked what was wrong and he said just tired. I bet she had called. It was so amazing to watch him transform. We were having a really nice time and good conversation. It is in God's hands. He seems toi have relented about not dating. The little one has a party to go to Sat afternoon. We are going to get his new bike and ride bikes and talk.<P>Father, We continue to praise You for Your presence in our lives. Thank You Lord, for looking down from above and seeing us and bringing us into relationship with You through Jesus Christ. Praise the Lord, that You love us so much.<BR>Thank You for Kim and the life that grows inside her. lord, protect that child and bring a miracle healing to this marriage through this little life you have created. Praise the Lord, that my h is still willing to spend time with me, despite the fact that he said he couldn't do that too much any mor. That just doesn't seem to be the way. I praise You Lord that You are restoring these marriages in Your name, Amen....