I need prayer. My mind has been so jumbled I have a hard time praying myself. So many thoughts rushing around in my head. First off, I am divorced as of last August. Did not want it, and cannot seem to get over it. My 2 kids from 1st marriage are totally out of control. Teens. My daughter has moved out of the home (17) with an aunt. She has major issues, and my son is just plain old disrespectful and does not obey any rules. So far no help with my 17yr old from the State, all though they remind me I am still responsible until she is 18. Took an out of control petition on my son. Have an appt comming up July.<P>Of course there are money issues, I work 7 days a week, have narcolepsy, feel I am alone is this crummy world and think I have lost my mind. How's that?!<P>Have not dated because I am not over my ex even though I know we are permanently over, and also I don't trust any men or my own judgement. Another reason I have not attempted to go out is I have yet to be happy and content by myself. What is wrong with me? Why can't I be what every counselor in the world says we ought to be?<P>Spiritually I feel lost. Can't get closer to God when my mind is so full of garbage. Everyday wishing I would get some illness that causes death so I can leave this miserable life, and I know it's sinfull to think that way but I can't help it. I want to please God and am only bringing up more guilt on myself for my thoughts and feelings that I seem to have no control over.<P>Just in case someone ask, I have taken antidepressants many times, and many different kinds, none works. They have no positive effects.<P>I am at a loss and dont know what to do anymore. Pls pray for me!!<P>Bluestar

My Father,<BR>Hear Bluestar's cry for help and mercy! Draw her under your wing of protection and provide her the shade of comfort from the heat of the stress searing around her. Turn her eyes and heart towards you so that the glare is so great that she cannot see the turmoil around her. Fill her mind with your thoughts so that there is no room for any other thought except whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, all things excellent or praiseworthy-let her dwell here until the darkness is pushed out and your glory shines. <P>Give her a hunger and thirst for the things of you, take this time that she feels the darkness closing in to shed Your light in such a way that she sees herself in your light, that she is increasingly aware of the sacrifice that You made for her through Jesus and that she cries out for your mercy and grace. <P>Show her how to put on the armor of God, to stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around her waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with her feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. Help her to take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Put on her the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And lead her Father to pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests, to be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints, that she is equipped to fight the enemy for her children, so that her mouth is guard and only your wisdom pours from it and the children see your love coming from her. <BR>Let her be fully aware of where the battle begins, in the mind, and help her to take captive every thought that does not come from you, give her insight and the spirit of discernment between your voice and the falsetto whine of the evil one. Let your truth reveal his lies and deceit. <P>Show her the authority you have given her over the power of all evil and teach her to claim it mightily, give her the spirit of boldness, of love and of self-control that she is able to stay focused in the battle for her children. Let not the rules of this world interfere with the plan you have for each of them. Let her not be discouraged by the lax laws of the land that do not protect our children from themselves, which gives them more power and control than they are emotionally capable of handling. <P>Put an umbrella shield around the children while they are being the prodigals and let them quickly see that the pigs are fed better than they are and how much better they would be in even the lowest slave position, yeah, even that of being under their mother's authority for a while more. Let your angels surround them and battle for them while they are being prepared according to your plan. Let the eyes of their hearts be opened and let their enlightenment reveal your truth and glory and let them see the darkness attempting to drag them down into the mire of sin. <P>Finally Father, let Bluestar receive the peace that transcends all understanding, to guard her heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Let her discover how to be content whatever the circumstances surrounding her and that she can do all things through Christ who strengthens her. Let her understand the meaning of submission so that she does not rebel from your authority, that she receives your grace to be obedient and understands that your grace is sufficient for all time, that she doesn't need to be dating or involved in any relationship to be complete, for in you, she is complete and whole. Remind her that you are the father to the fatherless and the husband to the widow, to all who are abandoned or barren.<P>Let her have great confidence in you; let her feel your great pride in her. Let her be greatly encouraged; so in all her troubles her joy knows no bounds. Let her put no confidence in the flesh, but let her boldly and with freedom and faith in Christ Jesus, come before the throne that she may receive mercy and find grace to help her in her time of need. Let her draw near to you with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having her hearts sprinkled to cleanse her from a guilty conscience and having her body washed with pure water. Let her hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let her consider how she may spur another on toward love and good deeds, to be a comfort to another as you give her comfort. Let her find a body to become part of so that they may encourage one another. In unison with Bluestar, Father, we say with confidence,<P> "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.<BR> What can man do to me?" HEB 13:6 <P>This is the confidence we have in approaching You, Father: that if we ask anything according to your will, you hear us. And if we know that you hear us--whatever we ask--we know that we have what we asked of you.<P>1JN 5:18 We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him. [19] We know that we are children of God, and that the whole world is under the control of the evil one. [20] We know also that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding, so that we may know him who is true. And we are in him who is true--even in his Son Jesus Christ. He is the true God and eternal life.<P>Thank you Father for this truth, thank you for the gift of your love, the sacrificing, redeeming love that pours out mercy and grace. Let Bluestar be in awe today and let her see things that she has not previously seen. Let her joy be in the hope that is You for joy comes in the morning. Let it wash over her today and let her awe be that you have cared for her so. Let her understand that her problems will still be there, but that she is never to bear them alone and that You are ever faithful to stand along side of her in truth and love. IJN, Amen.<P>

