You know guys I really appreciate the wisdom that you have given me. I am really trying to keep my focus on God. It seems as though I have been in this fight for so long. It is so easy for me to be derailed. I'm really having a hard time getting my prayer life back. Everytime me and my H, have a fallout, I find myself only thinking about the bad things that are going on. And to top it all off. After all of the verbal and mental abuse, my H decides that he is leaving me.He packed him an overnight bag and left. He says that he is tired of my "Crap". I asked him was he leaving for good and he said yes, he said that he was not angry but that he is tired. The only problem that I have with this, is that most of the altercations that happens, are provoked my him. I've been praying for him, but it seems like everything is falling apart. I'm really hurting bad. I did not try to stop him from leaving, I only asked him where was he going to stay, but he never answered me. We had just left church, were he was weeping before the Lord, and then without an argument he says that he is leaving. Please pray for my strenght. I know that God want to do something in my marriage, But I don't have the faith right now. <BR>

Oh mighty and awesome Father, our one and only redeemer, maker of all that is, we come to you to seek your wisdom and guidance, to lay our desire for restoration of this marriage at your feet. Father, heal the hearts of these two people, bind them together in unity, help them each to see and hear the hearts of the other with an openness and vulnerability and not with defensiveness. Help them to hold their tongues and to respond with your heart and your love. Break the strongholds that are causing discord in this family. Help them to swallow their pride and to seek pastoral counseling. Bring others in the body forward to mentor and help them and to hold them accountable. Let this couple bring glory to your name, IJN, Amen.