Well, my request this week is pretty much the same as last week. H has been wonderful, but still calls OW a couple of times a week for very brief conversations. I think he knows or suspects I am aware of it, yet our relationship seems to continue to get better. He has resumed many of the family activities that we enjoyed pre-affair. <BR>However, I feel like something is going on now that I don't quite understand...loose ends I think...I posted recently about FIL speaking to me about how he is advising H to stay and repair the marriage, then turned around the same day and took a package of pills(a prescription from her home country) and a note back to FL with him that I am sure are for OW...H had stepped away from the table during dinner to call OW, back in less than 5 minutes. That was Wed. H didn't call again till Sunday, the day after his dad returned to FL. Then again last night, i noticed on the cell phone that he had placed a call to his dad in FL and then immediately placed a call to OW. Yet he is beyond precious with me...he called me at his break and his lunch last night, came home this a.m. and brought a bowl of fruit to bed for me, then went to the bathroom and scrubbed the tub (something I have been begging for help with since I entered my 7th month.) I don't know why the secrecy, don't understand why he still hasn't told me about OW's miscarriage, and don't understand how he can be so loving and protective of me, yet still not be able to kiss me or tell me he loves me. Sometimes I wonder if I've done the right thing by staying. I love him, and I want our marriage to work, but I can't live the rest of my life not being kissed, not being told that I am loved. I need those two things.<P>So, pray with me that H will come clean and disclose what the situation is with OW, and that he will continue to grow away from her and closer to me and the baby. Pray that he will realize how imprtant it is to me to kiss me and tell he loves me...he's been told before, and I still kiss him on whatever part I can get to...and when I'm brave I still tell him I love him.<P>We have come so far, but now seem to be at a standstill.<P><BR>I will be praying along with you at 11 tonight<BR>kim

My requests are:<P>1) That the Lord will ZAP my H and open his ears and the eyes of his heart to return to the Lord with ALL his heart.<P>2) That the Lord will turn my H's heart away from the OW and back toward our marriage and towards me. <P>Father, I ask that you be with all the women who post to this board. There will be requests posted today that are the cries of our hearts. There will be requests that are not posted, but that are on our minds and in our hearts. Lord, you know and see all....all that is hidden and all that we hold most dear. I ask that you help us to remember that and to lay all of our burdens and requests at your feet and allow you, in your time, to heal us. You said if we turn from our wicked ways and call upon You, you will heal our land. We claim that promise and allow you to work in our lives.<P>Thanks Lord for helping me thru these last 8 months. I couldn't have made it if it wasn't for You...and that's the truth. I ask that you speak to Jeff's heart and break thru the walls that surround him. I ask that you turn his heart back to You and back to his home. I ask that you turn his desire's away from the OW and back to his wife. Thank you Lord. Amen.<P><BR>

My prayer request continues to be to have the Lord change me into a bold woman of God, with the guts and tenacity of the Proverbs 31 wife, to be able to take His Word into my heart that I might be able to have a ready answer for the traps set in my path. To have a sound mind and to be able to keep to the issues and not get sidetracked. To understand the necessity to be a woman of boundaries and to be able to set them with love and compassion and be firm with them. To have clarity of mind when discerning the roles and responsibilities both husbands and wives have and to keep remembering that sin is in the response and that my responses must be consistent with the word of God.<P>That God continue to work on my husband's mind and emotions and to bring conviction and a desire to reach out for help.

Where do I start? There has been so much turmoil in my life and marriage the last week I don't know what to pray for anymore.<P>Please pray for clarity of mind for me, for the Lord to give me direct instructions of what He wants me to do, for the Lord to give me an extra measure of strength to do whatever it is He wants me to, for discernment in knowing when God is speaking to me and when Satan is trying to infiltrate my mind, for the tremendous peace that passes all understanding to transcend upon me, for the Lord to send Holy Spirit filled Christians to help me pray through this trial and for Holy Spirit filled Christians to witness to my husband, for the Lord to take <B>complete</B> control of my life and marriage and resolve everything for His good and His glory, "for nothing is secret that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad" causing David to tell the whole truth, for the Lord to open David's eyes and ears showing him that "the ways of man are before thre eyes of the Lord, and He pondereth all his goings." For the Lord to bind the Father's commandments upon David's heart, and tie them about his neck, so that "when he goest, it shall lead him, when he sleeps, it shall keep him, and when he awakes, it shall talk with him".

Well, <BR>ladies definately prayer time tonight!!!!!!!<P>Sorry I missed last week, 4th of July, stressed and writing a final!!<P>So tonight my prayer is to keep close to God. That my husband come back to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ and that God's will be done in my marriage. Also that God would go before us this weekend. H and I go up to camp to see little one do her performances and then bring her home. We have a room together, but separate beds. We will see what we will see. It is in God's hands. <BR>I'll be on at 11:00 EST to pray.