I haven't been able to keep up with everyone, but see new names. How sad for this time of year. I reflect on a year ago -- knowing deep inside our Christmas tree going up was the last as a family, his indifference at my broken heartedness. A total nightmare. <P>He drove home Wednesday night. My daughter was with me, so he stayed at his mother's. Son went to Kentucky with girlfriend and daughter had to work Friday, so Thanksgiving night I was alone and he asked to stay with me. We had a wonderful night and great Friday together. He stayed again Friday night. Son came home Sat. afternoon, so he stayed at his mother's. I went over Sunday for a brunch before they left. Told him I loved him and he said "me too". Progress I guess. Our time together is always good. He still makes no reference to a "future" with us other than trips we'd like to take, etc. When speaking of a future home, he always says "If I get ..." So, I don't know if he even thinks of us with a future as married and living together or what. I guess I'm going to have to develop patience like I've never had before. To tell you the truth, for now I like things the way they are. Just when you get to missing him real bad, he's home. After the holidays will tell the tale I guess, as there won't be reasons to make the trip home. I did tell him I'd come visit the weekend of the 11th and he is making all sorts of plans for holiday type things to go see. Everyone tells me I'm his "security blanket" until someone else comes along -- that men just can't be alone. Maybe so, but I'm not ready to give completely up yet. People just don't know until they've been there.....<P>At any rate, this Thanksgiving memory replaces one that was quite ugly.<P>Could we be in the early stages of "rebuilding"?? Never really been there, so I'm hoping.<p>[This message has been edited by Janie (edited November 29, 1999).]