I praise God for being so close this last week. I praise the Lord, that He is so awesome, just in the fact that He wants a relationship with us. <P><BR>Post your prayers and pray for each other.<P>Please pray for my h. He is still so much in the fog. I'm not sure what to ask prayer for. I guess first and foremost that His eyes, ears and heart be opened to Jesus' love for him. That the Holy Spirit is able to break through his wounded spirit and soften his heart to restore Jesus back in his heart. That his new neighbors have an opportunity to minister to him and that the Lord sends a man with a strong relationship with Jesus to talk with him.<P>Also pray that I just stay on staying with Christ and seeking Him with all my heart.<P>A special prayer that the Lord would heal my daughter of a virus that she may have gotten. She is only 16 and it could effect her for the rest of her life. That He will use even this for good.<P>Praise the Lord, for He hears our prayers and our cries. He is faithful and comes when we cry out to Him and seek Him with all our hearts. I am so thankful for a God like this!

hw, I thank you for leading the prayer requests each week. I appreciate it so much and I'll pray for your daughter's rapid recovery from her virus. <P>I pray for vision. I feel like I can't see things that are right in front of me. Four years ago I listened to my inner voice, took some risks, and ventured down a precarious path that I believed to be the pursuit of my dreams. I believed I would be successful. Things haven't turned out as I planned, and my H and I are in a financial and marital crisis. I've mentally prepared myself to let go of everything I own. I pray and pray and I still feel lost. If my prayers are being answered, please let me be able to see it. I'm so very unhappy, glum, and unproductive. It's like a prison and I pray to be set free.

I've had a tough week! One moment I'm fine and the next I'm a complete mess. I need Gods strength. Although I grew up in an alcholic home I have never and I mean never touched anything alcholic and lately Satan has been telling me lies trying to break down my reserves and get me to drink. I have been very close. Pray for strength for me in my weekest moments so that Satan can not win this war. I have never strugled with this before and told my counselor about it. he says it is how i've seen my parents deal with their problems and that I must stand strong against it and relize that is not how to solve problems. But I still must admit it sounds good about now, How I wish to be numb. but with God as my strength, I won't.<P>I pray for strenght to get through each day and to be strong for myself and my boys and my H. I bind the strongholds that Satan is trying to manipulate us with. I stand in the Gap for my marriage and for my husband. I pray that God would open his eyes, and heart to Him and work wonders in Davids' heart. I pray for Gods mercy and grace to abound in Davids heart, mind and life.<P>I'm not very good at praying but I'm sure I will get better with practice.<BR><P>------------------<BR>Irene

scared and lonely,<P>To encourage you in your praying, there is no good or bad, just an honest heart and yearning for God. He hears our hearts, not so much our words. The Spirit groans with sounds sometimes in prayer. not words. Pray what comes to your heart and lift it in praise to the Lord.<P>I use the Psalms so much when it becomes hard to pray. Use scripture also. What I do is when I find a verse that speaks to either something I want for my family or others, I substitute their names where the us, you, my or me words are. And if that doesn't work then I use the name before or after. <P>For example. "I praise You Lord for taking every one of ______'s thought's captive in obedience to Jesus Christ."<P>This seemed difficult to me at first until I tried it a few times. It is not so much where the person is now, as praying for them as You believe that God can bring them to.<BR>His words (The Words of the Bible) are more elequent and active, alive and piercing than anything we can say. It is powerful praying. <P>But the most important thing to remember is, first to pray, and then that God is really looking at your heart behind the words. Your prayers should not be judged by others, and more importantly by yourself except that they are sincere.<BR>I remember the first time I went to a women's group and they asked me to pray our loud. I was so scared, but just prayed the best I could. God is faithful to us and He works through our feeble attempts because He loves us. I think a lot of prayer, because God already knows what is on our hearts, is really a declaration that we believe He is capable of answering our prayers. Jesus says in the Bible to those who reach out to Him, "Your faith has healed You."<P>I hope this encourages you.

