H was here to night for a short time. We are literally back to the October time frame just after he moved out. Yet when he was coming into the room he sayd, no I don't want to sit down, I might like it!" <BR>He is back to thinking negative about me and that I always say the same thing and that is why he left. I can't believe it\. But my prayer is for me. I need to really just give this all to God and let h go. I am struggling to get to that place I was just a week ago when I felt so close and confident. This really hurts. I know God is stillin charge and that this is nothing to God (in my head) but my heart hurts so. We are suppose to get together to ride our bikes and I need to talk about money with him. Which with his negative attitude toward me, I'm not sure how the conversation will go.<BR>I don't know whether I will ride bikes or not with him. I'm not sure I can handle it this weekend now. I think I just need to stay away from him as much as possible. Which will be easy. The youngest leaves for camp for three weeks come tuesday. That is the main reason he comes by. The older one usually stays in contact with him by phone. Then he leave next Fri morning to visit the ow until, who knows when. I hate this<P>Please pray that I stay close to God, praising and loving Him and realizing He is all I need. Thanks.

Me too, hw. I LB'd bad tonight. He went after me blaming me for my health problems because I just want to do anything I can to bug him. Like: I get rashes easily while pregnant so I don't like shaving my legs often, and he takes it as a personal affront and wants to sell the house to punish me because it has a swimming pool. <P>He went on and on about it so I just let him have it. I guess my plan A is wearing out. He is just getting logical consequences for his words and actions, but I didn't put any thought and prayer into my response this time. I'm too tired to care. Guess the adversary is loose in my home again.

Karenna,<BR>The avvesary must really be threatened. he is working over time. I have to agree with aw also, that the victory must be at hand, since he is working so hard against us all. So we should blow him out of the water, by praising our Lord, and trusting His with all our hearts!<P>Father,<BR>I come to You, Lord and I lift up Karenna, emptyinside, aw, myself, and all the others who are struggling so. <BR>Lord, we should take it as a sign that the Lord, is close to brining our situations to fruition. Father, I want to seek You with all my heart and soul. Lord, I want to know You better through this process more than anything else. Lord, if it is in Your plan and Your desire to reunite my husband and myself in restoration of this marriage than nothing will keep it from happening. I will trust in my Lord. Lord, if it is Your desire to reunite these marriages, then it will be. Nothing can thwart Your plans. So, Father I ask that You increase our faith and hope in You and Your perfect plans this weekend. Help us to seek You totally for Yourself. Let us answer,"Yes, Lord You are enough for us." Lord, let us be satisfied with Your good gifts. Lord, put a hedge of thorns around each wife and husband and let nothing that is not of Your will for them touch them. Let their love for you inhabit their praises for you this weekend in their lives and marriages. In Jesus name, Amen.