Father God,<P>Confusion is not from you Lord, it is caused to kill, steal and destroy your people. <P>Lord, I come against the spirit of confusion in the name of Jesus. I cast it forth, and tell it to leave Bluestar right now in the name of Jesus. I loose from heaven your power, love and sound mind over Bluestar.<P>Father, this fear is sent by the enemy to destroy Bluestar, steal her joy and happiness, and kill her hope in you Lord. It is meant to destroy her family, to ruin two children's lives, and to do nothing but ruin all the plans that you have for Bluestar.<P>I know this isn't from you, and because we are your children, we believe in your Holy Precious Son, and the majesty of forgiveness and righteousness because of the blood that he shed on Calvary, we know that we have been given dominion to tread on serpents and scorpions, and are "more than conquerers through Christ (annointing) Jesus." <P>Father, Annoint Bluestar with the oil of righteousness, taking away her spirit of fear and replacing it with Power, Love, and a Sound Mind.<P>Comfort, guide and strengthen her, In the Name of Jesus.<P>Amen

Bluestar, I am so sorry you are going through so many hard trials! Please know I will pray for you, and will be thinking of you. {{{{{{{{{{{{Bluestar}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>There is nothing wrong with you, you are hurting and you need Jesus to heal your hurt and take away the pain. I can fully understand. I get discouraged so when my H drinks and gets mean. I pray, the ladies here pray, and Jesus takes over and pulls me up out of my slump. He has to do that a lot lately. <P>One verse that comes to mind is John 14:21 "He that hath my commandement, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me; and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, <I>and will manifest myself to him</I>. I guess what I am trying to say is, love Jesus. Cry out to Him, alone, in your "prayer closet", and he will come to you and comfort you. He knows your heart is breaking, and He wants to comfort you. Please ask Him. He wants His joy to remain in you, so that your joy might be full. John 15:11.<P>I have been having a rough time lately, H has been on a bender, has been gone for a week, and I have been really down. As soon as praise and worship started tonight at church, I felt better. The more praising done the better I felt. I asked Jesus to fill me completely with the Holy Spirit, to overtake me. I felt a warm, comforting feeling wash over me, starting at the top of my head and going all the way to the floor. It was wonderful. I still feel great, even though nothing has changed at home. <P>God is right there next to you Bluestar. Keep praying and praising Him, and you will have a breakthrough. I will be praying that the Lord give you clarity of mind, peace, and a joyful heart. You are a precious child of God, and He loves you very much. <P>God bless you,<BR>AW