I have prayers of thanksgiving, for my h's attempt to explain his feelings and his kindness this weekend. for all the supportive people God has put in our paths.<BR>I am thankful that my h is a believer, and is open to wisdom from God.<BR> My request is for wisdom for both of us,<BR>what do we do with our failing marriage, put the diesire in our heart to do God's will. As it stands now he thinks he wants it to end, would be better for all of us. I don't agree, please pray against that, and pray for healing and understanding between us. I will as I have been pray the same things for all of you. This place has been such a blessing for me. The prayers are so beautiful, esp the new ones straight from the heart.

Just Praise! The past three weeks I have felt like my life is finally getting on track after a long trek in the desert. Personal problems take a toll on your spiritual walk and I feel like God is bringing me back to where I belong.<P>"For the grace of God which brings salvation (Jesus) has appeared to all men. Teaching us to say NO to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and goldly lives in this present age." Titus 2:11-12<P>Look up! Your Redemptions draws nigh!

strength,<P>peace that passes understanding,<P>OW to disappear and stay gone,<P>OW to truly repent and find the Lord,<P>His grace to make it another 16 months so I can REALLY say we are recovered.<P><BR>DETAILS IF YOU NEED THEM:<P>Last week when my guard was down, I contacted the OW to be sure she didn't intend to work on a joint project with my h.'s new company. She told me a pack of lies I have since deleted from last week. I made the mistake of directing the ugly she-devil to this site (MB, not the Bible study). <P>If she ever actually comes here to the site and finds the Bible study, she could easily figure out who I am based on my posts, which are rather detailed. The old GF posts cannot be deleted, and I was one angry witch-with-a-b last year when I found out. <P>The truth took a year to surface, but she has now been forced to leave the office. <BR>They paid her off out of their 'sexual harassment' insurance policy. Hysterical. <P>She told my h she made sure to never put her 'feelings' for either of the two guys (my h. and the boss) in writing. She told my h. she always knew that the law would be on her side. <P>It is possible that they (she and the boss) have colluded to use the sexual harassment $$ to set her up to work from home.<P>She hasn't confessed to her h. at all. My h. is sure that he would have come after both men with a gun, or at least beat the tar out of them. People who have seen her husband say he looks way too happy to have been told ANYTHING.<P>So, I wait. <P>So, if you are here, Mrs. K., read my prayers, read my pain -- if you must come here at all, look hard at what you have done to our family. <P>BTW, I just learned this week that my husband's last attempt to get back with OW was NOT a year ago, but last February. <P>He says it isn't really a setback, because it confirmed to him that there is nothing there for him. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life making it up to me.<P>At any rate, if ANY intentional contact happens again without my prior knowledge and consent the originals will surface, I PROMISE. I AM A WOMAN OF MY WORD.<P>lizpearl<P><BR>hugs,<BR>lizpearl<p>[This message has been edited by alias (edited October 17, 2000).]

Morning all.<P> I guess my prayer request this week is for courage and boldness to speak the truth. I<BR> am am not even prefacing it to speaking it in love, but to actually not hold back.<BR> Pastor has made me aware that my gift for service and senstivity to others is fine<BR> tuned to a fault, that is, if I am aware that something said would hurt or would be<BR> taken out of context, then I would not speak due to concern for the other person,<BR> ergo, I am robbing them of the opportunity to grow. <P> As you know, there are numerous issues with my dear hubby and I can empathize and<BR> feel love for him in that he doesn't have a clue, so blind is he in many things.<P> What I have allowed though, in this emeshment, is a lack of honesty, since it will fall<BR> on deaf ears, since it will result in abusive responses, or a twisting of my intention,<BR> etc. so that I am not being honest. Honesty is a big thing for me, so it was very<BR> disconcerting to understand how I have allowed this to unfold. <P> Just as we had that dear sister not so long ago who wanted counsel in how to handle<BR> the gross stuff her H does and the resentment and bitterness she feels, my actual<BR> boundary type behavior does not encourage my H to take responsibility for himself. <P> My H needs to know that I am turned off by his poor personal care habits, that I do<BR> not desire to kiss a mouth that has not held a toothbrush in weeks, of how I am<BR> affected by the smell of fecal matter rather than just purchase a bidet. <P> He needs to know that those things that he complains about could easily be fixed and<BR> that he needs to investigate why he chooses not to do the little things that would<BR> bring a positive response from me and would meet some of his identified ENs. <P> It is a process of placing truth out front so that he can choose to do or not do<BR> something about it and suffer the consequences of his choices. My sense of over<BR> responsibility and over sensitivity to the feelings of others (and yours lonesome) is not<BR> honoring to the one God put in a leadership position. As long as I deny truth and make<BR> excuses, no growth will occur. Whew! What a workout!!!<P> Anyway, that is my assignment this week. The "in love" part should come naturally, in<BR> that I am not saying things to purposely hurt my H, but because I do love him. I must<BR> remember my reward is in heaven and that I often become as impatient about waitng<BR> as David did, but that like Paul, I can find contentment no matter what is going on<BR> around me.<BR>