hw - I am so sorry you are feeling so down. I am praying for you and will pray with you all weekend. The enemy is really attacking us isn't he. I have been praying the bondage prayer over our husbands, so I suppose he stepped up his attacks. Jesus will be there hw. I have been praying the prayers in the "How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage" for those in adultery. I will pray one for you now:<P>"Heavenly Father, I ask You to rebuke and bind Satan in the Name and through the Blood of the Lord Jesus Christ in hw's life and her husband, Jack. I ask You to build a Hedge of Thorns around Jack so that anyone who is interested in him will lose interest and leave. I base my prayer on the command of Your Word which says, 'What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate'. I thank You Father for hearing and answering my prayer. Father, please hedge up Jacks way with thorns, and build a wall against him so that he cannot find his paths. And he will pursue his lovers, but will not overtake them; and he will seek them, but will not find them. Then let Jack say, "I will go back to my wife Cindy, for it was better for me then than now!" Thank You Father for turning Jack's heart. I praise Your Holy Name Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN.<P>Last night I fell asleep for a bit, then woke up around 10 PM. I started praying for David's salvation and for him to resist the temptations of booze, bars, and OW's while he is gone, and felt strongly led to pray for you and Jack. I prayed for us all and felt so much better. When David called earlier last night he was mean and hateful on the phone. He's been that way a lot lately. I think he is trying to project blame on me because he is now having to face reality that he HAS to attend the counseling program. He just does not want to face the fact that if he had never beat up on me, he wouldn't have gone to jail nor would he be in the predicament he is in now. I feel very strongly that we've got to rebuke, rebuke, rebuke Satan and plead the blood of Jesus over ourselves and families right now. <P>Karenna, I am praying for you too. I can sure understand about getting worn out doing Plan A! Satan wants more than anything to drag each of us down, make us feel terrible, cause us to fight with our husbands, so we will quit praying for them and ourselves. He's stepping up his attacks because he is afraid that our husbands are getting closer to turning their hearts over to God. We have got to get our spiritual warfare armor on ladies. <B>The intensity of our trials is a sign that we are close to victory</B><P>The devil's wrath is coming down on us because he knows he only has a short time left to destroy. All the more reason for us to pray harder and without ceasing. <P>Dear Lord, thank You for being our loving God, caring so deeply for each of us. I pray that You will be right with each praying wife today, comforting them, bringing them Your peace that passes all understanding. Let each praying wife see evidence of Your work in her life and marriage, so that each is encouraged and gets another wind to go on fighting the battle. I pray that if need be, warring angels will be placed around each praying wife, each husband and family, fighting the battle for them. Thank You Father for ALWAYS being right beside us, holding us, guiding us. We praise Your Holy Name, and thank YOu for uplifting us during our time of weakness. Thank You Lord, thank You. Lord I especially lift up hw, asking You dear Lord to please deeply comfort this dear sister, giving her an extra measure of Your Love, Your kindness, Your peace. Let her heart be filled with overwhelming joy, the joy that can only come from You. Thank You for all the wonderful things you are doing in our lives. IJN I pray, AMEN

Thank you aw,<BR>Jack has such a dead against me attitude that it is hard to even talk to him. I think for now I have to let him go. I will still pray but I will let him be. It will be easier since the little one goes to camp and that's why he normally comes. I just have to give it all into God's hands and let him work and PUSH> Keep Praying Until Something Happens. I hate the timing. For the first time we have three weeks without a child who needs looking after and I had so looked forward to going to movies and out walking and riding bikes. Oh, well. I wonder what will happen the weekend we are suppose to go see her in camp and stay together in a bed and breakfast. At least they are single beds. Thw other piece of this is that our 13rd anniversary is in the next three weeks. I don't look forward to that one.<BR>He must really be having some feelings for me to overcome if he has to get so nasty in order to reconcile his feelings for her. The enemy is blinding him big time. I do not believe that that phine message was a conincidence. She did it deliberately! I bet anything. One phone call turned his head so around. Amazing. That is what also leads me to believe it is the enemy's attack. Because one little phone call shouldn't have done that much damage.<BR>I'm so sorry that David has been so nasty. I'm sure you are right that he doesn't want to handle the consequences of his actions. He probably feels guilty and full of shame and doesn't want to be reminded of it. But actions have consequences and they have to be faced.<BR>I am praying for us both. I have been in almost constant prayer since yesterdat. I can only face this with contineous fellowship with Jesus. Praising, reading his word and prying. <P>Father,<BR>The enemy must feel so threated, that he is working over timew in our husbands. Lord, amazing. But Jesus You have already overcome and we must rebuke, rebuke and rebuke the enemy by the Blood of Christ. Lord, Thank you for beoing so faithful to us. Thank You for calling us while we are sinners. Lord, You are our God and I love You. You carry us through the hard times, and whisper in our ears. Let us hear only Your voice. <BR>Lord, rebuke the enemy from our husbands. Lord, turn their ears toward You. Lord, by a supernatural intervention, Lord, send Your Holy Spirit to meet our husbands and confront them and bring them to Godly sorrow and repentence according to Your will.<BR>Change the perception of our husbands toward their wives and their marriages. Lord, pull them up by their britches and soften their hearts. <BR>Lord, we praise You for You are Holy and Just. We praise You because You see our sorrow and the anguish of our hearts./ We praise You because You see the way our husbands are treating us and You meet those needs that they are unwilling to meet. Jesus, You are Lord. Thank You for loving me so much that You came willingly to earth to show me the way and died for me to bring me eternal life. Thank You, Lord. In Jesus name, Amen..<BR>Now I must go back to prayer because I will be meeting with Jack in an hour or so. Thanks everyone for your prayers and know I am praying for you.

