I haven't posted for awhile. I have been very tired and easily moved to tears. I finally went to the DR and he has put me on antidepressants. I do not like having to take these as I believe that God has a better answer. That is why I am asking for prayer. I am experiencing stress from all sides. My job and my family. Any of you who know me, know that my H and I were making good progress towards reconciliation. Mid January he began putting heavy pressure on me to move to where he is. I told him that he either had to get a job and be able to support us, or be patient until I could find a good job there. The point is, he put up a wall of anger between us. My birthday was two weeks ago and we went on a real vacation (a first). The wall was still there, he slept in his clothes, in general seemed to be avoiding me. As I mentioned, I have been in a crisis myself and easily brought to tears. After returning, several things came to light that told the reason he had put up a wall. He was seeing someone else. This person called his Mom while we were gone and asked if my H had gone out of town with another woman, his Mom said yes, his wife. After it all came to light, the wall was down. He went back to his Moms and now the wall is back up again. I need prayer for strength and wisdom. Thank you....

Oh Father,<P>Be with oneday. Lord, give her comfort and peace. Tug on her to turn her eyes upon You, Lord and not on the circumstances. Lord, cause her to turn to You, trust You and lean not on her own understanding. Father remove this other woman from her husband's life. Lord, we ask that You bring this man into relationship with Jesus Christ, Lord change His heart as only You can. With man this is impossibe, but witht You all things are possible. Thank You Jesus for being our best friend. He is Lord, be still and KNOW He is there for You. In Jeus name, Amen.<P>Oneday,<P>I know that probably none of us like to take medication, but when circumstances keep piling up over time it is overwhelming. I went on them a year ago and upped them a bit in Jan. Best thing I could have done for me. <P>When you are feeling so bad and the hormones get out of wack you are up against a brick wall. I know and believe that God can do all things, and I know for sure I couldn't have gotten where I am now without Him but also the medication. <P>By taking the meds it allowed me with God to control the obsessional thoughts. It took the edge off of the lows, so I could more easily praise the Lord and seek His word. It helped me to sleep better so I can get up in the morning and have quiet time with Him.<P>It allows me to deal with things more calmly. I tell my patients, "If you have a headache you tak an aspirin. If you have depression you take Prozac." It always gets a laugh out of them and it normalizes it.<P>I believe God can do all things, but before I took them I couldn't be calm enough to seek Him as effectively. I feel better now then I have in a long time. I have been able to fight off the obsessional thoughts and dwell on Jesus. I can concentrate longer and read His word. I can remember what I read and can memorize His word. I do not believe that by taking medication that it shows a lack of faith in God. I believe that the medication allows the neurotransmitters to work more efficiently and then I trust God for the results. He has changed me and has brought me closer to Him.<P>I do not believe that I will have to take this medication for ever, though some people do. But with h's affair, moving out, the separation, the kids' emotional reactions, oldest daughter going to boarding school, starting school full time....it was too much and those things I could not give up. I had to be able to function, and the medication helped me off the floor so I was able to see Jesus working in it all.<P>Don't be ashamed but pat yourself on the back, you did something positive for yourself and God is not ashamed of you but proud of you. So often we take care of the needs for others and sometimes we need to take care of our needs along with letting God do His work. Trust Him on this one.<P><BR>

Dear hw, thank you so much for your prayer. Your words of encouragement helped me to gain a more acceptable perspective about my situation. Thank you!

God please help Onedayatatime and her H mend the marriage. Affairs are so difficult and painful. Please help her H find his way back to his family and to you God. <P>Also please give onedayatatime peace of mind and heart for your will. It is hard to be patient at times like these but please help her to stay strong in your love and your will. Show her your full love and guidance.