I am at one of those places where I am in need of prayer. God has kept me through this battle, but I am tired. I went to see H and m-i-l this weekend. My daughter is with H but is scheduled to return home by the middle of the month. My job is still very stressful and I have to pray through the day to manage to stay there. I know that I am the one who can set limits (with my job and with my H). This proves to be more difficult than it should be. I had prayed and planned to tell my H that I just could not do it anymore when I was there this weekend. He was explosive, yelling and cussing and then being sweet. No "I love you", but then I fould out he is writing to several girls on the internet. He portrays himself as a single dad. Then he talks to me about our future. I know this is all in God's hands, but I need the strength to set a boundary with him (and the wisdom to know where to set it). I know it has only been a month since my miscarriage and my physical body is still probably adjusting itself, but I began crying when I left and cried for several hours. The tears are so close to the surface for me and threaten to erupt when I least want them to. Please pray for me that I will do something this time, that I will have the strength and courage and wisdom to make some changes. Or if I am not supposed to make changes, that I will know this and just rest in what God is doing, knowing he will resolve it for me. I vacillate in my thinking. Sometimes I think I need to make a move and set my life on a different path and then sometimes I think that I need to wait on the Lord. I felt so certain that I should say to my H that I just could not do this anymore. (He is not constant in his thinking). I did not have the opportunity to say anything to him. I know that the Lord has been my strength this far. I am just so very tired. I am back to praying myself out of bed and out the door and through the day. I am grateful that I have a Father to help me because on what strength I have left, I would not be able to do this anymore. I feel as though I am in a compression chamber with all of this stress. Thank you for listening. One Day

Father, we praise you and thank for being there at all times, for the consistency of your love, for your faithfulness and your steadfastness in times of trouble.<P>We lift our sister up to you today Father and ask that you give her your holy wisdom and insight as a decision maker. We thank you that there is nothing that we go through that you cannot relate to, for you are our example of all things. <P>Father, to grief the loss of the gift you gave her, to feel pressured by a highly intense job and a bitter unfaithful husband, to have to share her special daughter and be separated from her for long periods of time are just so overwhelming. <P>Father, let the crisp outdoor air be refreshing for Oneday, let it breath life back into her so that her mind is as clear and crisp as the air about her. Help her to discern which problem to tackle first and give her clear direction in the way you would have her go. Show her what is healthy for her and let your wisdom guide rather than her emotions. Help her to remember that she is responsible first and foremost to you and that by seeking you and your righteousness first, everything else will follow.<P>Let her tears reduce the anxiety in her heart and let her feel comforted that you catch every single one of them. Let her be blessed today, IJN, Amen.

Oneday,<BR> I am where you are, as to not knowing whethwer to wait on God, or let something happen. My h is still living in our home asking for divorce, while talking about things in our future, its hard, it hurts.<BR> Dear God,<BR>Please bless oneday with a sense of peace, and comfort, make your will clear to her,<BR>open her eyes to the truth, ease her pain<BR>thank you for being with her so far, I know the comforting sense of your presence, and I too, long for more wisdom, guidance. Bless us with that please O' God, our help comes from you. Thank you for these sisters who pray with and for us........amen<BR>

Dear Sue B and Carol 14: Thank you both for your prayers. I read them yesterday and they meant so much to me. I read them again this morning and I will claim them. I know that no matter what, I need to let God take care of this situation and he will let me know when the time is right to make changes. My H blew up at the invasion of privacy I comitted by reading his email. I am ashamed, but I told him that I had a right to know and that he had not told me the truth. I told him that I can not do this anymore. His constantly changing his mind (or duplicity of mind) is tearing me to shreds. I am going to believe that God has the answer to this mess. H has backed out on his promise to return our daughter by mid month. He says he will keep her until after Christmas. I came unglued....not the right response. I have been giving him the daycare money to help out and I am going to keep my word and give him half of the money. I have to trust God to change his heart and return her. I have to let fight this battle as I do not have the strength. Please continue to pray that God's will be done and that Melissa will not be harmed by all of this. I know God has a plan, gives direction, and can do things beyond what we can imagine. My problem right now is with me. I claim his peace to act and speak the truth in love. I do not understand why everything is upon me at this time. I know that my endurance and strength have been from the Lord. I pray that my ears will be opened and that the Lord will flood my heart with his love. I ask forgiveness for invading my H's privacy and looking in his email. I knew in my heart that his heart was not where it should be. That should have been enough without looking for evidence. I blew it and acted wrongly. I ask that the Lord would direct how I release all of these emotions that I would do so in ways that are pleasing to him. I also know that I want the Lord to lead me in my decisions and direct me. I am too frightened (at this time) to do anything without him. Thank you....