Hw - I will be fervently praying for you and Jack during the time you are together. May the Lord use this time you are together for His good and His glory. <P>God bless you hw.

hw - just sent you an email. I'm praying.

Girls, I'll be praying right along with you. Though H hasn't done anything specifically "bad"...he is allowing himself to help another friend of ours who is here visiting from South America. This situation is different from the last...this woman is also a friend of mine, and there is a legitimate reason why our friend has asked H to take her to and from work yesterday and today. However, the situation is so close to the OW beginnings that it makes me nervous. H spends time helping others, then is hesitant to help me. And last night, he went to their home alone after playng ball at the Y with the husband whose SIL he's been helping. When he came home, he started to go sleep in the guest room..first time in a week...but God layed it on my heart that i would be safe in saying something, so I did. I said"what, no hug, no backrub, no nothing???" and he came and got on bed to rub my back, then said he was going to the other room. I told him he could sleep in my bed if he wanted and keep me company. He kised my forehead...first time in weeks, and went to get his pillows. So that was positive, but i feel edgy. He's been playfully a smarttail all day, and I've taken it seriously, though I try not to let it show much. I have tried to face the fears head on by inviting the SIL and the rest of the family for dinner tonight. The others work til late, so H said he'd just bring her after her work if she wanted to come so she wouldn't be home alone.<P>But I too..like all of you..feel like satan is trying extra hard to drive a wedge between us. May times today I thought..I don't even like H anymore...I know I do. I love him, but i'm so tired of keeping my mouth closed when I have something to say. But I will persevere, through prayer, and hopefully not LB.<P>I will pray for youall..hw, aw, karenna..before I go to sleep tonight, and again first thing in the morning.<BR>i'll check back tomorrow afternoon.....Maybe a new day will bring new blessing.<BR>Kim

Thank you, thank You Lord. This is a praise report. God did move him a little.<BR>After I dropped daughter off at party, I called h. He was at work and was going to be another hour. Anyhow he was still cold and distant. So I went home. I called when I got home and I said, "Hey, if it is too hard to talk to me today we can talk tomorrow." He said, "I'll be over in an hour," still cold. I said,"if you are so cold and against me we might as well not talk. I can't talk to you when you are like that, and financial stuff is challenging enough." So he said he could talk. Well of course it wasn't one hour but three. <BR>He came and sat down and said, "I want to say two things. One, I'm sorry I was such ______, and two it is hard to hate you." I said there is nothing to hate. He shook his head. <BR>So we talked. The financial stuff is hard, but I told him like it was and took ownership over my part. Anyways when he went to get some toast he said. You know if I was sure of her I wouldn't be in this mess. So we talked. He was much more reasonable. We wenmt to pick up his new bike and he'll be over tomorrow to see daughter. <BR>So, Praise the LORD< for He is worthy even though this didn't change, but I know God was working on him, otherwise I know there would not have been any movement.<BR>Now next weekend he goes to see the ow for the weekend. I am praying up a storm that God really use this to convict Jack's heart and to that He use it for our good. It is in God's hands, and I have to realize that I don't really want him back until God is ready to give him back to me. He has to finish his work with Jack.<BR>So thankyou all for praying. I'm going to hotmail now.

emptyinside,<BR>I think it is unanimous that satan is working overtime. The question is what are we going to do about it?<BR>Could we organize a prayer vigil again?<BR>Anyone have any suggestions to what days would be good?<P>We all just need to keep praying and praising the Lord. Really that is all we can do, but seek the Lord our God with all our hearts through praying and praising!<P>

