I do thank all of you who responded to me. It has been a great help to me. On yesterday, I started to remember what made me fall in love with my H, and in remembering, I discovered that he is my real best friend. I not only want to do the right thing but I want God to triple the love I need to feel for my husband.<P>I had become so dependent on the OM, this is what I need to let go of. It is a daily fight for me. i became dependent on just hearing his voice. And then he started giving me money.<P>You see, my husband never had the success that this OP has, but I am praying that God will open some doors for my H.<P>In the meantime. I just want to be in love with my husband. I want the dependency to go away. I've encouraged the OP in his own marriage. I told him that I want to see his marriage flourish.<P>I am trying, I am reading the Word of God every day. I am praying for God to open some doors for my own family. Especially my husband. He is a good man. very gentle and kindhearted. And loving. I think that I got a little tired of struggling financially and I didn't see my H pushing for a better life. This is not a good feeling.<P>So this is where I am today. Please allow me to keep posting here. This is the best forum I've found because anything that is coupled with prayer has to move God.

qu78,<BR>You are welcome here. <P>And just remember, God promises to be sufficient and he gives good things to his children.<P>Money & things aren't everything, and deep inside you must know this. Was Princess Di happy? Michael Jackson? Their money could buy anything...but their search for meaning continued.<P>Try counting your blessings and giving thanks for them, whatever they may be and soon you'll realize you see people everyday who would trade with you in an instant.<P>Take care, choose the narrow road.

Thanks Lor,<P>the torture of the dependency on this other person kills my spirit everyday. Because what I feel for him I desperately want to feel for my husband. <P>I hope that I am praying for the right thing when I pray for their marriage as well as my own. I am also praying that God will give me love for his wife, and help me to see her for who she is. And realize that this woman is his true confidant for life, not me!!<P>I really want joy and peace and happiness to fill my own home......so badly.<P>Am I concentrating on the right things? I know that you will probably say that I need to stop thinking of the other person's life and concentrate on my own.<P>I guess if I could just see God manifest himself in my life...it would be easier.<P>

qu78,<BR>Please keep posting, this forum is a very encouraging one, the women that come here are so supportive. <BR>I here hope in your post this morning. I hear that you are winning the battle. The more you resist the temptation the quicker it will go. It is not easy to resist temptation, but God promises to help. He calls us to stand and dwell on His promises rather than the circumstances. This is where I have been for the last couple weeks, giving up thinnking and talking about the circumstances and dwell instead on God. He is there and He does answer. In fact He is working in you today. Dwell and remember that friendship with your husband. Remind yourself that your loyalty to that friendship and husband is more important than your own happiness and remember it is a gift from God, that God gives us great gifts and if you pray for increased love for your h He will provide. We ask Him these things because we know He does and will answer. Read the story of Joseph and all He went through. Read Mark 10:51. The blind man was calling out to Jesus. Jesus asked, "What do you want me to do for you?" Jesus was testing his faith. Jesus wanted to know what the blind man thought Jesus could do for him. If the blind man would ask then he believed Jesus could do it. The blind man's faith healed him.<P>Keep on doing what you are doing. Resist the temptation which is really resisting satan not the om. satan is working through this man to bring you down. he may increase the fire that burns within you, but he really has no power, Jesus has already beat him. You just have to claim that victory by accepting it and proclaiming to satan, "get behind me, I belong to the true God, and I worship Him with all my heart, soul and mind." he has to flee. satan only has the power we give him.<P>Father, <BR>We praise You, that You sent yourself to earth as Jesus to show us how much You loved us and to atone for our sin. You know we could not do it, so You did it for us. Lord, How awesome, is Your love for us. Lord let the fire of love, desire and thirst burn in qu's heart for her Lord, Jesus. Holy Spirit cme upon qu and protect her from the influence of satan that longs to bring her down, by whispering doubts, lies and half truths. But Your truth and promises are rich in love and power. Father put a hedge of protection around her heart, soul and her family. Let her turn to you and cry out to You at any thought or temptation. Let her replace thoughts of the om with praises for You, and all You are doing for her right now. Lord, restore the love she once felt for her husband threefold. Lord, You are a God that gives more than we ask for, when it is Your will. Lord, protect this marriage and let them grow in love and knowledge of You. Let them pray together drawing a closer walk with you. Lord You say in many places "The Lord is with you when you are with Him. If you seek Him, He will be found by you." (2 Chronicles 15:2). I claim this for qu today, that she seek You with all her heart. Father, let them both together seek You with all their hearts together as a couple. We praise You Father, that You hear our cries and You love us and give us only good gifts. Father You use all things for our good when we come to You. Lord, use this for this marriage and this couple's good. Thank you, Father for listening and for yourmany blessings. Let ceaseless praise flow toward You, Lord for all You provide. In Jesus name, Amen.<P><BR>