Please pray for all those women and men out that are hurting so much. That God will put his Holy Angels around them and ward off the spiritual warfare around each and everyone of us. That God will bind satan from their spouses mind and heart, the Lord will rise above believe it, our faith is so important, as each one of us grows in the Lord He will use us...Pray for patience, wait upon the Lord. And please pray for the ow that they will someday know the Lord and committ their lives to him. <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by hw:<BR><B>I praise God for being so close this last week. I praise the Lord, that He is so awesome, just in the fact that He wants a relationship with us. <P><BR>Post your prayers and pray for each other.<P>Please pray for my h. He is still so much in the fog. I'm not sure what to ask prayer for. I guess first and foremost that His eyes, ears and heart be opened to Jesus' love for him. That the Holy Spirit is able to break through his wounded spirit and soften his heart to restore Jesus back in his heart. That his new neighbors have an opportunity to minister to him and that the Lord sends a man with a strong relationship with Jesus to talk with him.<P>Also pray that I just stay on staying with Christ and seeking Him with all my heart.<P>A special prayer that the Lord would heal my daughter of a virus that she may have gotten. She is only 16 and it could effect her for the rest of her life. That He will use even this for good.<P>Praise the Lord, for He hears our prayers and our cries. He is faithful and comes when we cry out to Him and seek Him with all our hearts. I am so thankful for a God like this!</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>

I need prayers for a break through or a sign or more faith or something... anything! I am tired.

1) My 2nd counseling session tomorrow.<P>2) Triggers: My H (WS) is performing a wedding Saturday afternoon (for the daughter of a close friend--there was really no way out of it without telling all). Also, this week's Sunday School lesson (H is teacher) is on overcoming prejudice (OW is Mexican). I am definitely dealing with prejudice, something that is fairly new to me, at least to this extent. (BTW, H ended A immediately after he told me, 4 months ago.)

For answers, to oh so many questions. Going to be meeting with pastor tomorrow to put some of my questions on the table, really struggling with my faith. I feel so abandoned and so confused on when it is God working or if he is just watching me but not really caring what is happening to me etc.<P> <P>

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Taj:<BR><B>Just Praise! The past three weeks I have felt like my life is finally getting on track after a long trek in the desert. Personal problems take a toll on your spiritual walk and I feel like God is bringing me back to where I belong.<P>"For the grace of God which brings salvation (Jesus) has appeared to all men. Teaching us to say NO to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and goldly lives in this present age." Titus 2:11-12<P>Look up! Your Redemption draws nigh!</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P><p>[This message has been edited by Taj (edited October 17, 2000).]

I am sorry for all of this quoting and posting. I tried to edit my original post and add to it and ended up quoting myself. <P>Please pray for my h, we have had a rough day. He just won't let himself off the hook. He has such a low opinion of himself since he had the affair that he just won't allow himself to see who he is in Christ and that God can use him again. Until he forgives himself and heals I just don't believe we can have complete healing as a couple. This is a lie from the pit of hell I know for God has placed his sins in the bottom of the sea and put up a no fishing sign. Why can't he believe it?<P>

Hi HW,<P>Please prayer for my Family H is still not back. Tomm is my birthday. H called to wish me happy b-day. and said he was sorry for what has happened. Please God help.....my family. My prayers are with you and everyone else<P>Michelle