Hi all,<P>Haven't been here much lately but just so you know you aren't alone, the attack is hard and heavy here as well. Yelling in front of the kids, snapping at them when it is me he is angry with. I want to send them home to protect them from this. They have enough problems to deal with.<P>Abba, I thank you for never forsaking me even in the midst of the battle for the mind. Each moment would be unbearable if You weren't here by my side. By the authority given to me by Jesus, I rebuke the power of the evil one, particularly the spirits of criticalness, discontent, and self-absortion. I bind all thoughts that are not according to your will from his mind, I bind all addictive behaviors that make a mockery of your holiness. I loose the spirit of love as you described in 1Cor 13 and ask that you touch and heal this marriage as only you can. I ask that you give my husband wisdom about emotions and to have the strength to think with his mind and not with his emotions. I ask that you to strengthen him to be able to discern your voice verses the voice of the evil one. Help him to hear the falsetto vibrations of the evil one that promotes self and happiness as values. <P>Search my heart Father and change me where changes need to be made. Show me how to love the unloveable in spite of adversity and show me how to speak the truth in love without coming off as holier than thou. Father, reign in our house, pour your spirit of peace over us, let the oil of joy drip into every crevass.<P>Father, we come to you as a unit, your people bound together in Christ Jesus and standing for our marriages as you called us to do. Thank you for hearing our cries, for catching each tear, for your abiding love, for your strength when we are weak. You are mighty and your way prevails forever. Guide each step that we might glorify you and vessels for your purpose. IJN, Amen.

SueB,<BR>sure seems unanimous that we are all being attacked. I say we rise up in Praise to the Lord, today for He is God and He is loving us. As job says what we expect good from God, but now times of trouble. Not to say that God gives us times of trouble but he allows them.<BR>I realized that in the attack this last week, I leanred 1. that I still hold my marriage and husband too much. I say I can let go and if he doesn't come back it will be all right. But I really did get thrown for a loop. The Lord worked with me to get rid of a bunch of anger, forgive my husband and too know again that Jesus is all that really matters, an all I really need. Now I doubt I am fully there, but I have asked Him to get me there. and 2. I really can't do anything about it, but the Lord can. I get distracted and don't praise Jesus and pray as closely as I should. I do it every day, but I get distracted into praying for us all, and ,mostly for my husband, that I don't really take the time as much as I should to say, "Lord I am here, praying and praising just because I want you."<BR>So the message to me is not to give up praying and praising for my husband and all of us, but to seek the Lord, with all my heart first. I wonder how many more times he will have to reach down and teach me this lesson. Unfortunatley I will have to say probably everyday.<P><BR>Jesus, we come before You on thie sabboth day saying Yo are enough, when we put You first as You call us to do. You are Lord, and worthy of our praise just because You saved us and just because You are. Lord, thank You for loving us that You don't let us go and You don't leave us a lone, that You continually call us back to You. Lord call our spouses back and to You also. Father they need You more then they know. The enemy has them blinded. I pray that You give them eyes to see and ears to hear You, Oh, Lord. Because as I know You are all I need. You are all they need. Praise You Father, for calling us out of the darkness and loving us so much and caring enough never to let us go. Even though the trials are hard and heavy You refine us and bring us to a much better place through your grace, after a time of suffering. Yhank You Jesus for those trials that change us to be able to receive more of You and them to share it with others. Thank You Jesus. Amen.

Hw,<BR>I know how you feel, I'm praying for you.

Thanks Carol!<P>How are you. We haven't heard from you much. I pray that you are doing okay and staying close to Jesus.<BR>I had great prayer times yesterday. The Lord showed me still how much I need to seek Him. Also He showed me not to deny that it is so hard when the ow is either in town or h is going there, because then I am trying to deal with it in my own strength. Instead He showed me to confess that it is hard and then rest it in Him.<BR>So today as I suspect maybe she has come here instead of h going there this weekend, I just said to Jesus. Lord, as much as I feel I have given it to you, this is still hard and I can not do this on my own. Lord, I rest this in you and ask for Your strength to go through each day that she is here.<P>I pray that all of you will be able to confess that you can not handle your circumstances and then give them away to Jesus and let Him strengthen you for each day. He is walking beside us, but sometimes we are so wrapped up in our circumstances (I know I am that way) we don't look beside us and recognize that He is right beside us. Have a great day in the Lord, and sing Him some praises today. Amen <p>[This message has been edited by hw (edited June 29, 2000).]